It starts with a failed attempt
to be everything I try to be everyday
to lose at trying to be who I'm not
because for two hours on one day
I was convinced I could pull this off
To be hurt inside
because I was wrong...
to hear about it constantly
from my heart and from my mind
"Why did I fail?"
Questioning myself constantly
"Where did I go wrong?"
I went wrong by stepping into the room
thinking that I really would be good enough
for once in my life.
I let it rock, all the while thinking that I was doing a good job
when deep down inside, that little demon screamed for me to stop
who I really am knows that I didn't cut it
and therefore, I got cut
Someone needs to realize
how badly it hurts
to not be good enough
for the people you love
or for yourself
because inside
you're shattered
and no one knows who you are.
This is what it means to be cut.