Author Note: Just letting people know ahead of time, though it is mentioned in the story, this is about seven years ahead.

Chapter 01

Sinful Kisses

Now –

He hated himself.

They were there in his partner's room, in the darkness of the corner where the bed was still placed where little moonlight could not touch their faces. Both of them were exhausted from rolling around in bed with one another, engulfing in their old battle of heat and ice to make their own steam. At this very moment though, the dominant male was resting peacefully, and the submissive male sat in the upper corner of the bed. For the past month, the latter of the pair had a very dark secret that he could not even live with, a secret that grew bigger each time he looked at the former. How could he have done such an unfaithful thing to the man that he had been with for a little over six months—they came close for a year, but were official for six months. The man that he was with for so long was undeniably blind and completely loyal to his one partner, and it tore the unfaithful one into shreds. It was a miracle itself to have his partner to keep silent about their seeing each other, until he could build some confidence to be with someone of the same gender. However, he was asked by his tall partner why he would be ashamed of being public with him, and this was what allowed them to be publicly known, but they would not show their love publicly.

"I'm so sorry Kurosaki," he whispered quietly, curling into a ball in the corner, hiding his face. "I really am."

His orange-haired partner stirred awake at the words spoke since he had become a light sleeper when he began sharing his small bed with him. Large callused hands flexed slowly to show his stirring, and soon enough, soft tired chocolate brown hues revealed themselves to the world. He shifted around to feel for the smaller one, but became alert when not feeling him at his side, so he looked around with concern. All alarms settled down when seeing how his partner was shrinking in the corner as if something was eating at him while he shivered. A hand came out to him, softly caressing his silky white colored hair that was not so spiky after tossing and turning around in the bed. The small pale form jumped and jolted at the touch, revealing wide turquoise hues with tears trying to fall from his face that he was fighting. For quite some time, it was obvious that he had been hiding something from him, but he pretended to not notice to protect the other. Everyone said that ignorance was bliss; he tried to stay considerate to that still arrogant part of his smaller half, and pray that he would be told soon.

"Hey, what's wrong Toushirou?" The larger one slowly sit up against the wall next to him. "Are you okay?"
"I-I'm fine." He quickly wiped his eyes to make sure he did not shed a single tear in front of this man.
Again, he knew that was not the truth, but could only stay obedient. "Well, if you're sure about it."
"Just tired, that's all." To make him not suspicious, he leaned against him. "I'm, a little cold too."
"What do you expect when you're nearly naked outside the covers?" He scooted him closer.
Indeed, all he had on was his partner's shirt. "I expect you to keep me warm, that's what."
"Don't tempt me for another round, you're exhausted." His lips pressed against his head.
"Ichigo…" Hitsugaya Toushirou whispered against him. "You know that I… um…"

"Hey, I love you too." Kurosaki Ichigo knew that he had a hard time saying it.
Hearing this hurt the captain, but it made him feel safe at the same time. "Thank you."
"You're welcome, taichou." He grinned, kissing the side of his face. "Now get some rest, okay?"
"No…" Toushirou forced himself to sorely move around and sit on his partner's pelvis. "Once more…"
This had him laugh softly in turn. "You want to go another round? But you're so sore, little man."
"I have to go back to Seireitei tomorrow. You should stay away… for at least a week."
Hurt by this, he pushed his emotions aside. "Of course, anything you want."

The negative emotions that were pushed aside did not go unnoticed by the captain, but this man would at least respect his wishes. It was not that Ichigo should stay away for a week to keep others off their backs about their relationship since almost everyone knew about it, but about something else. He needed to have a little space between them so he could place the past behind him so that he could be good enough for this man. They have known each other for seven years now, and the only reason why Ichigo stayed in the clinic with his family, was that they needed him as much as he did. However, Toushirou did his utmost best to keep away from the family now that he tried to sneak over during the night, or when he was alone. All he wanted when he was on Earth was to have Kurosaki Ichigo pay attention to him, and only him; no one else could have him during that time. As a matter of fact, he would secretly get jealous if he so much as saw the carrot top with someone else, conversing with them, laughing with them, anything. Though he knew that he had no reason to worry about betrayal—he did not have to worry about him being unfaithful.

