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I shut and locked the apartment door and made my way out of the building. It's been five years since I last seen her, six since our break up. I was nervous as I got into Morty, but I knew there was no reason to be. I started the engine and began my way to my destination. I dressed in a black jacket, with a grey button up, and black skinny jeans.
When I arrived at the Dot there she was in all her radiance sitting outside at one of the tables. Her hair was still shoulder length, she still dressed the same, and nothing about her really changed. I got out of my hearse and made my way to her.
"Hi Eli." She smiled, she was in a nice baby blue short sleeve dress with white flowers on it and a short sleeved white sweater to match.
"How are you, Clare?" I asked casually as I sat down across from her.
"I'm doing ok, what about you?" She asked
"I'm good. Things are good." I replied as she took a sip of her coffee.
"I'm sorry I didn't wait before ordering this it's just a little cold out tonight." She said and I stood up, took my jacket off, walked behind her and draped it over her shoulders. "Thanks, but you didn't have to." She smiled as she tugged on the sides to pull it over her more.
"It's ok I wanted to." I smirked at her before making my way back to my seat.
"So are you still with her?" She asked looking down.
"Yea, are you still with him?" I asked she nodded slowly.
"Can I get you something?" The waiter asked looking at me.
"I'll take a coffee." I said as they jotted it down and walked away. I watched Clare play with her purity ring, amazed that it's been so long and she still wears it. "I would've thought that after so long he would have proposed or something." I said honestly.
"I haven't shown him any signs of wanting to be married. Every time we get close to doing something I push him away." She said softly, I reached for her hand.
"Don't cry please." I said looking at her almost teary eyes. Clare cleared her throat a little.
"Sorry sometimes it just feels different." She paused and looked at our hands "What about you and Imogen?" She asked as she pulled her hand away.
"What would you like to know?" I asked her cautiously as I sat back in my seat
"Did you propose?" She asked I chuckled
"No. I haven't we're doing fine just the way we are why would I want to ruin it?" I asked as my coffee was placed in front of me. I took a sip.
"To settle down, have kids, and have a family." She said
"Imogen and I…we're fine the way we are." I said knowingly.
"So you've two have been intimate?" She choked out.
"She goes down on me and I finger her." I shrugged as I looked down.
"So no sex?" She said with a slight smirk on her face.
"No." I said
"Why not?" She asked causing me to chuckle
"I could say the same to you." I laughed. I watched Clare as she grabbed her cup and looked into it as she swirled her coffee.
"Because Eli…he's not…" She choked on a light sob "he's not you." she finished as a slight blush rose to her face and a tear fell down her cheek causing me to lean in and brush it away. "So why haven't you and Imogen?" She asked
"Every time we get close to it I become afraid along with other reasons." I admitted as I looked down at my coffee.
"Afraid of what?" She asked
"Calling out your name." I admitted still looking at my coffee.
"So I guess we're both still in love with each other." She said dryly.
"I guess so." I stated sadly knowing there's nothing I want more than for her to be mine, but I ruined it.
"Eli?" Clare asked causing me to look at her.
"Yea?" I said softly
"Can we go somewhere?" She asked
"Where?" I asked back.
"The park." She said simply I smiled
"Can I have the check?" I called out to the waiter with my index finger raised. I pulled out my wallet as Clare stopped me.
"I'll pay for mine." She said
"I got it." I replied "My treat I insist."
"Well, if you insist who am I to stop you?" She said playfully as she retracted her hand. After I paid for our drinks we hopped into Morty and I drove off to the park.
"No car?" I asked her
"I didn't feel like driving so I took a cab." She admitted. I nodded.
"So why the park?" I asked
"Memories, I've always wanted to go back but I didn't want to tarnish the memories we've made." She admitted
"So going back with me?" I asked
"Won't ruin the memories we made there. I wanted to go with Jake, but I couldn't knowing I'd be thinking about you. Have you gone back there?" She asked
"A few times." I admitted "By myself just to walk around."
Clare nodded as she turned on the radio only to have loud screaming music coming from the speakers rather than immediately turning it down like she used to she laughed. "Still the same Eli" She giggled before turning it down. I let a smirk play across my face as I absentmindedly put my hand on her knee, then took it off once I realized what I was doing. We got to the park minutes later. I opened my door, than Clare's and we began to make our way there.
