I really have no idea what I'm doing with this, but I've been working on it for like the last few hours... Just thoughts I guess...Its basicially going to be a one-shot..nothing more.

All I remember is people yelling my name. I couldn't see them. I couldn't see anything. Confused? I bet so. Let me take you back about...an hour or so.

"Eli, what the hell did you do?" my mom yelled at me. She was always so up in my face with everything. "I didn't do shit!" I lie. "Eli, your lying! Let me see your arm! NOW!" Maybe yes, she was my mother but still...I wasn't going to listen. She stood there, with her hands on her hips glaring at me. She stepped closer to me and grabbed at my arm, only to have me pull back even more. "Elijah NOW!" She wasn't going to see. She doesn't understand. At all. She never will. I turned and ran up the stairs. Of course she decided to follow me. I ran to my room and slammed the door shut behind me. "Eli, don't make me call your dad!" Is she really threatining me?"What the fuck is he going to do? Ground me? Beat me? It's all happened before mom!" Nothing new was going to happen. It's always the same. "Please baby boy, stop. What about Clare?"

I froze. Clare. She had no idea. What would she say if she found out? She would never talk to me again. I can't put her through all that. But I had no choice. "You know it will kill her." Seriously! "Thanks mom. That makes me feel so much better!" And still, she doesn't get it. "I didn't mean it like that. I'm sorry." No she wasn't. She meant what she said. She's just trying to suck up and make me feel bad about everything.

The only thing I could think of ws the look on Clare's face if she knew. I walked to my bathroom and slammed the door shut. It was only a matter of time before my mom would walk away. "Eli, what are you doing?" I stayed silent. "ELIJAH! ANSWER ME!" Does she ever shut up? "Go away!" I pulled up my sleeve and ran my fingers over the cuts. What was I doing to myself? It was going to end in one of two ways. I could stop, and live in hell for the rest of my life. Faking a smile. Or I could end it here and now. My train of thought was cut short when my mom started banging on my door. I looked up in the mirror, I looked dead. My color was drained, and my eyes were dull. My mom continued to beat on my door yelling for me to open it. I looked down at the sink, comtemplating on whether or not to pick it up. I did. I took the razor bewteen my fingers and glided it across my wrist. Everything after that was a blur.

And now here I was. People kept yelling my name and I only recognized one. Clare. She muttered something along the lines of, "please, don't leave me." I wanted to open my eyes and tell her I loved her. I knew this wasn't going to end how she wanted. But I can't go back and change it now. I felt someone grab my hand, and hold tight. I knew it was Clare. Her hands were so soft. "I love you Eli" was the last thing I heard, and all the screams stopped.

"Elijah Goldsworthy, I never thought I'd see you this soon." I knew that voice. I opened my eyes to see who it was. A tall girl stepped around a tree and my mouth dropped. I was speechless. "Julia..."

alright, im done. fail? possible. I really dont care though... reviews would be nice. they might just cheer me up.