Pre-Twilight:
This is how I think Edward's POV would've been during the time before Bella came to Forks and after she does.
CarlislexEsme, EmmettxRosaline, JasperxAlice, (eventually) EdwardxBella and possibly others later on.
Chapter 1:
How Edwards life is so far and how he responses when Alice has a vision.
Edward's POV:
I could see the familiar faces from middle school staring at me as I got out my silver Volvo. It was my first year as a junior at Forks High School, this would be my twenty fifth time embarking in high school. It was a miserable day, it was almost like the weather was mirroring my mood, dark clouds and no sign of a sun. But that wasn't uncommon in Forks, the sun rarely saw the town and the clouds never left. That's why we were living in Forks. The constant cloud cover was bound to hide our secret from the humans. I started to walk towards the steps leading into the school. I couldn't help thinking I was making my way towards a prison, once I'm in I won't be able to leave for two years, it seemed terrifying. I could see the worries swimming throughout my peers minds.
I hope I'm with Angela this year!
Oh, I wonder what my first lesson is.
Their thoughts continued to buzz around my head as I opened the door, sometimes what I'd give to shut them up. Their thoughts irritate me so badly, sometimes when it gets too much, they make me wonder why I cease to exist,
How pathetic.
Edward Cullen, lonely and arrogant.
How sad, he has no one but himself.
I don't like this anymore. The fact people don't understand why I don't get close with anyone, there is no one for me. It's too dangerous to make bonds with humans. It's stupid and irresponsible. If something went wrong it could ruin everything Carlisle's built for us. Sometimes I find myself wondering why Carlisle even saved me, he must feel some regret from time to time. I don't bring anything to our family in Forks. It's small and selective. Just the way we like it. We don't keep secrets from one another, it's stupid to. It was just me and Carlisle originally, he had promised my mother, who had no hope of surviving that he would save me from the Spanish Influenza epidemic, since then I've nearly always been with him. The first person to join us was Esme, she had jumped of a cliff and Carlisle couldn't stand to let her die so he took her for his own and they soon fell in love, my adoptive mother and father making us a family. After Esme, Rosalie Hale joined us, at first both Carlisle and Esme wanted me to fall in love with Rosalie but I don't see her that way, no doubt about it, she is astonishingly beautiful but she's no more than a sister to me. Rosalie soon found Emmett whilst she was hunting, he'd been half mauled by a bear and she begged Carlisle to save him for her, they're still together and strong. The last additions to our family were Jasper and Alice. I don't know where Alice came from, she doesn't remember anything from her human existence but she can see the future, that's over-stating it a bit, she gets visions of decisions being made and how they effect the future, and Jasper came from Texas, he also has a gift, manipulating other people's emotions. Alice had a vision of Carlisle and joined us. It still makes me wonder though, what if, just what if Carlisle hadn't of saved me? What would become of the Cullen's then? But other times, I am highly grateful Carlisle changed me from my human form, being an immortal vampire is nice sometimes, it certainly has it's adds. The speed and strength it hardly feels like a burden. But I truly hate being a monster, I share Carlisle's feelings about killing innocent humans, so our family is vegetarian. We don't touch humans at all. We never have and we never will. We live of animal's blood it keeps us strong and healthy, it's very tolerable.
He's so freakish the way he just stares, what the hell is he looking at!
More thoughts swam into my head, I couldn't stand school but Carlisle made me go, it would bring to much attention to the family if I didn't. I guess I brought attention to myself anyway, we all did. I walked into English and took my seat. The classrooms all looked alike here. Giant billboards covered in poetry and Shakespeare. I was thinking of girls when I saw her. She walked in the door and everything stopped. She had red curly hair, wild like. Her eyes were electric blue, they caught my attention, I watched her as she walked towards the back of the room, she saw me watching. I smiled at her.
Eurgh, gross!