I jogged to the swing and held it out for Clare to sit in. "Eli I'm in a dress." She said
"That's never stopped you before." I chuckled, she smirked at me smugly as she put her hands in the sleeves of my jacket, bunched up her dress so it was tight around her thighs and sat down on the access fabric she gathered. I started to push her lightly as her curls blew in the wind.
"I miss this." She said
"Miss what?" I asked
"Being with you like this. Doing things like this. Having moments like this." She said
"I miss it too." I said as I stopped pushing her. I moved around to the slide as I watched her swing she looked even more gorgeous as the moon light shown over her skin.
"Eli?" She asked as she started to stop.
"Yes?"
"Can you come hold me?" She asked I got up and make my way to her rather than helping her off the swing I got on my knees and hugged her the side of my face was in her breasts, but she didn't seem to mind as she hugged me tightly. "I didn't mean for me to hold you silly." She giggled as she let go. I stood up and so did she. Immediately she wrapped her arms around my neck and embraced me. I picked her up bridal style and sat on the swing so she was in my lap. I held her for ten minutes it was comfortable and it was just us. "Can you take me home?" She asked and I felt my heart drop, but I knew it was for the best. I can't let myself fall fully in love with her again I'm with Imogen and she's with Jake.
"Sure." I replied as I put her down. "Where exactly is home?" I asked
"I didn't move out of my house." She admitted. "My parents moved their things out when I turned eighteen so I could have a place of my own and feel responsible. They visit from time to time separately, but I still get to see them." I nodded as we made our way to Morty knowing it must hurt for Clare to talk about them knowing they're divorced.
The drive was quiet, but it was comfortable and sad. I know it's going to be a while before I see Clare again and I hated that my time with her now was cut short. I know if it was longer I wouldn't want to let her go so I didn't mind too much. She looked out the window the whole time.
"We're here." I stated softly causing Clare to look around. I parked in the driveway next to a white Honda which must be her car and shut of the ignition as we both got out of Morty at the same time.
"I'm happy you still have him." She said referring to Morty.
"Me too." I said as we made our way to the front door. She fumbled with the keys for a minute before actually unlocking the door.
"Come inside?" She asked, I nodded. Even after all these years she's still the girl I love and am incapable of saying "no" to.
When we stepped inside I looked around and notice everything was the same nothing changed as I shut the door. Clare took off my jacket along with her sweater and hung them both up. "Don't get the idea that you're stealing my jacket." I mocked as she went into the kitchen.
"But it suits me." She giggled, I chuckled at her.
"Take a seat." She said and I made my way to the couch and turned on the tv. Clare joined me and nuzzled into my side like we used to. "Nothing scary." She said as she handed me a coke, I opened it and took a sip before putting it on the table.
"But scary movies are the best." I stated as I looked around and noticed it was 10pm. "What time does Jake get home?" I asked cautiously not wanting to get caught in their place.
"He doesn't live here. I never asked him to move in." She admitted as she moved closer to me. Her head was on my chest as her feet curled up on the couch and I draped my arm around her. "What about Imogen?" She asked
"She's visiting her mom for a few days." I said
"So she lives with you?" Clare asked looking up at me.
"I don't know. I guess you can say she stays with me." I said nonchalantly as Clare nodded and made herself comfortable again as I settled on a movie.
"ELI!" Clare squealed causing me to chuckle. "You know I always hated scary movies." she whined
"But I remember it was the scary movies that always made you happy." I said
"No it was you comforting me that made me happy." She said looking into my dark green eyes while I looked into her deep baby blues.
"Ok I'll turn it off." I chuckled
"Don't" She said as she grabbed the remote out of my hand. I tried reaching for it, but she wouldn't give it up.
"Clare, I'm going to end up shutting it off anyway." I chuckled knowingly as I reached for it again. We ended up fighting for the remote and I don't know how, but Clare ended up getting pinned underneath me. I looked down at her and into her eyes before absentmindedly placing a light kiss on her lips.
"Sorry." I said as I started to pull away Clare grabbed my collar.
"Don't be" She said as she pulled me back. Instinctively I kicked off my shoes letting them fall to the floor and began to kiss Clare intensely as if I were making up for lost time. Clare flipped us over and started to kiss down my neck as her fingers played nervously with the buttons of my shirt.
"Clare we can't." I stated knowingly
"Why not Eli?" She asked back her baby blues dilated with lust.
