Infinite Moment
by The Queen's Fabler
It was that one infinite moment. The moment that you knew everything would go wrong. Every hope you had will die. All your fears will come true. No matter how you wished otherwise.
You finally saw her face, her beautiful face, for the first time. And her all consuming fear. It wasn't supposed to be like that. You wished you had not turned her away to safety when you feared that her stalker was near. You wished you said those three little words when you had the chance and not when you would finally see her.
But of course it was to late. How bitter those regrets are on your tongue.
You couldn't think, you couldn't breathe. Everything was just too much. All the knowledge became an enemy when it became suffocating.
What if you had noticed the UNSUB earlier? The slip ups?
You are not so much of an asset to the team if you couldn't do anything when it truly mattered the most. You were too slow. Too stupid. Through your fault alone, you will lose everything.
This loss should not really matter. It is the same story with your father who couldn't handle a insane wife and freak genius child. It the same story with your mother who all there but in mind. It is the same story as your mentor who went mad with grief. It is always the same story.
Everyone leaves in the end, right?
In that infinite moment you knew. It was all your fault.
BANG.
Zugzwang.
To surrender. Or to fight to the bitter end.
It was bitter, wasn't it?
A|N: Something I threw together after this week's episode. Never mind it is my first Criminal Mind's fan fiction.
Anyways, I don't think I will ever forgive the Criminal Mind's writers for killing off Maeve. I loved Reid and her together, and they should have adorable little genius babies and live happily ever after. But of course they don't do that… -_-.
Now we will have to wait and see if Reid will go all Gideon on everyone and leave the BAU.