Pairing: Monou Fuuma/Shirou Kamui
Theme Set: Alpha
Rating: R –for implications of sexual intercourse between male characters-
Warning: Spoilers from the manga, mentions of boyxboy sexual relations but nothing explicit really. Some strong language. No beta and well, I still do have problems with tenses. And well... is Kamui and Fuuma, there is angst ahead, lots of angst.
Disclaimer: X/1999 does not belong to me; its characters and story are property of the artist group CLAMP.
Summary: Destiny is cruel, it has always been. There is no turning back and they know so.
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"Of wishes and broken promises"
Set 1:Of Undeniable Bonds
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#01 – Comfort
Fuuma holds him close and Kamui knows, for some odd reason, nobody can harm him if he stays right there.
#02 - Kiss
Their first kiss was a children thing, small lips press against each other out of simple curiosity, but it was, maybe, the beginning of something that might change the world's destiny.
#03 - Soft
Fuuma likes it, the feeling of Kamui's breath against his skin, soft and low; he uses it as a reminder one day he won´t anymore.
#04 - Pain
"I will kill you" the words hurt him more than the sword through his hand.
#05 - Potatoes
"I DON'T WANT THEM!" Kamui screams and runs upstairs to his room with round tears falling down his cheeks and his mother can't do anything but see his son long for the only place he has ever truly call home – "Fuuma loved potatoes and he would always share them with Kotori-chan and me"-.
#06 - Rain
As he walks to the mansion, Kamui can't stop hating himself for, even when he had hurt one of his friends, still wanting Fuuma back so desperately.
#07 - Chocolate
Kamui stares for a long time at the box of chocolates in front of him – "Eat them for me"- and doesn't know if it's a game or Fuuma really means it.
#08 - Happiness
Kamui's happiness only exists in a past where children ran free and innocent and could hold hands and never care if the world was going to end or not.
#09 - Telephone
Kamui didn't called them during those six years but still Fuuma waited patiently for the telephone to ring and hear the boy's voice at least once – it never happened but he still waited…-
#10 - Ears
Fuuma kisses his earlobe and Kamui shivers intoxicated under him – he shouldn't like it but he does anyways-
#11 - Name
"Kamui" it's supposed to be only a name but for them is a destiny they didn't ask for.
#12 – Sensual
The wondering hands of his twin star are lost underneath his clothes and the way Fuuma's voice rings from his lips to his fingertips drives Kamui to madness.
#13 - Death
When Kotori-chan dies Kamui locks himself from the world; so much later, as blood drips from his fingers, Kamui realizes, if Fuuma were to die he wouldn't have any other choice but to go as well.
#14 - Sex
It hurt, the first time, not because it wasn't pleasant, it was just far too much enjoyable for his own sanity, but the person holding him was not his Fuuma and would never be so Kamui felt disgusting and cheap just like the whore Fuuma kept repeating he was.
#15 - Touch
It´s light and almost forgotten but Kamui knows it´s still there –the memories of Fuuma's warm, protective and generous touch-.
#16 - Weakness
Kamui falls –bloody and broken- and as he stops his hands from catching him, Fuuma understand that Kamui still is and forever will be his greatest weakness.
#17 - Tears
It's almost foreigner, for Kamui, to not feel cold tears running down his cheeks.
#18 - Speed
It´s not the speed in which Fuuma could break all the bones in his body that scares Kamui the most: is the inhuman speed in which the golden eye boy can take Kamui´s clothes off or have him pinned against a wall that terrifies him deeply –it´s rather indignant and disturbing too-.
#19 - Wind
The wind carries a message to humanity´s savior right from the deepness of heaven ¨Destiny is not decided yet¨ but Kamui´s heart is reluctant to believe it.
#20 - Freedom
Kamui never felt love so strong for anybody that wasn't Fuuma or Kotori but he has so many friends now it feels as if he had cheated on them somehow and wants to lock himself up so he can once again only think and love them, forever –it's not easy tho'-.
#21 - Life
Fuuma's life ended when Kamui's wish finally found strength enough to get free from the boys silence.
#22 - Jealousy
Fuuma watches him, worrying, smiling, living, for everyone in the world and wishes to rip them all to pieces – Kamui should only see him, only, forever, him…-
#23 - Hands
They hold marks of betrayal, his hands, but to Kamui they are also marks of hope.
#24 - Taste
Their first true kiss tastes like dust, tears and blood and it craves itself into Kamui's memories with the image of Kotori's body being torn to pieces.