"Jake will know." I said. Clare pushed me off of her, causing me to sit on the other side of the couch and she looked down at her hands like she was about to cry.
"I don't want to die a virgin." She said softly causing me to chuckle and her to glare at me.
"You won't give it time I'm sure you'll get married to him and have a family." I said softly causing my heart to ping, but also knew that I couldn't do this either and that if I did I'd fall in love with her again as well as take everything from her. I couldn't do that, Clare is more than just a one night stand and she's worth more than that so much more. She shook her head.
"I won't Eli. I can't make love to Jake kissing him is fine, but the way he touches me…." She trailed off causing me to look at her.
"Does he hurt you?" I asked afraid that she might say yes. I felt relieved when she shook her head no.
"He doesn't, but when he touches me…." She paused and knotted her eyebrows together as if she were thinking of the words. "When he touches me it makes me miss your touch and you're all I think about." She said softly. I pulled her into a tight embrace.
"Clare I'm sure things will work out and you won't die a virgin." I said softly
"Easy for you to say, you lost your virginity when you were fourteen." She sobbed I ran my fingers through her curls not knowing what to say. I pulled her onto my lap and let her sob into my shoulder dampening my shirt with her tears "Eli it's only you. It's only going to be you. If you make love with me tonight and I never sleep with Jake at least I'll have the satisfaction in knowing I lost my virginity to the man that I loved for seven years knowing he also loves me back and I'm not going to die a virgin. Please Eli, I still love you with all my heart. Just don't let me die an old cranky virgin." She sobbed. "Even if it's just for tonight I know if it's with you it's going to be special, more special than it would be with anyone else. Please just make love to me with no restrictions." She pleaded as she looked at me while tears fell from her face.
"You're with Jake and you should lose it to him." I said softly
"Eli I can't" She almost screamed.
"Why not?" I said knowing how much it caused pain in my heart.
"Because when he touches me I think of you. When he'd have sex with me I'd think of you and I can't tarnish you like that. When he touches me he's not as gentle as you are. He kisses me aggressively and I know that sex with him is going to hurt me and all I'll be thinking about is you and I can't tarnish your memory like that I can't." She sobbed violently "I just can't" she whispered in between her harsh sobs.
"Clare you don't know that sex with Jake will be rough." I said as I brushed her hair
"I do know it will be and I know it will hurt a lot." She said. I continued to brush her hair as I started to think of what to do. I still love Clare don't get me wrong my feelings for her never went away, but I'm afraid that if they surfaced again…that…that I'd lose touch with her because of Imogen and I also don't want to hurt her either after all we've been through. I finally figured something out that will work.
"Always keep in touch?" I asked back as I wiped the tears away from her face with my thumb.
"Always if something happens I promise to call you first." She said
"Bad or good?" I asked
"Bad or good."
"If you get pregnant I want you to call me first." I said
"Do you plan on impregnating me Mr. Goldsworthy because I don't plan on having sex with Jake because I know if I let it go that far, it won't be more than just sex." She asked deviously with a smirk played on her face.
"No, but just promise if something happens you'll call me first. I don't care what it is just call me first." I stated
"And you'll do the same. If Imogen tells you she's pregnant you'll call me first?" She asked
"I don't plan on impregnating her or having sex with her so you have no worries." I admitted knowing that if I did have sex with Imogen it wouldn't be more than that just sex.
"Ok, but still same thing with you. I want to be called first." She said
"Deal." I said
"Deal" she replied before kissing me sweetly. I licked her bottom lip asking for entrance to her mouth and she granted. Slowly I snaked my tongue into her mouth and groaned at the contact as she whimpered against my lips. I broke the kiss causing Clare to look at me curiously.
"Do you have a condom?" I asked with a raised brow. Clare bit her bottom lip as she looked around. She smiled to herself before getting up and making her way to the closet. I watched as she opened the closet doors rummaging though it.
"Ah ha thank you Alli." She giggled as she stood up holding a condom. She walked back over to the door and locked it before making her way to way to me. I was about to ask if she was sure, but she kissed me passionately forcing her tongue into my mouth causing me to groan. Clare leaned back against the couch and I broke the kiss, she looked at me curiously. I put my finger on her lips to stop her from talking.
"Not here." I said as I stood up, than picked Clare up bridal style swiftly she grabbed the condom off the table that she probably put there without me noticing. I carried her up to her room, kicked her door shut and laid her on her bed. "Are you sure?" I asked again.
