Title: Dying

Author: Limnamae

Disclaimer: Joss Whedon own the characters and Britney Spears the song

Timeline: I don´t know. Properly after the meeting between then in season 6

Spoilers: Everything up till Flooded.

Synopsis: Buffy kills herself after talking to Angel after Flooded.

Feedback: Yes, please. Just so I know it is okay or what it is

Notes: So I wrote this some time ago. Dont know if it is any good so I will let you guys decide. Also English isn´t my native tong so sorry for any spelling mistakes.

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Why did you not see me. See my desperate need for you. I needed you. I know I did not say it but I did. I still do. You´re the one who are suppose to know me better than I know myself. You´re my soulmate. That´s what everybody say. And I believe them. Or I did. Until you called me and made me come to you. We talked. You said you were happy I was back. You´d missed me. But I didn´t know you anymore. You had chanced. You´re eyes were almost empty when you told me you loved Cordelia. And my heart broke. This is not the Angel I know. You said I was the only one you had

ever loved in 241 years. How could you do this to me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I dont understand how it could end like that. You promised me forever and I believed in you. Now I try to live my life like you wanted me too but without you it is empty and with any meaning. I have never felt so alone before. Small and empty with nowhere to turn to.

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

Sometimes at night I pretend you are here. That is how I get some sleep. It is the only way to rest. You told me you loved me. That not even death could change it so what have I done to make you change even though you promised. It almost seems like you love Cordelia because you cant stand to love me

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
Everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

You were always my strength. The one I could always count on. You were there to help me stand and you didn´t expect anything in return. Now I´m trying to go on with my life. Living it like you wanted me to, but without you I just can´t. I have fallen and for once you weren´t there to catch me. Everywhere I go in this town. At the graveyards. Just everywhere I am I see you. Lurking around the corner but when I turn you´re not there. And you never were.

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

I know I have given you a hard time. Knowing me have brought you a lot of pain and I´m so sorry. I wish I could be the one for once who would safe you and help you find you self again but I´m too weak. I know you will blame yourself when you here I have killed my self, but you shouldn´t. You are the reason I have made it this far. I just hope someone will find this letter and give it to you. I know there are a lot of things that will hurt you when you read this but this is my way of saying goodbye and I´m sorry.

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

Now as I lay down the knife and go to rest I pray you will find the happiness I couldn´t give you. For me. You´re face is the last thing I will see in my mind before I go.

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I guess I fell. And without you to help me stand again I failed. I guess I need you baby.

Buffy