A/N Hey everyone! :) This is the first fanfiction I have ever written so constructive criticism would be greatly appreciated! Troyler is my probably my number one otp and I cannot help but fangirl over them. I wish Troyler was real but even if it isn't meant to be (I do believe it is) writing fanfiction is bound to make it come true. Right? ;) Anyway, words cannot express how much I love Troye's new single Happy Little Pill. It has quickly become my most listened to song in my Itunes library and let me tell you, that is not an easy feat! If you haven't already bought it; what on earth are you waiting for!? Go buy it right now. And then read this fanfiction. I am eagerly awaiting the release of TRXYE and if any of the songs strike a chord like Happy Little Pill did I may write another Troyler fanfiction soon.

I am a little unclear about what to rate my story. I have put it under T because it has some course language, if you think I should up the rating please let me know. I hope you enjoy! ;) Reviews are like hugs. You can never get enough.

Love,

LadyLizzie

Tyler Oakley hates waiting. His iPhone poised in his hand, he was ready for immediate downloading as soon as Troye's single appeared on iTunes. Tyler felt so proud of his Troye Sivan. He had been working so hard on his music for ages and now his hard work was going to be shown off to the world. Tyler was just dying to listen to it. "Hurry up bitch!" He snapped at his IPhone.

As soon as Happy Little Pill appeared on his screen Tyler's fingers leapt into action. He fumbled while untangling his headphones. "Argh!" He groans. He leaves them knotted as he slips the buds inside his ears. Laying on his bed, he presses play and closes his eyes as he lets Troye's voice wash over him.

Tyler's POV

I knew Troye was an amazing singer, I had expected his music to be amazing but this went beyond all of my expectations. It was incredible. It was like listening to part of Troye's soul. And it sounded beautiful.

My phone vibrates against my side and I smile as I look down and see Troye's name on my screen.

'TILLY! It's out! OMG it's OUT! Have you heard it? What do you think?! :) x'

I sit up and began typing. 'IT IS SO FREAKING, AMAZING, INCREDIBLE, BEAUTIFUL, INSPIRING THAT I CAN'T CHOOSE ONE ADJECTIVE THAT DESCRIBES IT! IT IS JUST ASJKLRJTJFKN! I'm so proud of you Troye Sivan! :D :')'

'Thanks Tilly! That means a lot coming from you. I am so psyched right now!'

'Haha I should think so! So when are you playing MSG? I'm going to be the first to buy tickets.'

'Hmm I'll get back to you on that! :( sorry I gtg. Me and the fam are going out to celebrate. You're picking me up from the airport tomorrow right?'

'Hell yeah i am gurl! I'm just going to lie here listening to your incredible voice on repeat until then. Give them my love! talk soon k?'

'I would give it to them but I think I might keep it all for myself. ;) Later Tilly! X'

Swoon he sent me another kiss. Damn I wish it was a real one.

'Later Troye Sivan X'

I sigh and flop back down on my bed. I press play and then the repeat button. I closed his eyes once more and take in Troye's voice.

My happy little pill,

Take me away

Dry my eyes

Bring colour to my skies

My sweet little pill

Take my hunger

But within

Numb my skin

My eyes well up with tears. It really is incredible. He really is incredible. Behind my eyelids I can picture my Troye perfectly. His perfect hair, gorgeous blue eyes and flawless smile. Hearing his voice makes him feel so close. Like he is right here in my room instead of on another continent. I feel an ache in my heart. Because he isn't my Troye. I don't get to kiss his flawless lips whenever I feel like it. I can't embrace him the way I want to just because I want to hold him in my arms.

I've felt like this for a long time. At first I was fine with being just friends. I was able to laugh at all the Troyler shipping but now there's a little hurt behind each laugh and a little voice saying "I wish" in the back of my mind.

But no matter how much I wish Troyler was true I know it wouldn't work. Troye is perfect. An absolute angel. He's so sweet and fun and he gets me. But he's 6 years younger than me. He'd never be attracted to me.

Besides now that Troye's album is coming out, soon everyone will know how incredible he is. He'll be even more famous. Maybe even go on tours and sell his own merchandise. Become a superstar and forget all about me. I'll fade into the background and just be a youtuber he used to know, as thousands of attractive guys throw themselves at his feet. How could I compete with that?