"Eli I love you, I've never stopped loving you. Just please make love to me if only for tonight." She pleaded. I looked into her eyes and saw love and honesty I knew she was ready. I climbed on top of her as I held my weight off of her with my forearms. We kissed passionately and I let my hand ghost down her side.
"Clare you're in a dress maybe you should change." I stated
"Why?" She asked
"I want to take this slow." I said as I moved off of her. She nodded as she got off her bed and walked to her closet. I watched as she took some clothes and made her way into the bathroom. Within minutes she came out wearing a pair of short shorts and a tee shirt. My eyes wandered all over her body and I could feel my cock twitch in my pants. Clare walked over to me in a seductive manner and sat down in my lap as I groaned.
I kissed her as I put my hands on her waist and moved them along her sides, my hands never leaving the fabric, but instead taking it with me. Clare continued to nervously undo the buttons on my shirt as her hands shook never breaking the kiss. I laid Clare down and moved on top of her as I let my hands move under the fabric of her shirt and she discarded mine.
"Does Jake have a key?" I asked not wanting to get caught. Clare shook her head and bought me down to kiss her again. I couldn't believe that I was doing this with Clare after all these years I get to make love to the girl that I've loved since I ran over her glasses who never stopped loving me, but we both knew we couldn't be together because of them, I didn't want to hurt Imogen and I know she doesn't want to hurt Jake.
I began to leave a trail of kisses down Clare's neck I nibbled on her pulse point causing her to let out a strangled moan. I let my hand make its way up to the underside of Clare's breast memorizing every inch of skin, every indent, every grove on her body. "Can I touch you here?" I asked against her neck as I tapped the bottom metal part of her bra. Clare nodded and I moved my hand over her bra and began to grope her. Don't get me wrong I've groped Clare before under her bra and I've seen her naked plenty of times before when we were intimate mainly giving each other oral or showering when we were dating years ago, but this is different. Clare groaned and arched her back into my touch as I continued to massage her cleavage.
"I missed your touch so much Eli." She moaned.
"I've missed you too." I groaned as I started to kiss my way down. I took my hand from under her shirt and tugged on the hem. "Can I remove this?" I asked she nodded and I knelt between her legs and helped her take off her top. Clare ran her nails along my bare chest causing me to close my eyes and groan as my pants became achingly tight. I looked down at Clare she was as beautiful as ever. I dipped down again kissing her sternum as her hands tangled themselves in my hair. I groped her right breast through her bra while I moved my mouth to the exposed cleavage on her right. I kissed and sucked the skin there as she moaned. When I switched sides I felt Clare's hands leave my hair and move behind her I swatted her hands away knowing she was about to remove her bra. "I want to do that." I stated and she nodded. I knelt between her legs again as I moved her into a sitting position her breasts against my chest as I nipped at her neck. Holding her up with one hand I undid her bra with the other and then gently place her back down.
My mouth immediately latched onto her nipple as my hand played with the neglected one. "Eli" Clare moaned as she thrust her hips into mine causing me to groan rather loudly. I pushed down on her hips trying to get her to stop. Clare stopped, but instead she took my hand and placed it over her center. I rubbed her out side of her shorts a few times before stopping. "Why did you stop?" She asked. I released her nipple from my mouth with a small popping sound.
"I want to take it slow and make love to you passionately." I stated as I began to kiss and nibble her breasts. Clare moaned as I started to kiss down her body, I kissed each of her hips, each rib of her rib cage, all over her stomach making sure to kiss every inch of her skin before getting on my knees again. Clare started to undo my belt with half lidded eyes. I watched her it was like the first time she took it off, her hands shook just the same. I tried to help her, but she swatted my hand away.
"I got it." She said and I nodded.
"As you wish." I said softly. Clare undid my belt, took it off, unbuttoned and unzipped my jeans. I pulled my jeans off and discarded them. I picked up Clare's right leg and kissed her ankles before leaving a trail of opened mouth kisses up her thigh.
"Can I remove these?" I asked as I gripped the waist band of her shorts.
"Mhmm" Clare answered. I open mouth kissed her left thigh down to her left ankle as I pulled the shorts off. I moved so my body was over Clare's again and I placed my hand over her center and began to rub it as I placed kisses on her neck. I knew I didn't have to ask permission since she's placed my hand here before.
"Mmm Eli." She moaned.
