Everything is complicated
my whispers too loud
his hand too far away
and my smile as strong
as broken glass
shimmering at the edges
I've never cried, you know
when things she said
about me
were as true as her love
his hands twitching
when I tried to yell back
time and time again
bringing everything
bitter broken bad
from her past
His eyes are dull now
lifeless
when she catches me
staring at him
roses in her hand
as pink as her cheeks
It's an inexplicable phenomenon, this need
I've always felt to do that every time
they started enjoying themselves
Now, it's just pathetic
I know I'm pathetic
in their eyes
even his
vodka fragranced
clothes and cocaine
filled (fuelled) thoughts
dreamy, dreamy
words I aim at him
My dreams always stayed
just dreams
unspoken bitter
and too old to
even mention 'em
Especially now
It's better this way
I suppose
smiles faked
and gratulations
dying on my lips
But still, they want me
especially he
to cheer
It's the happiest day
of his life after all
his bride beautiful and
blushing at the gaze
he aims at her
mine forgotten
and shamelessly pushed
aside
The show's making
my head spin, spin and spin
till I'm as sick
as on a roller-coaster
in my mind memories
swirling and shimmering
just like their rings
Both gold, round and slick
cold against my fingers
when I give them to him
fingers touching for the last time
legally
and free of her
So, goodbye, my loveless friend
words never exchanged between
us the way I'd want them to
touches never as caring as they should be
tears too sweet for you to notice their cause
Goodbye, even though I hate to say that
I'm waiting for her fall
Goodbye even though it'll never be the same
my feelings way bitter after many years
ahead of me
Goodbye, the closest one
who never really learnt me
the way she did many years before
being the greatest foe I ever had
Goodbye, even though
I'm never really letting you go
They kiss and I'm falling down
down
down
down
until my mind's as broken
as glasses they break at the begining
and the end of the world