Well I try to live without you
But tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God, I'm torn apart inside
I look up at the stars
Hoping you're doing the same
And somehow I feel closer
And I can hear you say
Oh, ho, I miss you
Oh, ho, I need you
I love you more
Than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed
No one could take your place
It gets harder every day
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay
I will stay
Always stay
I never want to lose you
And if I had to, I would choose you
So stay
Please always stay
You're the one that I hold on to
Cause my heart would stop without you
- Stay by miley cyrus
Chapter 1
::::Jayys POV::::
I put the pencil down and re-read the letter. I know this is stupid and I know It's a bad example for my fans but I don't care. I can't live with this heartache. I looked at the razor blade I held in my hand and lifted my sleeve. I smiled when I saw Dahvies name on my wrist. I love Dahvie so much. Way too much if you ask me. the way he looks into my eyes takes my breath away. And they way he kisses my lips gets me harder than any guy or girl ever could. so a lot of people are going to wander why I am doing this since i love him so much. But the truth is I'm tired of him rejecting me. and not caring about me. We quickly grew a part after he told me we have to keep this band some what perfessional. He didn't even kiss me last night at our show. i sighed and put the blade to my wrist. "Jayy you home?" I jumped and hid everything under my blankets as Dahvie opened my door. "Hey I thought you said you were staying out with that one chick?" he nodded and said "She wasn't my type so I ditched her," I nodded and smiled awkwardly. "You ok?" Dahvie asked me in a high voice. I nodded and said "Yeah why?" he looked at me with an eyebrow raised and started closing my door "You are a strange person Jayy," he said as he closed my door.
I got my note and walked over to my closet. "Later," I said as I stuffed it in a shoebox. I walked out of my room and saw Dahvie sitting on the couch. "Hey are you still with that one guy?" I sat down next to him and said "No why?" he shrugged and said "Just wondering. He was a piece of shit I'm glad you two are over," i smiled and said "Well your girlfriends aren't that great either," he nodded and said "Yeah i guess I do atract alot of whores," I took a deep breath and asked "Hey how come you didn't kiss me on stage last nigh?" he turned his head towards me and said "Oh I just thought we could change things up a bit you know?" I nodded and said "Oh ok," I got up went to the kitchen "Does it matter though?" he asked as he got up. I shook my head and said "Nah I just thought you were pissed at me or something," he shook his head and smiled "No I couldn't be mad at you even if I wanted to. We'll I'm going to bed I'll see ya tomorrow," I nodded and thought no you won't.
::::Dahvies POV::::
I closed my door and laid down on my bed. I lifted my sleeve and itched my healing cuts. I have to stop lying to Jayy. He's going to find out that I'm not really out with girls. I'm getting wasted by myself and crying over Jayy. I can barley look at him now. I love him so much it hurts. But I can't tell him. I made it very clear that I will never date him. And I'm surprised we both survived that day. Jayy as been wondering why I have been covering up but I don't think he suspects me cutting. If he saw how bad they were he would freak. The only reason I am cutting is because we are drifting apart. He acts like a total dick half the time and barley talks to me. Somethings up with him and I want to know what it is. I hope it's not because of me. I couldn't live with myself if I found out he's hurting because of me. But I won't have to worry about finding out. I plan on not waking up tomorrow. I can't live without Jayy and I practically lost him. I'm sick of this love bullshit.
I got up and walked into my bathroom and got out a bottle of pills. "Nighty night,"
It's alittle short but i will update and make it longer, i promise:)
all rights to miley cyrus for the song stay. it's a real favorite of mine because it's so sweet and sad.
I will also update my other stories soon.
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