"So wet already." I moaned back. I moved my finger in her panties "Can I touch you here?" I asked tapping her clit. Clare moaned as she nodded. I inserted one of my fingers inside of her as she moaned loudly. "So so wet" I growled as I thrust my hips unable to still them longer. Clare moaned again I added another finger into her as she continued to moan.
"Oh, Eli that feels so good." I moved my head and captured her lips in a kiss feeling her whimper against it as I curled my fingers into a come hither motion inside her she pulled away and let out the loudest moan I've heard as her juices leaked out of her and down my hands. I pulled my fingers out of her and watched her as I licked them clean her eyes widened, but never left mine.
"You still taste so good." I moaned. I leaned down to kiss Clare again she immediately opened her mouth to me and I took the initiative and snaked my tongue into her mouth. "Can I take these off?" I asked tugging on her panties.
"Please." Clare said as she arched her back. I moved to my knees again and slid them off. Rather than crawling back to her I put her legs on my shoulders and held her thighs open with my hands as I tentatively kissed her hole and her clit. She whimpered with each kiss I placed on her.
"Eli please don't tease." She begged. I smirked as I licked her folds up to her clit. I started to suck on her clit a little before placing my tongue inside her.
"So sweet." I groaned. Clare tangled her fingers into my hair and I watched her face distort from pleasure as I ate her out. My eyes never left hers. I removed one of her legs off my shoulder so I could suck on her clit and finger her. She likes to have her clit sucked and nibbled on so I did just that.
"Ah..you..ah….remembered." she panted in between moans I didn't say anything in fear that if she's close she'd lose it so I kept sucking and nibbling on her clit as my fingers thrust deeply inside her the minute I felt that she was almost there I quickly removed my fingers replacing it with my tongue and moved my thumb over her clit in a circular motion pressing down hard. "ELI!" She screamed as she came for the second time spilling her warm juices into my mouth. I lapped up the juices from her and pulled away to wipe my mouth off with my arm. I watch Clare's chest heave up and down as she panted. I moved next to her and she moved her hand into my boxers.
Clare turned to me as she tried to calm down her breathing. She removed my boxers and handed me the condom. "I'm ready." She said and she had the look in her eyes that finally told me that this is what she wanted. I moved so I was positioned in between her legs my hand on each side of her head as I fiddled with the condom. I rubbed myself against her causing both of us to moan and Clare to thrust her hips into me as my way of making sure this is what she wanted. I rolled the condom on and moved the head around her wet entrance. "Are you sure about this Clare?" I asked
"I'm sure Eli, just please make love to me." She said. I aligned the tip of my dick with her and pushed the head inside.
"This is going to hurt." I said, she nodded and braced herself. "I'll be gentle don't worry." I soothed. I moved my body lower over hers so she could get a better grip onto me. I thrust slowly just to the barrier letting the head of my dick lightly tap it before pulling out a little I thrust in again hard enough to break the barrier Clare bit down on my shoulder in pain and dug her nails into my back, shockingly it felt good. I pulled away to see tears fall down Clare's face, she tried to hide but I didn't let her. I grabbed her chin so she faced me while trying not to thrust into her more I kissed away her tears. Clare moved and started kissing me.
"Move" she whispered against my lips. I obeyed and moved my hips thrusting slowly into her…agonizingly slow in fear that going to fast could hurt her, Clare bucked her hips up causing us both to let out moans of our own. "Faster" she said and I leaned down on my forearms as I moved faster. Clare moaned loudly with each thrust she received as I grunted.
"You're so fucking tight Clare." I groaned as I moved faster.
"Ah, Eli" She moaned. I moved positions so her legs were on my shoulders allowing me to go deeper. "Oh God Eli." Clare moaned as I quickened my pace thrusting harder into her. I felt Clare's nails start to dig into my back and I groaned loudly. "Do you like when I do this?" She moaned as she scratched the fuck out of my back.
"Yes." I moaned loudly as my pace quickened.
"Eli I'm getting close." She screamed. I tried to move my hand to her clit, but the position didn't allow it. I started thrusting into her erratically as she drug her nails painfully down my back we both let moaned each others names loudly as we both came at the same time. I slowed my pace down as Clare let out little whimpers. I pulled out once we rode out our orgasms and kissed Clare's forehead before getting off the bed and making my way to the bathroom.
