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Our Brains are Sick
Santana Lopez can't help but smile, she hasn't slept this well in a long time. She cuddles closer into the naked body next to her. The smell of raspberry coffee brings back the memories of the night before. The gravity of the situation hits her directly in the heart. How can something that makes her feel, like she glows bright and can't stop smiling, be so wrong?
Oh right, because the person that makes her feel this way happens to be Quinn's. She knows she shouldn't stay and bask in all these wonderful but wrong feelings. However she can't seem to get herself to pull away. She has wanted this for so long. She never meant to fall in love with Rachel Berry but the girl made it nearly impossible not to.
For so long the thought of Rachel brought a pang of despair because she knew that they would never be together because of one pretty big caveat: Rachel is in love with Quinn and only Quinn. But in a perverse way right now, Santana has everything she ever wanted and she doesn't want reality to rain on it just yet. She doesn't want acid rain reality to stifle the imagery in her mind.
Shattering this illusion is the sharp knock on Rachel's bedroom door and Quinn's velvety voice.
"Rachel, baby, open the door, i'm so sorry about everything. I want to be with you, I can't be without you. Please open the door and be mine because I'll always be yours."
Once Quinn started talking Rachel sat up. Her eyes widening as she looked underneath the covers to see she's naked and then she looks to go see who she had sex with, her heart gets strangled. It was Santana, out of all the people she could have had sex with!
Full on panic floods the diva's mind. The pure panic splays across her face completely prevalent. So Santana goes to hold Rachel's hands but she flinched away.
"Fuck. Fuck. Fuck! How did I let this happen! How could I do this to Santana. Oh my how did I do this to Quinn. How can I be so in love with Quinn and mess everything up to entirely"
Rachel springs out of bed and starts to pace. Quinn is still pleading outside the door. Santana whispers
"Rachel! Calm the fuck down!"
Santana grabs a hold of Rachel and sits her down on the bed, strangely enough them both being naked and sitting next to each other.
"Okay I've calmed down now hide somewhere and I'll think of a way to lure Quinn out of my room."
Santana goes and hides in the closet; the heavy shade of irony is not lost.
Rachel goes and unlocks the door and quickly throws herself under the covers.
"Door is open. Please come on in Quinn."
Quinn opens the door ever so slightly. Stepping in so precariously and looks at Rachel with an over exhausted down trodden expression. The blonde cheerleader quickly closes the gap between them. She sits on the edge of the bed right next to Rachel who is hiding under the covers.
Without any restraint the blonde kisses the diva soundly. Rachel couldn't help but moan at the feeling. Quinn was showing her how sorry she was about the fight and break up that happened a month or so before. Everything escalates pretty quickly because Quinn wants to show Rachel how much she means to her. The Head Cheerleader is pretty much straddling the diva as she takes off her shirt.
The cheerleader starts to kiss down the diva's neck. Rachel was too entranced with the feeling of Quinn that she forgot she was naked. Quinn starts to peel off the covers to see her ex-girlfriend is very naked underneath the covers. The Queen bitch is slightly confused but doesn't let it deter her and continues to kiss Rachel. Pulling back hazel meets chestnut.
"God I love you. Please forgive me Rachel! We broke up over such stupid reasons! I just can't believe I broke up with you because you wanted to be with me. I just thought it'd be better if you were without me because I didn't want to hold you back, because we all know I'm going to be stuck in Lima."
Rachel goes to speak but Quinn holds her hand out in defiance.
"Just let me finish, I've been miserable since I broke up with you last month. Today would have been our one year annivrsery. I couldn't let you go you were all I thought about for the past month and I realized what you said was true that we still have a year to be with each other. We are only Juniors in high school. I guess I was just scared that I'd lose you. I hated seeing you so hurt and the things that you did, I can't believe you'd do such things Rachel! I had Santana coming to me scared to death for you. For some silly reason I thought it would be better without you. I wanted to not inhibit you. Rachel you have to promise me you'll go to New York no matter what, but you also have to promise me that we'll stay together till you have to leave."
The diva carefully and lovingly wipes the tears streaming down Quinn's face kissing her chaistly.
"Baby, you won't ever lose me because I know you'll be leaving with me. Your destined for so much more. You may not end up in New York with me, as much as I would love that, I want you to chase your dreams and we'd make it work even if I had to fly across the country every weekend to see you."
"I, uh, I just love you so much Rach."