The larger of the two groaned tiredly as the other straddle him in hopes of arousal for one last round. "You know, you're cute when you're determined like this. It makes you almost more desirable, if possible."
"I-I'm not cute—how many times do I have to tell you I'm not cute?!" His cheeks were tinted a light red color, and his entire face soon turned the same shade. "Just for that, I don't even want to do this now."
He chuckled softly at the defensive captain. "I'm sorry, you're a very handsome little man." That was something that he would call him, little man, and Toushirou did not object. "But if you want to sleep—"
"No." Toushirou replied sharply with a quickly tongue. "I want to be made love to, right now." It was a little embarrassing for him to say, but he was taught to say what he wanted. "Perhaps even until sunrise…"
A brow raised to this suggestion though, "as great as that sounds, your body can't handle that much, and I don't think mine can take one position for so long." He smiled sadly. "Is this break-up sex, Toushirou?"

"W-What? No! I just…" Said captain did not know how to explain. "I don't know, forget I said anything."

"You want me to stay away from Soul Society for a while?" Once Ichigo asked this, his partner looked at him apologetically. Toushirou always appreciated how he would catch on, but it hurt to admit to him when what he said was sometimes—if always, on target. "Okay then, I'll back off until you come back for me." It sounded reasonable to a certain point; Ichigo did not want Toushirou to feel like he was crowding him in any way. "So in exchange for my generous offer, we'll do any position I can think of until sunrise, fair?"

Toushirou glared at him.

"You, are a wicked, vile man."

It was silently agreed upon as the captain undid Ichigo's pants to get him inside of his entrance, and there was no objections when noticing that he was being demanding. Based on Toushirou's determination though, it would seem that they were going to start sitting in each other's arms first. What he did not know was that his pale little body was going to be up the walls and against his desk—perhaps other styles too. As the submissive one began to attempt doing all of the work for the exhausted partner, the latter brought a hand out to tease and fondle what arousal parts that were poking through his shirt. This had instantly frustrated from his concentration being broken, Toushirou fidgeted around and leaned forth against Ichigo's chest. He hated the carrot top when he would do this; let him do what he wanted and how he wanted it, only to have it turned around on him. Just for one night, he wanted to do half of the work and not leave everything to his stronger half, and it made him frown with disappointment. Ichigo, on the other hand, knew that Toushirou was trying to please him, but did not know that he wanted to do it in return.

"We can share the pleasure Toushirou." Ichigo spoke softly. "I just want you to feel good too."

This had the small one stop for the moment, hesitant to continue, "Kurosaki…"
"Yes, taichou?" Another thing between them, it tended to be annoying.
"Please… don't ever leave me, for something I did." He whispered.
Ichigo frowned, "what did you do that you think is so bad?"

"N-Nothing," he was treading on thin ice, he would have to confess if he continued. "W-Wait, let me go to the bathroom first." Ichigo threw his head back in disbelief at the killjoy. "Sorry, I'll be right back, Ichigo."

"No, no, take your time! If I fall asleep, it's your fault!" Once the captain was up and out, he laid back.

Toushirou did as he said he would, he went to the bathroom down the hall to take care of his business, and eventually came out. As he opened the door, Ichigo's sarcastic younger sister was in front of him, causing him to prickle at the sight of her. She was the reason why he would come at nights to spend time with her brother, she was why he always felt so guilty with him. Last month when everyone's opinions were getting to him, he went to the closest woman he could find, and became the dominant partner. It was somewhat alright, what with her being eighteen now, until after sleeping together did he remember that eighteen years old still meant she was a child. He could not look at her without hating himself for betraying his boyfriend with someone else, who was a family member… and of the opposite gender. If there was anything that could have been worse, it may have been sleeping with his father, but no, this was much worse. Who in their right mind would find the closest person who was completely infatuated with them, and use it to their advantage to feel what it was like to be dominant.

"Toushirou… I need to talk to you about something." She whispered quietly to him.
The captain looked away, disgusted. "If it's about last month, Karin-san, I don't want to hear it."
"But this is important!" Kurosaki Karin shuttered for her loudness. "I really need to tell you something, I—"
"I'm with your brother." Toushirou clenched his fist. "What I did with you that night was a mistake."
"Yeah, I know that. But Toushirou, this is really important. You see, I'm actually—"

"Goodnight, Karin-san." With that, he returned to Ichigo's bedroom.

Hitsugaya Toushirou, cheated on his boyfriend, Kurosaki Ichigo; he cheated on him with not just anyone, but with one of his younger twin sisters, Kurosaki Karin, who was head over heels in love with him.

"You took your time," Ichigo mused at the white-haired male entered the room, who was locking the door behind him while frowning. "What's wrong Toushirou, you don't look happy." He sat up tiredly, only to have the child prodigy climb up onto the bed to embrace the male. "Did Karin say something you didn't like?" The captain stiffened when hearing her name. "I heard her yelling in the hall, I almost thought it was because you were only wearing one of my shirts." His hand came up to caress his head softly. "It's okay."

