Okay, so I know this is a new story, and I'm sorry for those of you who are waiting on Romeo and Juliet, but I'm really stuck on what to do next in that story. If you have any ideas let me know. I'm hoping this will help me with my other stories, It came to me last night and I couldn't stop thinking about it. And I do know where I want this to go. But any advice or suggestions would be appreciated! Thanks and I hope you like this!
Disclaimer: I do now own Twilight, Sadly
Chapter one
I woke up with my head throbbing, I will never drink again, I thought. Yeah right, I argued with myself, thats what you said the last time.
Okay, so I drink occasionally and have fun, but Alice or Rose normally stop me, or I stop myself, before I've drank too much. But last night was different, last night I was trying to forget.
Jake, the one name that I tried to erase from my mind, at least for one night.
Now is not the time I scalded myself. I looked around for the first time and noticed I was not in my room. Shit. I was alone in a room I have never seen before I closed my eyes and tried to think back to the night before... nothing damn it. Okay, now lift the sheet to make sure you're still clothed. My eyes clamp tighter as I lift the sheet, I slowly opened my eyes afraid of what I would see. Fuck! Nothing, I'm naked in a strangers bed. At least said stranger isn't here. You gotta leave, get up, get dressed and go. NOW!
I hopped out of the bed and rushed around the room trying to find the clothes I was wearing last night, there wasn't much so it didn't take long. I slipped on the little, tight black dress Alice has forced on me and found my shoes. Underwear, underwear, wheres my damn underwear? I heard water running on the other side of one of the doors in the large bedroom. Fuck it, just leave, it's not like Alice doesn't have more underwear for you hiding in her closet.
I grabbed my shoes and quietly exited the room. Holy shit, where am I? This was the nicest apartment I have ever seen, and it's huge... No time for a tour Bella, get your ass out of here. Right, the front door. There it is, now go. Wait, thats not a door, it's an elevator... who cares just get out of here. I push the button and the doors open immediately, I got in and push lobby, please close please close. The doors close and I sighed in relief.
When the doors open to the lobby my breath catches in my throat, Cullen building? Who the hell was I with? I've never met anyone who could afford living in one of the Cullen buildings, let alone the penthouse!
Get a cab and go home. On the way back to my shared apartment with Alice and Rose I tried to remember what happened the night before. Still nothing.
When the cab arrived at my complex I hand him the the fare plus tip from my purse and walk into my building. Maybe Alice or Rose will remember... God I hope so. I unlocked the door silently and slip inside.
"Where the hell have you been?" Rose screamed before the door is even shut. I spun around and clutched my heart.
"Holy shit Rose you almost gave me a heart attack!" I leaned against the door and waited for the interrogation.
"YOU!? Do you have any idea how much you scared us when we saw you weren't in your bed this morning?"
"I'm sorry, I don't know what happened." my body slid down the door and I fell to the floor, I pulled my knees to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. "I don't remember anything Rose!" I sobbed
"Oh honey, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to get so mad. I was just so scared, with everything that has happened, and then you didn't come home last night... My mind just wandered. I should call Alice, she's out looking for you." That just made me sob harder.
Rose pulled out her phone and dialed Alice's number. "Yeah she's here... No... Alice you need to get back here, she doesn't remember anything about last night... yeah... okay see you in a bit."
"When did everything get so fucked up Rose?" I cried into her shoulder.
"I don't know honey. Come on, lets get you into a hot bath, it'll make you feel better." She helped me into the bathroom and drew me a bath with bubbles. About ten minutes into the bath I was drifting off to sleep when I heard Alice and Rose having a heated discussion. I was so out of it I only caught a few words.
"I don't know........remember....."
"Jacob....... Son of a bitch......."
"What are we going to do?"
"I don't know."
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Sunday came and went in a blur, Monday morning I got up and headed off to work. I work in one of the public libraries in New York City. I enjoy my work, I love when it's reading time for the younger kids, every Tuesday and Thursday. I have been fortunate enough to maintain a high level of employment there, working as one of the head librarians. I won't bore you with the details, but know that I enjoy my work, it's my home away from home.
I was sitting in my office working on the upcoming month calender of events when my mind drifted off to this weekend, I had tried hard to remember anything about Friday night but nothing was coming back to me. Had I just drank too much? Was I drugged? Did I want to be with the man I spent the night with? Who was he? Should I have stuck around and waited for him?
My mind was spinning and I couldn't think of anything else but that night for the rest of the day. I just wanted to go home and go to sleep.
The rest of the week turned out just like Monday, only every night I had dreams about the mysterious man. I didn't know if they were just my mind confusing the shit out of me, or my memories coming back. There wasn't much I could go on, Just me and said guy in his bedroom. I never saw his face, only felt his lips on my skin. Is it even possible to feel in a dream?