#25 – Devotion
I Love Youit´s the last thing Fuuma cries as the darkness locks his consciousness into the deepest sleep and his life and wish are given to Kamui as a devotion gift.
#26 - Forever
Kamui reaches for his friend, his lover, his Fuuma´s hand at the other side of the darkness but forever stretches in front of him and takes his wish so far, far away he can no longer hear his own voice calling out the name of the person he truly loves most.
#27 - Blood
The blood drips from his wounds but Kamui can't feel the pain anymore, his heart can no longer feel anything at all.
#28 - Sickness
Kamui knows he's not humanity's savior, he doesn't care about the world; all he needs is his best friend back and it's wrong but he can't bring himself to care on the least.
#29 - Melody
It's a broken melody of pain and wishes, their life, their destiny and their love.
#30 – Star
¨I am your twin star¨ and it destroyed the little life it was left for them.
#31 - Home
Kamui closes his eyes as the sun shines through the tree adorning Kotori´s grave and a tear drops from his eye as sleep claims him: ¨I just want to go home with Fuuma¨.
#32 - Confusion
Sometimes, as Fuuma´s body and heat tangles up with his, Kamui can't help but wonder if the entire end of the world thing was just a bad joke but then everything ends and he can see the dark gleam in his twin star eyes and knows is painfully real.
#33 - Fear
¨You choose to be a Dragon of Heaven… so I´ll be a Dragon of Earth…¨ it´s right there when Kamui's true fear becomes reality and Fuuma's eyes go red and dark; everything simply goes downhill from there.
#34 - Lightning/Thunder
He curls around himself as the storm cries behind the windows, this time nobody will come to protect him from the lighting.
#35 – Bonds
"I couldn't protect Kotori… that's why… I will protect Fuuma" he was Kamui's very first friend and he would protect that bond even if he had to die in the process.
#36 - Market
When their mothers send them for some stuff for dinner Fuuma held his hand as they walk to the grocery store; Kamui keeps the memories at night, at least, to make it sane through the nightmares.
#37 - Technology
Satsuki´s monitor records a scene that will forever be on Beast records as ¨Kamui´s Night activities¨; Fuuma appreciated the copy, Kamui not so much.
#38 - Gift
Life is the gift Kamui gives him and Fuuma wishes he had keep it.
#39 – Smile
Kamui's bright and beautiful smile is the only thing keeping Fuuma sane in the darkness that's slowly consuming his soul.
#40 – Innocence
¨I love Fuuma more than anything in the world!¨ It didn't come to Fuuma, until many, many years later, how those innocent words would change earth's destiny.
#41 - Completion
Kamui screams against the pillow and his body contracts on itself as Fuuma holds his hips still; He feels complete, loved, perfect but oh so disgusting.
#42 - Clouds
They look up to the clouds from their grass bed and smile as the image of dancing fairies makes their way through the white sky; Fuuma looks up at the red-cloudless sky as he points his Shinken at Kamui´s heart and believes –truly believes- those were the time when he was the happiest.
#43 - Sky
As the sky cries tears of pain and destruction, Kamui's only though is Fuuma and his beautiful golden eyes ready to kill him.
#44 - Heaven
"I will protect you" to be held by those arms and feel it's warm all over him was heaven and Kamui wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.
#45 – Hell
"I want to protect this world where Fuuma and Kotori can live happily." the moment the words left his mouth his world turned into hell.
#46 – Sun
Kotori´s the sun: beautiful, bright, perfect and it´s the only one that can truly see the way the moon shines over the earth with want, need and love – she also sees the red look of jealousy directed over to her and wonders if the moon's so blind not to see earth looking back at him desperately needing exactly the same as him-.
#47 – Moon
Fuuma is the moon; Bright and distant, hiding his true feelings behind the sun bright existence; pretending he doesn't want earth to himself.
#48 – Waves
As the waves of the destructive sea break Tokyo apart; Kamui´s feet can only take him right to the hurricane´s eye - right to Fuuma.
#49 – Hair
Their hair mixes with sweat, tears, blood and the heat of the room rises as Kamui´s back arches under Fuuma's hands and neither of them can hold their need any longer –their limbs are tangle together and there is no way to know where one ends and the other begins-.
#50 – Supernova
Their powers crash and their bodies dance -clashing and breaking-; their hearts are dying and the world is too; everything will explode when one of their Shinken goes right through the other´s heart.
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