I was born on a cold day. I was the baby beauty; thick chestnut hair, and dazzling violet eyes.
There was a perfect life planned out for me, I'm sure. But that was all taken away before I had the chance to actually enjoy it.
Instead I grew up with two, incredibly generous people, who loved and cared for me like I was their own. Along with all the other dozen kids.
No one ever wanted me. I was told it was because they wanted a 'normal' child. Not a child that knew more than them.
But it was because of my Guardian, he's always watched over me. He's been with me for as long as I can remember. The only bad thing he did was hurt that one boy...he'd made fun of me. My Guardian didn't like that.
I grew up, a simple teen that all the girls envied, one all the boys hated, yet secretly adored. I kept mostly to myself, never bothered anyone.
Two people were willing to take me into their lives and make me their friend. The one Ocean-Eyed Angel, and the Silent Clown. I always tried to make myself look good enough for them, so they'd keep me by their side.
A few years later, I was raped. The man was cruel. Married with a kid I later found out. He didn't 'abuse my body', but merely 'pleased me', which actually turned out to be just for himself. He left me with nightmares, haunted memories. Along with a shattered and broken heart.
I then found something that completely changed my life. He showed me what it was like to be loved, and how to love in return. He even made Him dissappear, because He felt that he wasn't needed anymore.
4 years in the knowing, 3 years in the dating process, but only 2 in true happiness. At the end of the second, a Long-Haired Lady came in, and it seemed that everything shattered.
Things happened between the Long-Haired Lady and my Great Protector. Things that I didn't find out until about until the end of year 2.
He did things with this Long-Haired Lady, things he was only suppose to do with me. This Long-Haired Lady swung him from me.
Things went from Hell to worse from there. He was pulled from my arms when I thought he was here. I myself was forced to take him home on my own. It was Him and my newly found Guardian who stopped me from going on my high-murder spree and taking off with my Great Protector.
When I thought things things were just getting patched up, it got worse. A week He spent with this Long-Haired Lady and her Two-Sided Lover.
Her Two-Sided Lover allowed my Great Protector to have his Long-Haired Lady so that he wouldn't feel 'alone' anymore.
My Grat Protector took that offer, and begged me to stay by his side. It killed me too, but I did it against the screams of my Guardian. I don't know weither or not I should believe him or not. My Guardian's cursing because He was stupid enough to believe that fascade, but my heart aches to have what we did.
I see other couples cuddled together, doing things I'm not allowed to do. It makes me want to snake my braid around my throat and choke myself to death.
But I'm going to but my last ounce of trust into my once Great Protector, and stay by his side.
I'm only hopeing...that for this once, He will keep His hopefully Unbreakable Promise.