I was furious. This is what trying to socialize gets me? How pathetic did I look? The bell sounded and I was gone, I didn't linger in between classes, besides it was lunch. Because we don't eat we have a whole hour to spend with each other, Alice, Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett, they were also enrolling in high school. I sat down next to Alice and Jasper, the others hadn't turned up yet. I immediately felt a wave of emotion as Jasper tried to calm me down. I was almost calm when he spoke.
"Edward what's wrong?" His voice was full of eagerness.
"Nothing, everything's fine." I murmured in response.
"Edward I've known you for 5 decades to know when somethings wrong and somethings not, I don't need to read your mind to know." He declared, it seemed odd when he says it like that, had I really known him for fifty years? I cleared my throat and replied, "Jasper I'm fine, just leave it." He shrugged and turned to face Alice. I envied him so badly sometimes. I didn't even think they knew how lucky they really were. Jasper and Alice, Alice and Jasper, it never sounded badly. It was stupid, realistically I should have found someone by now, I had been roaming the Earth since 1918, how unfair could it get?
"So bro, what'd you say to going hunting tonight?" I was to concealed in my thoughts to notice Emmett and Rosalie join us. I was disgusted with myself, how could I be so selfish?
"Sure." I didn't know what I'd missed, it could've been important.
"Edward are you with us at all today?" Asked Rosalie, I was beginning to get fed up of everyone asking me questions. I grunted in response.
"He's just miffed because Kelly ignored him in English." Alice perked up, she was such a nuisance even though she was so tiny. Emmett and Rosalie eyed me.
"Who?" Asked Emmett.
"Just some stuck up girl who thinks she's perfect." Alice grinned at me, "She'd be nice to have as a Barbie though." That was enough, it was almost like they were all teasing me. I couldn't stand it. I stood up and stormed out from the cafeteria.
By the time everyone else got home I had managed to listen to 59 songs. I didn't care if they were feeling guilty, they shouldn't push me like they do. My door creaked open and Alice tiptoed in.
"What do you want?" It came out more bitter than I'd intended.
"I'm sorry Edward!" She should be, I couldn't help but think it, she had told Emmett about Kelly, he was never going to let it rest now. "I didn't know you felt that way about her!" I couldn't stop myself from laughing. Me like Kelly, a human in that way?
"Alice I don't." I laughed harder as her face fell.
"Edward Cullen, if you don't like her at all why did you try and get her attention?" She was frowning at me, I could tell her, I think I could.
"I just wanted to socialize, Alice I'm fed up of people thinking I'm lonely." I sighed, "I'm tired of being alone Alice." She took my hand in hers and gave it a tight squeeze.
"You're never alone Edward." She whispered it in my ear, it was barely audible.
"Alice, you have Jasper, Rosalie has Emmett and Carlisle has Esme, who do I have?" My voice was gaining tension.
"Everyone." She pecked my cheek and rested her head upon my shoulder. I sighed again.
"I know that Alice, I want to be loved like you love Jasper. I want to feel what you feel," I paused taking in a deep breath, "I've been alone for too long Alice, I think I deserve something soon."
"I know Edward, I know." She dropped my hand.
"Alice..." I muttered, Alice had froze, her eyes wide open. I grasped her arms and spoke into her ear, "Alice what can you see?" Her head turned, we were face to face, eye to eye. I couldn't stop it happening but I found myself sharing her vision, a face of a girl swimming through my mind, a beautiful pale girl at that. She had brown wavy hair and her smile melted my invisible heart. She couldn't be one of us, could she? Her eyes were a muddy brown but they were unquestionably beautiful. Another face appeared, Chief Swan, he had his arm around the mysterious girl, He was smiling at her, holding her tight. He looked into her eyes and said,
"Welcome home kiddo." The vision ended, I never knew Chief Swan had a daughter, I had no reason to know, but I was curious. I found my eyes staring at Alice's mouth, she was grinning.
"What?" I demanded.
"Think about what you were saying," I looked at her bewildered, she continued, "Now think about what you've just saw." I stared at her, could it mean what I thought it meant?