Friday night Alice and Rose were going out again, I opted out. Around midnight the phone rang. Who in the hell could be calling this late?
"Hello?"
Silence...
"Hello, anyone there?"
Breathing...
"Who is this? Jake?"
Click.
My chest started heaving, I couldn't control the sobs that were coming from my mouth. Did he find me? I can't be here alone. I picked the phone back up and immediately dialed Alice's number.
"Alice's psychic hotline" She slurred.
"Alice?" I cried.
"Bella? Oh god whats wrong?" She asked completely sobering once hearing the panic in my voice.
"I... think... Hiccup... he... found... me." I sobbed into the phone.
"Shit, we'll be right there. Make sure all the doors and windows are locked." She said, I could here her rushing around grabbing her things. Rose was in the background saying goodbye to whomever they were with.
"Okay." I replied.
"Bella, Honey we're getting a cab now. Don't hang up okay, keep talking to us." Rose said in the background.
"Okay." I rushed around and checked all the windows and the door. Locked.
"There will be an extra 20 in it if you get us there in 5 minutes." I heard Rose say to the cab driver.
"Bella, we'll be there soon. Just stay on the phone." Alice said.
Within 5 minutes they where inside the apartment holding onto me while I sobbed uncontrollably. They helped me into my bedroom and held me until I fell asleep.
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Over the next few weeks Rose and Alice made sure I was never left alone, our house number was changed and the police were contacted.
Work was hard on me. I was distracted by memories of Jake, and my dreams of mystery man kept getting more vivid. Never once did I see his face, but I now saw a body and messy bronze hair. Every night I woke in a cold sweat, panting. They felt so real, I was quickly becoming addicted to my dreams.
I slept a lot, just hoping to get a glimpse of my mystery man. I never told Alice or Rose about my dreams, they just assumed everything that was happening was causing me to have a breakdown.
I got so bad that they insisted I go to a doctor and talk about getting on some anti anxiety pills, or anti depressants, basically anti anything. I stopped eating, I was making my self literally sick. Rose demanded I took a day off telling me she made me an appointment with her doctor.
We were in the waiting room and my mind drifted to him, I couldn't stop thinking about him. Something wasn't letting me, for the last six weeks or so he was all I thought about. Jake barely entered my mind, to that I was thankful for. My name was called bringing me out of my fantasies. We walked into the room together.
"Hello Miss Swan, my name is Dr. Shultz, What can I help you with today?" He asked me. I looked over at Rose. His eyes followed mine. "Ah, Miss Hale, how good to see you."
"You too Doc, I'm worried about Bella. She's been sleeping a lot, she hasn't been eating and she's making herself sick. We've had some issues the past few weeks that have been really hard on her and I think she's shutting herself off. I'm afraid she's going into some kind of depression." She said concerned.
"I see. Miss Swan, when was your last period?" he asked me. SHIT! No, please no.
"I don't remember, over a month ago, but I just figured it was stress related, It's happened before." I said a little panicked.
"Calm down, It's very possible that you're correct. Lets just have you take a test and check okay? Do you remember when you last had intercourse?"
"About 6 weeks ago." I replied.
"Okay, lets get you that test shall we."I nodded and he told me to go pee in a cup. Okay, he said it a little different than that, but thats what he meant.
"Bella, are you okay? I never even considered that you could be pregnant." Rose asked me.
I was shaking, we had been alone for about 5 minutes now. I didn't have time to answer, the doctor came in with a big machine on a cart. Oh god, this can't be good.
"Miss Swan, you test came back positive. I'm going to preform a pelvic exam and then we're going to take a look at the baby okay?" All I could do was nod. I was in total shock. Everyone left the room so I could get changed.
After the doctor was done with the exam he stuck some cold, long wand thing up in me. He said My uterus was too far from the surface right now so he had to do an internal ultra sound.
"There's your baby." He said pointing to a jelly bean on the screen. My eyes teared. "Here, let's listen to the heart beat." Heart beat!? Already!? The next thing I knew the room was surrounded in a fast flutter of thumps. My baby. Mine and mystery guy. Oh my god, I don't even know who he is. When the doctor left I got dressed, and left the doctors office.
We were outside and I just collapsed.
"BELLA!" Rose screamed. She rushed over to me and held me.
"What am I going to do Rose? I don't even know who he is." I sobbed
"We'll find him Bella, don't worry everything will be okay." I don't know how long I sat in her arms crying, minutes, hours who knows. I could only think of one thing.
I was going to be a mother.
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