A/N: this is set after 2.25 after the Graduation party. It portraits what happens when Blair arrives home. In my version Chuck does NOT take the direct way to the airport but makes a stop at the Waldorf's first.
Beta'ed by Shelby.
It was after midnight when Blair got in her room and let herself fall on her comfortable bed. She didn't care to turn on a light. It was dark and silent, which was exactly how she felt and what she needed right now. It had been a rough day, perhaps, the roughest of her life.
Serena and she had been in a flurry of flashbulbs which was fun.
She had graduated high school, which had been fun, until the GG blasts.
She tried to confess her break-up with Nate to Chuck. She'd failed.
As part of the NJBC she'd tried to find out who GG was. It failed.
She confessed her love to Chuck again. But Chuck didn't do the same – Again.
And now Chuck was done with her for good because she slept with Jack.
She needed to take back some control of her life. She needed a way to handle the whole story. So she decided to do what she always did if she needed a restart. She rose and walked over to the bathroom. She kneed down in front of the toilet and stuck her finger down her throat. She emptied her body. It was her way to handle the clean up with undesirable situations. If she'd made some light she would know that she wasn't alone….
Chuck stood in the dark of the doorway and couldn't believe what he saw. After the scene at the Oak Bar, he'd walked a bit and decided that he didn't want to be a coward. He knew that he loved Blair. And she'd been right. The whole Jack-Vanessa-thing was just another excuse for them to avoid any serious actions. When he finally realized that, he walked over to her house. Dorota was talking to the doorman when he arrived. He explained to her that he needed to speak with Blair and wanted to wait. Dorota just nodded and let him go upstairs. He sat down in the corner next to the window. The room was completely dark. When she entered the room earlier he decided to wait to see what happened. He was prepared to see a meltdown. He was prepared to see her crying or yelling or both. But he wasn't prepared to see the damn awful scene in front of him now. Blair was bulimic. He couldn't believe what he'd seen.
What can I do? If I show up now she will never forgive me. Chuck thought.
So he did what he always did best – ran away. On his way out he admitted that it made total sense. The bulimia was the perfect last piece to complete the puzzle. Blair was always jealous of Serena, her mother always treated Blair to eat nothing. Even in front of her friends. Chuck was several times witness of such Eleanor-Blair-discussions. He also knew that Blair had been in therapy, but he never asked why. He thought it was caused by Harold's leaving. He needed time to think – badly.
"Where to, Mr. Bass?" the driver asked as he got in the limo.
"The airport."
As Blair finished her vomit-session, she rose and brushed her teeth. She walked back to the bed and lied down. She allowed herself to cry. The thing she'd forbid herself from doing the entire night. But now she needed it. She needed to let go of everything, but it was so pretty damn hard….
Two hours later, Blair just lied on her bed and stared at the ceiling. There were no tears left that she could cry. Suddenly, her phone rang and out of habit she took it immediately. It was Gossip Girl.
Spotted: Chuck Bass at the airport, alone and on his way to his private jet. Wondering where he's going? I bet Blair Waldorf wants to know.
Xoxo,
Gossip Girl
"You think that? Well you're wrong you, heinous little bitch!" Blair whispered before closing her phone. She didn't want to know. She just wanted to sleep. And, if possible, never wake up again….
Chuck sat on the plane. He couldn't think of something else than the scene he witnessed, several hours ago. Every time he tried to put his mind on different things, Blair caught up with him.
But he couldn't help her. Who could? Serena. And Serena should, she's the reason it was happening in the first place.
Yeah, blaming Serena made it better for some time. He leaned back and fell asleep.
This night, both of them dreamed of the same night.
Blair's 17th Birthday Party
Chuck had confessed to her that he liked her. She acted like….Blair. They made a bet, Blair lost. Blair was upset because a blast about Nate and an unknown blond bitch and Chuck comfort her with expensive jewel. The two started an affair that night, which involved several days of sneaking around. It continued that way, until the debutante ball. And that whole screwing up, was what led them to the current point of no return. The only way was the one right forward in an unsure future. The only question was – with or without each other.
A/N: It's not the best piece I've ever written but I hope some of you will like it though.
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