"I'm tired, Ichigo…" He nuzzled against him tiredly. "Can we go to sleep now?"
"Sleep? You wanted to 'make love until sunrise,' remember?" His voice was gentle.
"I know I did… sorry, but, I don't feel like it anymore." Toushirou nuzzled against him.
Ichigo kissed the top of his head, "alright, alright, whatever you want. Goodnight."
The captain laid on top of the other, and began to fall asleep. "…goodnight…"

"Hey son, listen to this, it's your horoscope for this week! Don't worry about what other people think—do what feels right! If there's outrage, that could just mean you're doing right. In any case, you should be having fun, no matter what! Looks like you're going to have a good week, huh? Hitsugaya-taichou's going to stay for the week I bet." Ichigo's idiotic two-faced father, known as Kurosaki Isshin, grinned slyly. "Oh! Let's look for his horoscope too!" He was purposely not paying attention to the fact that Toushirou was coming down the stairs right now, dressed in appropriate clothing. "Ah, found it. That friend who never fails to get you to do something no one else ever could? They're at it again—and you won't mind it a bit. You may even do some instigating yourself, this time out. Be sure to be honest to that special someone in your life though, you might regret it otherwise! That sounded a little more threatening… didn't it?"

"You're dreaming, old man." Ichigo stated, drinking his coffee with only his boxers and pants on, no shirt.
Isshin attempted to smack him on the head, but it was dodged. "Hah! You're my son alright! Still swift—"
In one second, he tipped his father's chair, causing him to fall back. "Don't talk to me about being a son."
"Why are you still mad at me?!" He then saw Toushirou. "Hitsugaya-taichou, tell Ichigo to be nice to me!!!"

Toushirou tensed lightly when he was announced to the family who was eating breakfast at the table together. There was a seat next to Ichigo that was empty and waiting just for him, so he quietly came over to join them… since they were like family to him. Karin sat across from him, frowning as she really wanted to talk to the captain before he returned to Soul Society today, and Yuzu sat next to her. Ichigo pointed at the former twin sister with his silverware, telling her to be nice to Toushirou who was exhausted from his tossing and turning in his sleep. Then the two foolish ones of the family began sobbing; Yuzu begging her father to get a cot for Toushirou to sleep on so he would not be so uncomfortable, Isshin sadly agreed. It annoyed Ichigo to know that this thing his father was doing was only a mask for his daughters, but he knew better, ever since the war. Memories began flooding through Ichigo's head from back then when he had to save Kuchiki Rukia… when he had to save Inoue Orihime—being manipulated by Aizen Sousuke. The carrot top snapped with blind rage and raised his fist to slam it into the table to vent his frustration of being used as a puppet since birth, but Toushirou grabbed his hand.

"Calm down, what is it?" The captain frowned; he was used to these episodes of his. "What's wrong."
"Nothing… just, thinking of that bastard and what he said to me." He lowered his hand down. "Sorry."
Toushirou sighed and released him. "That was years ago, grow up and put that behind you already."
This caused him to snort at the cocky little attitude. "You could use some growing too, Toushirou."
"Don't make me hit you so early in the day." All of his attention went to breakfast in front of him.

Ichigo smiled at him in a soft manner, thankful that he seemed better than last night when he seemed a little shaken up. He knew that Karin must have said something to make him feel a little disturbed for some reason, but the two were like siblings in his eyes. His attention then went to his own plate of food, he knew how he had to eat it before it got cold, so he inhaled the meal with a grin. Toushirou rolled his eyes at the fool who made a world record of eating their breakfast to fast, but Yuzu giggled, so it was okay. His eyes caught glimpse of Karin still watching him with that same expression still, and this forced him to pretend that she did not exist at the table. He was not going to have a conversation with her if it had to involve that night last month when he had an affair with her. Even though it was a one-night stand with her while Ichigo was working late, it was enough to scar him and remain loyal. If Ichigo ever found out that Toushirou slept with his little sister, he might never trust him again—or worse, want to separate.

"Toushirou-kun, are you going back after dinner?" Kurosaki Yuzu asked innocent, spoon in hand.
"What?" Said captain looked at her, then realized what she said. "Oh, yes, I am as a matter of fact."
"Good, maybe Ichigo can buy some condoms, can Shinigami get each other pregnant?" Karin glared.
Her brother choked on his glass of milk, set it down, and scolded her. "Karin! That was inappropriate!"
"So what? Is it possible a male Shinigami can get another male Shinigami pregnant?" She questioned.
"No, it is the same as humans. As you know, Shinigami and humans can produce." Toushirou answered.

