Chapter 1-The Fate Of Colin
Everybody quickly stood up as my dad entered the room,crowding around him,awaiting the news on Colin.I had joined them after some serious consideration.Only to give in because Amy "needed a friend"as Nina told me the day of Colin's first surgery and that my dad might need my support - if things didn't turn out so well.
Memories are just where you laid them/Drag the waters/Till the depths give up their dead
I'm not the usual hospital type,so I usually didn't go when we were in New York.I went for Nonnie's hip operation,but of course that didn't count.Then I went again before Mom happened.I thought that I could talk my dad out of working on Christmas Eve.
What did you expect to find/Was it something you left behind.....
Though he usually worked them anyways,but ended up not even discussing the topic,or anything else for that matter;and I ended up stuck inside,not accomplishing anything.Then the second time,right after Mom left.I came to get away from it all,and came to out of all the places in New York,the hospital.I had enough with all the condolences and "I'm so sorry's".So I slipped out after everything had settled down.Delia had cried herself to sleep on the living room couch,and Nonnie had drifted to sleep,sitting with her.I didn't even bother waking Delia up,she would have inquired of me when was it that I was going at such a time.And there is not telling what Nonnie would have said.Dad himself had slipped out around midnight and went off,so no worries from him.I stayed there mostly on the roof top,looking at the night sky and on my dad's floor.
Dont fall away/And leave me to myself/Dont fall away
Once my dad walked through those double doors,I could tell something was different.He stood in the middle of our semi circle,looking each and every one of them in the eye then coming to me.Eyes,you can tell a lot by looking at someone's eyes.Whether they've had a bad day or if they are scared.Or strong and defiant.The eyes that I know,they are full of dignity and pride.For whatever it is for the moment.Saving a patient or making a sucessful meal.
He held his gaze on me for the longest - enough to tell me more than others would know.Enough to tell me Colin's fate.Someway,The Great Doctor Brown had not suceeded.Not on this round.Looking at me for those few seconds told me all that.
"I'm sorry,"he stammered.At that Mrs.Hart turned abruptly and started to cry as Mr.Hart held her tightly,stroking her hair softly.Bright looked down at his feet suddenly,fighting back tears.Mr.Abbot,being a father,pulled his son in for a hug.Different people took it different ways.And Amy,Amy walked out fastly,the door that Dad came in,not having an exact destination.
And leave love bleeding/In my hands/In my hands again/And leave love bleeding/In my hands/In my hands/Love lies bleeding.....
"Amy!"I shouted,as I followed her up the staircase.Nobody really uses them anymore except for doctors and when you're in an extreme emergency.She began to run fastly now.I had to take them two,even three at a time,only staying a few mere steps behind her."Amy!"I started again as we began another round of flights of stairs.I wasn't too far from her.
"Go away!"she shouted."It's all you're fault."she said stopping breifly to look me in the face."Just go."she said as she began to climb the stairs,not running anymore.I followed her steathly up them,making sure to stay one flight behind her and close to the wall incase she happened to look down the middle.
She even slowed,after four more flights.Then,completely broke down,pounding her fists in the corner of the wall,sobbing.I felt sorry for her,I'd completely know how she felt,it only happened to me just a year ago.I wanted to comfort her,to tell her "It's alright",knowing that even thought that's what people told me a year ago,making me even fuller of angst.I wanted to do anything that would help.But she told me to leave.I felt totally helpless as I watched her cry by herself.
She cries her life is like/Some movie black and white/Dead actors faking lines/Over and over and over again she cries.......
Everybody quickly stood up as my dad entered the room,crowding around him,awaiting the news on Colin.I had joined them after some serious consideration.Only to give in because Amy "needed a friend"as Nina told me the day of Colin's first surgery and that my dad might need my support - if things didn't turn out so well.
Memories are just where you laid them/Drag the waters/Till the depths give up their dead
I'm not the usual hospital type,so I usually didn't go when we were in New York.I went for Nonnie's hip operation,but of course that didn't count.Then I went again before Mom happened.I thought that I could talk my dad out of working on Christmas Eve.
What did you expect to find/Was it something you left behind.....
Though he usually worked them anyways,but ended up not even discussing the topic,or anything else for that matter;and I ended up stuck inside,not accomplishing anything.Then the second time,right after Mom left.I came to get away from it all,and came to out of all the places in New York,the hospital.I had enough with all the condolences and "I'm so sorry's".So I slipped out after everything had settled down.Delia had cried herself to sleep on the living room couch,and Nonnie had drifted to sleep,sitting with her.I didn't even bother waking Delia up,she would have inquired of me when was it that I was going at such a time.And there is not telling what Nonnie would have said.Dad himself had slipped out around midnight and went off,so no worries from him.I stayed there mostly on the roof top,looking at the night sky and on my dad's floor.
Dont fall away/And leave me to myself/Dont fall away
Once my dad walked through those double doors,I could tell something was different.He stood in the middle of our semi circle,looking each and every one of them in the eye then coming to me.Eyes,you can tell a lot by looking at someone's eyes.Whether they've had a bad day or if they are scared.Or strong and defiant.The eyes that I know,they are full of dignity and pride.For whatever it is for the moment.Saving a patient or making a sucessful meal.
He held his gaze on me for the longest - enough to tell me more than others would know.Enough to tell me Colin's fate.Someway,The Great Doctor Brown had not suceeded.Not on this round.Looking at me for those few seconds told me all that.
"I'm sorry,"he stammered.At that Mrs.Hart turned abruptly and started to cry as Mr.Hart held her tightly,stroking her hair softly.Bright looked down at his feet suddenly,fighting back tears.Mr.Abbot,being a father,pulled his son in for a hug.Different people took it different ways.And Amy,Amy walked out fastly,the door that Dad came in,not having an exact destination.
And leave love bleeding/In my hands/In my hands again/And leave love bleeding/In my hands/In my hands/Love lies bleeding.....
"Amy!"I shouted,as I followed her up the staircase.Nobody really uses them anymore except for doctors and when you're in an extreme emergency.She began to run fastly now.I had to take them two,even three at a time,only staying a few mere steps behind her."Amy!"I started again as we began another round of flights of stairs.I wasn't too far from her.
"Go away!"she shouted."It's all you're fault."she said stopping breifly to look me in the face."Just go."she said as she began to climb the stairs,not running anymore.I followed her steathly up them,making sure to stay one flight behind her and close to the wall incase she happened to look down the middle.
She even slowed,after four more flights.Then,completely broke down,pounding her fists in the corner of the wall,sobbing.I felt sorry for her,I'd completely know how she felt,it only happened to me just a year ago.I wanted to comfort her,to tell her "It's alright",knowing that even thought that's what people told me a year ago,making me even fuller of angst.I wanted to do anything that would help.But she told me to leave.I felt totally helpless as I watched her cry by herself.
She cries her life is like/Some movie black and white/Dead actors faking lines/Over and over and over again she cries.......