Leo had been missing for two years now...the others had lost all hope of finding him...and if Raphael was completely honest with himself he had givin up too...leo was gone...leo was dead...why couldn't he just acept it?leo had died protecting them just as they all new he would...but that fact didn't make losing him any easier...I wasent a good brother..I never listened to him...I was always jealous of him...and now that he's gone I'll never get to take anything I said back...I don't hate him...I never did...I'll probably never get over this...20 years from now I'll still be stalking around new york...pounding up on the thugs and searching for a brother I know I'll never find...donny and mickey have each other...but for me and splinter we both had leo...I love my other brothers more than anything...but to lose leo like that...my best friend...worst enemy...my leader...my brother...its just too much to take...splinter rarely ever comes out of the dojo...he is probably hurting even more than I am...what is it like to lose a son?is it more painfull than losing a brother?
Raph was sudenly awoken from his thoughts by the shrill ringing of his shellcell he fliped up the screen and stared into donnies tired eyes..."you comin back yet?master's starting to worry..."
Raph Grunted. "Yea I'm almost done there is just one more place I want to scout first.."
Donny nodded,he knew better than to try to dissuade him from searching any more..."be carefull.."he said and signed off.
Raph snorted and looked out towards the docks...had looked here so many times before that he knew every rotten board...every crack in the cement ...leaping off the building he disappeared into the night.