Ichigo grumbled at this. "Great… remind me of being a half-breed why don't you?" He sat up slowly to stretch out his body. "I don't know what's going on, but you better shape up Karin. A college or university isn't going to take that attitude of yours." His plates were gathered and he placed them in the sink quietly. There was a knock on the door, irritating him a bit, yet still came over to open the door. "Hello Renji."

"Whoa, are we cranky this morning?" Abarai Renji grinned widely. "Can we talk in private, please?"
"Why? So you can tell me that you finally got laid? Man or woman, top or bottom?" He grinned in return.
"N-Not so loud!" The lieutenant grabbed him and brought him outside, closing the door behind them.
"Uh-oh, I wonder if Ichi-nii is cheating on you." Karin scowled at the captain that was as tall as her.
Toushirou would not care if he did, but knew better. "Unlike myself, Kurosaki Ichigo is a loyal man."
"And for a while, so were you, right Toushirou?" She then dismissed herself from the table.

In truth, he wished that Ichigo would turn on him and sleep with someone… the only way to truly get even with him though was to sleep with his best friend, Hinamori Momo. Seconds later, the two fools entered the family clinic in a rough housing manner, mainly Ichigo giving Renji a noogie while in a headlock. The two were once an item five years ago, before that though it was Orihime and then Rukia—Kurosaki Ichigo was not homosexual, but bisexual. He said one time that he did not like having to choose one gender and staying with it; he loved whom he loved, and no questions were asked. Toushirou continued listening to the two fooling around in the other room, causing him to become jealous little by little until the glass of milk shattered in his hand. Yuzu began to panic and saying how Toushirou's hand was bleeding—and it did not take long before Ichigo came over to check on him. Keeping turquoise hues away from the over worried chocolate brown hues, he allowed Ichigo to inspect his hand without a fight. Letting him remove the shards embedded in his skin before healing him with some kidou that he had learned from the years.

"Oh sorry, I forgot Hitsugaya-taichou was here." Renji knew he had to apologize to the jealous captain.
"Yeah right, you just wanted to gloat about sleeping with Rukia." Ichigo snickered. "Are you going after my exes? Because, if you are, I would love to see you hit on Byakuya, especially after getting his sister!"
"S-Shut up! You and taichou are completely the same! The only one who's top is the strongest person!"
"What are you complaining about stupid, it's the same in your predicament as well!" He laughed like Hell.
"Renji you bastard!" A woman yelled, causing both Ichigo and Renji to twitch in fear. "I know you're here!"

"He's right here Rukia—!" Renji began strangling Ichigo for ratting him out.
Kuchiki Rukia charged in immediately. "You bastard, I'll kill you! You told him didn't you!"
"N-No, of course I didn't! Why would I want to tell him we slept together?!" Renji was really stupid.
"…with no condoms." Ichigo coughed into his hand once he was released by the redhead.
The woman began attacking now. "I'll kill you Renji!" The chase began.

"Ichigo," Toushirou called since they were now alone in the kitchen.
He looked at him. "Does your hand still hurt you Toushirou?"
"You can see others this month, if you wanted to."
"I don't understand." The carrot top frowned.

"It's just like I said, if you want to see if someone else is better off with you than I am, I wouldn't mind if you slept with someone behind my back. I—" Toushirou was interrupted once Ichigo placed their lips together, and the former leaned into it in return. His arms wrapped around the taller man's neck to fight his insecurities of someone walking in on them, but Ichigo did so much for him that he did not care. "I… I think it would be fair if you cheated on me, to get back at me for the things that I have done in the past."
"Toushirou," the little captain looked up at him, "no matter what you think you did that was so bad, I would never betray you and sleep with someone else. The only person I want to be with is you, that's why I'm trying to be a good boy and wait for you to let me know when I can come visit you." He kissed him again. "If you don't stop trying to push me away, I might start going to the store to buy some barrettes for your—"
"I will personally kill you if you finish that sentence." Toushirou hated when he was teased like this, but he loved it at the same time. "It's just that, you have experience with dating others, and this is my first time to do this." He frowned. "I'm sure that there's someone that is much more experienced in this stuff than me."
"Eh, I don't care about that, it makes it more pleasing to know that I can tease you with the little things." To prove his point, he placed a hand under the captain's chin. "Besides, you've completely fallen for me."
The captain swatted his hand away. "Shouldn't you be with a woman, don't you want any kids Ichigo?"

Said man smiled. "All I want, and all I need, is you."

Everything he said, hurts Toushirou even more.

"Just have fun while I'm in Soul Society." He turned to leave.
"H-Hey, do you want me to escort you to the shop?"
"No thank you." His eyes rolled. "I'm a taichou."
Ichigo frowned. "Alright then, be safe then."

