It's been over three months without fic…and I miss you guys.
This isn't much…but I kinda feel rusty and I want to get back into writing.
So reid, review and enjoy if you would please?
Oh…I own nothing.
It doesn't take much for him to have a flashback…
The buzzing of a bulb about to go.
The sight of viscera; sometimes he forgoes the meat department in the grocer all together if he can help it…if it's one of his bad days.
The simple act of taking an aspirin; drugs in any form just don't seem so innocent anymore.
It's been over three years…but it's still with him…hanging around his neck like a noose ready to tighten.
When he's alone in bed, the darkness surrounding him; ready to press its full weight along the length of him—binding him—giving him no chance to move or breathe…
Yeah, it doesn't take much.
And sometimes it keeps him up for days; purple-bruise smeared under his eyes.
His mind bounces off the wall; each thought and memory pinging back in the most horrible of feedbacks.
And his hands shake as he picks up his coffee mug, and he has to put it down before it sloshes everywhere
Those are the days he wants to grind his teeth to the quick. He wants to press the crescent of his nails until there are four stinging cuts in each of his palms. He wants to scream until his voice is gone, and still just scream some more. He wants to curl into a ball and slip into the warm embrace of sleep…not the helpful kind, but the one that steals your breath away and never gives it back. The one that makes you forget.
And Morgan knows.
Morgan can see it the way he fidgets in his seat on the plane ride home.
Morgan can see it when Reid doesn't have anything to add to a conversation; eyes glazed over— nothing but a vessel.
He knows when Reid flinches against his touch— a hand on the shoulder, a squeeze of the arm. And still he tries anyway.
He knows that sometimes…even if Reid doesn't ask for it; he knows that a hug won't make anything better…but sometimes that and a smile is something that can help make things…a little easier.
It doesn't take much for Reid to have a flashback…but he knows that if he's having trouble— Morgan doesn't mind just being there.
And right now, that's all Reid can ask for.
A/N: Looking forward to the new season…kinda.
But most def. missing the boys. Hope to see more of you guys in the next coming months.
:D
Da-Sm