...ok, let's see how I do with multi-chapter fics. And let's see if I manage to make this at least shonen-ai scented.
D. Gray-Man ain't mine. How I wish Kanda was, though...
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Six Illusions
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First Illusion
It was hard not to love the white-haired ball of joy from the Dark Order. Such a sweet, caring boy in that enviroment seemed almost out of place, but he couldn't see himself anywhere else. Helping others, even if it meant risking his life, was natural in him and failing them was his greatest worry and fear.
Naturally, everyone got fond of him, and just having him close, smiling, made you feel the world had more hope than before. But his selflessness sometimes became too much for some, and they ended up scowling the boy for not taking better care of himself and being so self-sacrificing. And after watching the guilty look in his face, they suddenly regretted being so hard on him. After all, it was in his nature to be like that. That's how Allen was and no one wanted to change that.
And no matter how much it irked him, neither did Kanda. That little fact was eating the samurai alive and he didn't know why.
"Just admit for once that you care about him", a soft voice spoke to him.
"Tch. And why would I do that?"
"Simple, my dear Kanda," Linali explained with a smile on her pretty face, "Just for the simple reason that I'm getting really tired of you staring at him with those eyes that seem to want to eat him." A small laugh escaped her lips. "In what meaning of the word, I'm still not sure."
The intense glare directed at her seemed to be ignored by the young woman, so his gaze once again drifted to another table.
At the other side of the dining hall, blisfully unaware of a pair of intense blue eyes drilling through him, Allen Walker was happily eating his plates clean, while in front of him Lavi was chatting about something that quite frankly, Kanda didn't care about. 'Moyashi isn't even listening, is he?' The boy was nooding and smiling between bites, sometimes laughing a little - it made Kanda want to be the one to make Allen laugh like that since it sounded so nice. 'Nice?' But he could tell the boy was much more interested in the food in front of him.
"You aren't even listening, are you?"
Kanda snapped himself out of a trance he didn't even know he was in. He briefly wondered if Linali would tease him about this now. And not wanting to further make a fool of himself, he replied with his usual, you-won't- know-what-it-means tch.
The young girl simply gave a small sigh. "Alright. Since your mind was surely somewhere else, I'll repeat myself: do you think my brother would let me date Allen?"
And as soon as those words came out and processed themselves in his brain, Kanda wondered just how far their semi-conversation had turned while his mind was occupied with other thoughts for Linali to ask him something like that. But his answer came quickly, so much that he didn't even had time to stop it.
"I don't want you to date him."
And just like that, both their eyes went wide - Kanda's barely, but still they showed surprise - by his answer,neither believing what had come off from the exorcist's mouth.
'I can't believe I said that! What is wrong with me?!'
Very quickly, Kanda looked for an excuse for his rushed answer. He just hoped his face wouldn't betray him.
"You should know Komui better than anyone here. You know he wouldn't and neither would I. He's just a cursed bean-sprout after all. What's so special about him?" In the back of his mind, Kanda knew that his last question was directed to himself. 'What indeed.' He completely ignored the fact that he sounded like a jealous boyfriend as well.
Linali was giving him a questioning look when he turned to her. And just like that, her mouth slowly curved, forming a knowing smirk that made Kanda nervous for some reason.
"What's that look for?"
Her look quickly turned innocent. "What look?"
Kanda simply grunted. Allowing this girl to sit with him was asking for a hard time. He knew it but still didn't opposed. Turning his attention to his food, he wasn't surprised to find it midly cold. 'I'm not that hungry anyway.'
Getting up to leave, he was stopped by a simple statement. "You know Kanda, I don't think Allen would accept it either way. I'm pretty sure someone else has caught his attention already."
The swordsman slightly turned his head to see the girl. She was wearing a smile that made him know she wasn't at all sad to have Allen like someone else - and that she was happy about it.
'Strange...is she friends with that person?' The little voice that was screaming to know that person's name was roughly pushed aside. 'Tch. What do I care?'
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that's all I'm saying