Toushirou began to walk out of the house since the door was still open due to the crazy pair that came in not long ago, but stopped to look at the carrot top. There was a feeling deep inside him that told him that, if he did not tell this man the truth about what he had done, he might lose him for good. He jolted in shock when the Strawberry came over and kissed him on the forehead as a see you later type of kiss. The little captain looked up at him, wishing that he was a least six inches taller so the taller one did not have to bend down for him. It was admitted that he still had a few more decades until he looked like an adult, right now he looked like an eighteen year-old ironically. With the feeling sinking in more and more, Toushirou stood on the tips of his toes to wrap his arms around his partner's neck. This forced his loyal partner to lower his head down to receive a kiss from the one asking for his attention one last time before he would leave. Toushirou could not break his lover's life into pieces by telling him of one single accident that had no chain reaction to it.

"Don't worry, I'll be a good boy and keep my temper down." Ichigo grinned. "Now go be a taichou."

This caused Toushirou to look down in disappointment, he wanted to stay, but…

"Thank you, Kurosaki Ichigo." He sighed. "Keep to your promise."

With this, he turned around and left the clinic.

Renji and Rukia came out of hiding, snickering at how lovey-dovey the ice-cold captain could be with the most obnoxious man in the world. They began to poke and proud the man for the details of everything that happened between him and the captain, even though it was not his first time with a captain. Yes, Ichigo had been with two other stuck up captains, and it gave a few people a run for their money once they guessed. Ichigo sighed at their persistence though by picking both of them up in his arms, heaving them over his shoulders, and followed Toushirou. Not even five minutes later, he was following his little captain with luggage on his shoulders, but he had to drop them off. The last thing he needed was these two gossipers to go around spreading details about his love life so he, in return, could do the same. This irritate Toushirou to no end when he understood that he was spied on with his boyfriend, he would surely get his revenge later on when he had the chance. Once the three were at the shop, Ichigo respected his partner's wishes by only rustling his hair instead of another kiss, he turned to leave right afterwards.

When he came home though, things took a turn for the worse.

"Ichi-nii," Karin frowned at the top of the stairs, "I need to talk to you."
"Yeah, sure, go to my room, I'll be right up." He thought she needed to apologize.
The teenager would not take this as her answer unfortunately. "It can't wait any more, I'm scared."

All of his attention went to this girl, concerned once hearing this.

"Okay, so what seems to be the problem?"

Ichigo had her sit up on his bed where it was most comfortable while he sat at his desk chair where it was not so comfortable. He did not like knowing that his tough little sister was afraid of something, and he would do anything to fix this problem. It did not, however, surprise him that she was coming to him with her problems since she had been doing that all her life. If something was ever wrong, his cocky little sister would always come to him in hopes of receiving help or solace from whatever it was. The reason why that probably was though, was because their father never took anything seriously for the twins, and her twin was a crybaby. Meaning that her only chance of having a decent conversation about what was bothering her was to tell her big brother about it. She knew that he would always come through for her no matter how difficult the problem was, he would find a solution. Karin began to cry now as she knew she had to confess about something that was surely to make him undoubtedly furious.

"A-A month ago, I was with a guy that I really liked." She wiped her eyes. "You were at work, Yuzu was helping Dad with a patient on the other side of the house. So… it was just me and him in my room…"
Ichigo could tell what was this was coming down to, but wanted to avoid it. "Don't tell me whoever this punk was had abused you. Was he trying to force you to do anything with him? Or was he pressuring—"
"He was a little forceful, but he wanted to do it as much as I did. We got into bed late afternoon, and he was gone before midnight." Her eyes shut tightly. "He didn't hurt me though, but that's not the problem."

"I'm listening," he replied, knowing he could not tell her to tell him.

"S-See, he was already seeing someone, but he wanted to give it a try with someone new, and he tried it out with me. He regretted everything we did without even a second thought, and left." Karin clenched her pants tightly as she had to come clean with her situation, and Toushirou was not listening. "For a few weeks now, I have been feeling a bit sick, and I remembered we didn't have protection. I snuck into Dad's office and grabbed a pregnancy test, o-only to find out that it took a turn for a worse."

Big brother Strawberry dipped his head. "Please don't tell me Karin…"

Unfortunately, she had to tell him—she had to tell someone.

"Ichi-nii," Karin paused sadly, "I'm… I'm pregnant."

Author Note: It seems a little deep, but I needed it to get out of my head, and I wanted to see what people thought about it. For some reason, I wanted a horrid twist, and it seemed to fit. Let me know what you think, otherwise, this might just sit here... never finished.