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Title: It should have been me
WWC: #1, I don't think that was meant to happen
Rating: PG-13
Parings: none
Characters: Tony
Genres: Dark
Warnings: death fic, minor spoilers.
Summary: It was never meant to happen, but yet it did.
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I don't think that was meant to happen. Looking back at that that day, I'm positive that that was never meant to happen, but yet it did. It was like fate had decided to take the day off just to see what would happen, and that cost us our boss.
I should have been the one to die. I know that I am the one who should have died. If he had let me go like I said I would, he would have been alive now. He would be alive and I would have been dead, like I'm supposed to be. He wasn't even killed in the line of duty. He was killed by a fucking truck driven by a reckless, drunk driver. The truck that had been meant for me.
Ducky told us afterwards that he had died instantly, like that would change anything. Abby is a mess. Nothing and no one can console her. The others are looking to me for guidance. I am the leader now. I am supposed to know what to do. What to say. How to act.
I can't. It was one thing when he left for Mexico because then we knew that he was still alive. Now it's different. Now he won't come back. But I have no choice. I can't leave them. He wouldn't have wanted me to leave them just like that. But he was the one who was supposed to lead them on.
I was never meant to happen like that.