I sat there asking myself one question, Did he have to go?
That was the million dollar question in my life right now, I would spend everyday, every moment just thinking about him… He was gone, wasn't he? I guess I would just have to get on with this some day. But what if I couldn't? There was a part of me, And I knew that I would somehow find a way to it, but that part just wanted to become mortal once again. That would mean that I could actually see Charlie, and Renee and my new sister Anna Leigh. It also meant that I could feel normal… without Edward, I was just a lost soul… I was merely searching for a way to dig myself out of this mess.
He'd promised me that he would change me, and he was true to his word. Nothing said that he had to stay with me.
Alice came in the room to see me sitting on a chair on the balcony that Edward had built. "He'll always be here Bella." I'd only been hearing that everyday for the past two years. Two years. "Alice. I think its time for me…" my voice lowered as I was about to say the dreadful thing. "Move on. Its what he wanted, Its what he'll always want." She looked at me, surprised at what I had just said, but she nodded. I was then sitting alone, Alone. I had been alone since that dreadful day, the showdown, the smirking faces, the torture, it was all coming back to me now. I wished It wasn't coming back to me… it was just to horrible to remember.
Endless months went by, it seemed as though it would take forever, It would take forever but I was here for all eternity. Yet again… I'm alone. Forever. Don't Say That. Every once in a while, his voice would run through my head. What else am I supposed to say? Your gone, there's no coming back. Its over Edward, Its all over. He hadn't responded to that. I don't think there was a way that he could. What was he supposed to say?
It was just a month ago that I remembered telling Alice, "Its time for me to move on." But every man that I looked at just reminded me of Edward. No one can ever be Edward. No one will ever replace him, he's locked In my heart forever. I just needed someone… some one to show the Cullen's that I was fine. Even though I was secretly dying inside. I think I was beginning to irritate the waitresses, I would come into the diner every morning, and just sit here. But I wouldn't order anything, I'd just sit there sometimes pretending to read. But not today… today was different, I was waiting for something.
I was in deep thought, when he had sat down in front of me. "Hey Bella." My eyes widened, he was there finally, he was there. " Michael!" I'd screamed as I lunged into a hug.
"Shall we go now?" I nodded with a huge smile across my face. Our arms intertwined as we walked out the diner door and into the park.