They lock lips and Rachel can't help, but moan at the touch of her lover's lips. She's missed the intoxicating aroma and her silky soft lips. Like a heavy dose of heroine straight to the heart Rachel stopped once she tasted the lip gloss on her lips. What happened the night before comes flooding back filling the pool of her guilt.
"Rachel? Are you here?"
Santana walks into the Diva's room with a furrowed brow. She's been looking for this girl all night with no luck at finding her. This pit in her stomach wouldn't let her just go have fun. The fact that the girl she is in love with seemed to be missing. Nobody had seen her for the past 24 hours which was very rare. Rachel was always the social type and for her to be hiding something had to be wrong.
Obviously the Diva had changed a lot since last month because of the break up of Faberry. The brunette took it extremely hard and everybody knew she would. The thing about Rachel was the she loved hard and ferociously. This was something both Quinn and Santana loved so dearly about the girl.
The Diva kept her pain so locked up inside that even people closest to her didn't notice just how much the breakup affected her. The dark path she was being led down by her heart break was something cruel and vicious. It lead Rachel to hit a very scary point to where Santana found her over dosed on Heroine in a dingy alleyway. The only reason Santana found her was because she was walking around the downtown area looking for Rachel while calling her phone. The fiery Latina was about to give up hope after looking for about three hours to hear the ringtone as her heart stopped.
The freaked 2nd in command had run through the ally to find the barely breathing and very pale once glorious Diva. Santana had heard her distraught screams echo in her ears almost as loud as the pounding in her ears. The Latina had no idea what to do so she just slapped the unconscious girl before her. When nothing happened the girl had picked up the diva and ran towards the girl's house. Once there with the agility of a puma she had got her up the stairs and into Rachel's bath tub.
Quickly Santana filled the tub with hot water and kept splashing water on Rachel's face when the unconscious Diva started to stir. Rachel tried to say something but quickly Santana shushed her and she was so elated that she pushed forward and kissed the girl's lips. The Cheerleader quickly pushed back once she realized what she had done.
"I'm so sorry, Rachel. I just—"
Rachel seemed to be nodding off so once again Santana had shaken her awake. The girl did end up being alright but Santana couldn't forget about the kiss Rachel obviously forgot.
Since the girl was missing once again Santana could only think of the worst case scenario, her Rachel once again overdosing.
The Cheerleader pushes open the girl's bedroom door to see Rachel dancing around in some skimpy lingerie listening to god knows what through her headphones. That's when Santana saw the empty bottle of Grey Goose and a fifth of Bacardi 151 left. Rachel spins around and sees Santana throwing her arms around the neck of the Latina that's flushed red.
"Tana hey! You come over to party?"
The drunk girl passes the Bacardi to Santana who figures what the hell and takes a swig of the fiery liquid burning her trachea but making what she wants to do and what she should do very blurry.
The Latina ended up drunk, nowhere near as much as the Diva but they both had their inhibitions close to hell. So when they danced and held each other close they didn't shy away like they were accustomed to. With a failed twist they hit the floor with Rachel pinning Santana down to the ground. They both knew that they should get up and just shrug it off but with the alcohol buzzing through their system and just the meer fact of the extra heated touch had them both going crazy. It didn't help that they were just so close to each other, barely millimeters between their lips. With one ragged breath from Santana the gap was closed and they tumble down this path of betrayal intertwined.
Shaking her head of those images Rachel continues
"Quinn I need to—"
"You don't have to say it Rachel, I can obviously tell you slept with someone. You didn't do any thing wrong since we've been broken up for a while now. It hurt to know but as long as you say your mine everything will be fine."
"I've always been your's, I belong to you Quinn. I always have been, even before we started dating I kept finding my self following you like a lost puppy. Last night I was hurt but I spent the entire night wishing it was you."
A shotgun blast to the heart would have been a cleaner causality to what Santana's heart became. Her heart couldn't take any more of this torture. Her heart is nonexistent, the ghost of her heart is what keeps pumping blood through her veins but she just feels so numb. The fact that nothing could be heard in the other room let's Santana's mind go wild with offending scenarios that could be happening mere feet from her. All this bitch karma is coming back to bite her in the ass right this minute.
Rachel almost isn't able to pull away from the most delectable lips of her girlfriend. But she has to because her best friend is still in the closet.
"Quinn, stop, I want to start our relationship right. I want to take you out for a romantic tonight so go and get ready I'll pick you up around eight sharp. Please let me do this for you."
"One more kiss for the road?"
"You know I can't say no to you."
They kiss and it feels like an eternity for Santana as she feels like her insides are being squished atom by atom.
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