"I'm sorry." Clare breathed it wasn't until then that I felt some liquid substance oozing down my back. I hurried into the bathroom, threw the condom away and jumped in her shower. I covered the drain so no water would go down and turned on the shower. That's when I notice Clare is a freak in bed. I chuckled to myself as I watched the water turn red from blood. "Are you ok?" Clare asked from outside the tub.
"Clare, making love to you was amazing. The most amazing time by far it would blow any other time I've had out of the water and you're going to ask me if I'm ok?" I chuckled as I drug her in the shower with me and kissed her passionately. Clare returned the kiss immediately. I groaned as I pulled away. "How do you feel?" I asked as I held her hips.
"I'm fine." She said
"Are you in any pain?" I asked
"A little, but I wouldn't mind a round two." She said causing me to chuckle.
"Turning into a sex kitten?" I joked, Clare playfully hit me.
"Only if its with you. Do you think we'll be able to have other times?" she asked sadly as she took off her purity ring and handed it to me. I took off my pinky ring I've been wearing for the past seven years and handed it to Clare.
"Where did this come from?" She asked as she looked it over. "Eli you didn't!" She scoffed playfully
"I bought it right before we got published. I was planning on giving it to you during spring break." I trailed off.
"When exactly did you buy it?" She asked
"When we went to the mall on a date and you saw that ring in the store your face lit up so much I knew you had to have it. I talked to CeCe and she agreed to give me the money I picked it up that night. I was planning on giving it to you during spring break." I trailed off.
"What did you have to do in return?" She asked
"Clean the house for a month." I chuckled.
"I'm sorry." She said as a tear fell down her face. I could tell she was crying even under the water.
"Clare don't worry about it. You ended up getting the ring in the end so it's worth it." I said as I wiped her tears away. I watched as she put the ring on and smiled at it. She took her purity ring and placed it on my ring finger but the ring was too small so she moved it to my pinky.
"Keep it with you always to remember me when you aren't here and I'll do the same with this one." She said as more tears fell from her face.
"Clare I'm not leaving just yet." I said wiping the tears from her face. Clare laced her fingers in my hair and bought me down to kiss her. I gripped her hips and started to deepen the kiss. "Are you too sore?" I asked as I pulled away, Clare shook her head and reached into the medicine cabinet where a box of condoms were placed.
"I'm sure Alli will buy new ones." She said taking out the box that had Alli's name on it. I chuckled as she handed me one. I looked at the size before gripping Clare's waist again bringing her into the shower and into another kiss. "Mmm" She whimpered as I hoisted her up. Clare remembered just what to do to get me instantly hard, she bit roughly on my pulse point and raked her nails along my back.
"Lock your legs around me so I can open the condom." I said and she obeyed I leaned her against the shower wall causing her to whimper at the contact. Clare slid down a little when I went to open the condom and then she moved her hips causing me to go fully inside of her both of us moaned loudly from the contact. "Fuck that feels so good." I moaned as she kept moving her hips up and down using my shoulders as her leverage and tightening the grip with her locked ankles to help her.
"Oh my God Eli this feels amazing." She moaned. I grabbed her ass and started to thrust into her with the condom still in my hand. Clare's nail continued to run down my back causing me to moan loudly and thrust into her harder. "Eli" She cried out. Fuck she's already close I could feel her walls starting to clench and unclench around me as I groaned.
"Clare we need to stop." I said knowing as good as this feels I need to put a condom on.
"I don't want to." Clare said as she continued to thrust her hips.
"I can't get you pregnant, Clare." I stated as I brushed hair away from her face causing her to stop. She nodded softly and buried her face into my neck as I lifted her up and off my cock. I put the condom on and lowered her back down causing us to moan loudly.
"Eli is the condom on?' She asked
"Yea, but I don't feel it do you?" I asked
"No it feels like nothing's there." She said
"Maybe I should check." I said as I started to lift her off. Clare opened the curtain instead.
"The condom's on Alli bought a kind that you don't feel." She said clearing up the confusion. I should tell Clare to thank Alli, but we aren't together so it would complicate things more. Instead I just started to thrust into her more. Causing both of us to moan. Liking the feeling of the pleasure I'm receiving I started to thrust erratically as Clare bit and clawed at my back more. Clare moaned loudly as I sat down in the tub with the shower still on and started to bounce her on my dick. "Harder." She moaned as she tried to thrust her hips and move herself.
