Ashley hates it when Ben and Amy tell each other they love each other. It makes her sick to se something too sweet and cuddly. It makes her sick to see someone like Ben be so mesmerized by someone like Amy, and be so…mushy with her. And it makes her sick to see two people lie to each other.
It was evident to anyone-even Ben, though he'd never admit it-that in the beginning, when Ben jumped into commitment, that Amy was lying when she told Ben she loved him. She was scared to fall in love…and the worst part was that she meant it now.
What does she know, Ashley tells herself. She's fifteen; she doesn't know love, not romantic love, love between two people that aren't sister-sister or mother-daughter…I don't know love. We're too young.
It makes Ashley sick to let go of her grudge and fear of Amy's future, her parent's future, her own future, and believe that Amy and Ben are different. Fifteen, and together forever. To Ashley, it seemed as though the only couples that were different were the ones in the movies.
And it makes Ashley dizzy to imagine Amy and Ben in love; if there were any emotions that Ashley hated-and they hated Ashley back-they were sadness, regret, and…jealousy.