"Fuck." I moaned as I squeezed her ass and bounced her harder and faster on my dick. Clare's teeth started to sink into my shoulder more, her whimpers became louder, and her walls began to tighten more frequently letting me know she was about to cum.
"ELI!" Clare screamed as she started to shake in my hands as she came violently.
"Clare..Fuck.." I moaned loudly as I came and slowed down my pace. Clare unclenched her jaw from my shoulder and I winced in pain.
"Sorry again." She said causing me to look at my shoulder which had blood spilling out of the teeth marks. I could only imagine how my back looked.
"How's my back?" I asked as Clare ran her hand against it too weak to move.
"Full of cuts and scratches." She said before looking at her hand. "And bleeding." She giggled. I moved her hand so I can look at it and it was covered in blood.
"Why you little devil." I chuckled playfully as I laid Clare down in the tub and started to tickle at her hearing her laugh and watching her squirm was one of the joys life could bring. Her laugh was like heaven and I wanted nothing more than to hear them everyday as I laughed along with her.
"Eli. Eli. Stop. Can't. Breathe." Clare laughed causing me to stop. Soon both of us stopped laughing and got cleaned up together.
"I have Axe shampoo and body wash if you want to use them." She said happily.
"Really?" I asked excitedly
"Mmhmm. They remind me of you and I used to smell them when I miss you." She admitted as she blushed
"You knew I was just a phone call away." I stated
"I was afraid of getting her." She said
"You wouldn't have and what changed your mind tonight?" I asked
"I missed you, your green eyes, your cocky personality, your sarcastic tone, and most of all you in general." She blushed
"I missed you too Clare. You're gorgeous figure, the way your hand fits in mine" I laced our fingers. "Your kisses" I pecked her lips "The way I'm still able to make you blush even after all these years." I kissed her cheeks "Everything" I whispered in her ear. All of a sudden the water turned into ice cubes and we both jumped out of the shower before turning it off. "I'm surprised it hasn't turned cold sooner." I chuckled
"While you weren't paying attention I kept making it hotter." Clare admitted.
"My sexy and sneaky little minx." I chuckled as I bought her into another kiss.
"Don't get so cocky my handsome Elijah." She said sweetly lacing her fingers in my hair and kissing me. I pulled away knowing how sore she must be after two rounds of making love since I just took her virginity during the first round. Clare handed me a towel to dry off with and we both walked into her room. "Ready for bed?" She asked as she dried her hair and yawned.
"Yes, but we need to talk first Edwards." I said knowingly.
"I know." She said as she opened the covers for me and I crawled in, she laid her head on my chest as I played with her hair.
"First of all as much as I want to accept this I can't." I said giving back her purity ring.
"Why not, it's not like I need it." She stated
"What about Jake?" I asked
"I stopped wearing it after a year when he asked because his friends kept teasing him. He said he would wait until I was ready and he has, but we just let people think he took my virginity." She admitted.
"What about when he wants to he'd notice."
"He'd have to force himself upon me and he's not like that." Clare said honestly as she yawned. "What about Imogen? When she sees your back and neck?" Clare asked
"She won't I'll make sure of it." I said as I kissed her head.
"So you'll still refuse her just like I still refuse Jake?" She asked
"I can't have sex with her even if I wanted." I said knowingly.
"Have you tried?" Clare asked
"She's tried." I admitted and Clare's face fell. "She gave me a blow job and in the middle tried. Remember when I first fingered you?" I asked and Clare blushed as she nodded
"You got hard as a rock instantly." She giggled.
"When I finger Imogen there's nothing. Hearing her moan instantly turns me off." I admitted "She can't keep herself from moaning when I finger her so we automatically know there's not going to be any sex between us." I said clearing up the confusion.
"It's only me right?" She asked and I kissed her head.
"Only you." I said
"And it's only you too." Clare said "I can't get turned on by Jake either he's tried fingering me before, but I couldn't get wet and it hurt." She admitted.
"I'm sorry." I said as I tried to hold down the lump in my throat.
"Why?" She asked as she lifted her head to look at me.
"Because we can't be together I don't want to hurt Imogen and I know you don't want to hurt Jake." I stated knowingly Clare laid her head back down and nodded.
"I love you Eli." She whispered
"I love you too Clare." I said and noticed Clare had fallen asleep. I held her and for the first time in six years I didn't have to take any sleeping pills to go to sleep.