Allright so my knowledge in the Poke'mon department is slightly lacking as my interest was only recently reignited. I've seen a good number of episodes and movies from all seasons and played games old and new but if I make a mistake in something that's happened/happens, names, which Poke'mon belong to whoever, or even gender problems (I seriously though max was a little girl the first time I saw him in a battle frontier episode) simply let me know in a review.

Feel free to flame me, I realize many of you have pent up anger and/or nothing better to do with your time then to write hateful "you sUckz0rz mn" in a review but hey, who am I to judge you love deprived readers

umm so I hear it's ABSOLUTELY necessary to throw in a disclaimer so hear you go.

Disclaimer: I do not own poke'man... I mean mon'pokes... no no wait, I don't own pika poke' chu mon. /sigh I dont own what ever the heck it is in which I write about... except maybe the idea for this story... but then again there is never an original idea. hmm so for the maybe 6 people who read from the begining to now instead of just skipping to the story like I do (which is why I write random thoughts of crap like this in the authors notes and disclaimers section), let the tail commence.

sort of... first I have a question...as I read other fan fics I came across two common terms... shipping, and AAML... could someone please inform my uninformed self as to what these are? k thx bye

The real beginning of the story

Ash sat quietly within the dark night, illuminated only by the camp fire into which had his gaze captivated for the moment. Brock, May and Pikachu slept peacefully, and Max... well there was no Max, the little boy had come out in him when he finally decided to go back home and live with his parents because he missed his mother so much.

Ash continued to simply stare at the fire as though it had the answer to all his questions. His thoughts had been building and building for a long while now and it was getting to the point where he couldn't sleep very much. "Misty..." the single word escaped his lips as he thought of her. It had been awhile since he'd last seen her and yet not a day had gone by that thoughts of her didn't fill his mind. He'd fallen in love with her and knew it.

His thoughts turned to his memories, remembering the day they first said good bye for the first time. It had nearly killed him inside and it was when he realized his feelings for her ran deep down. He wished he'd told her. What made him feel worse was he had had another chance to tell her, but blew it again. That time they spent a few days together, but things had gotten way to hectic with all the commotion over Togepi. She was so heart broken over Togepi evolving and having to leave her that it seemed the worse time to confess anything.

He wanted to see her now more than ever, he wanted her to travel with him again, most of all, he wanted to tell her, but as the thought of actually telling her crossed his mind, he got goose bumps, the more cynical thoughts dominating now "what if she doesn't feel the same... what if she laughed at me... what if it completely ruined our relationship... better to be friends and dieing inside then to be avoiding each other and completely dead inside"

He sighed and finally tore his gaze away from the fire and looked at the ground he sat on for a moment before falling back on to his sleeping bag and closing his eyes, trying once more to sleep. He did manage to fall asleep but it was shallow and restless, his dreams poisoned with more longing emotions for her.

At the crack of dawn he sat up rather suddenly, breathing hard, sweat rolling down his neck as a single tear dropped from his eye. It took him a moment to realize it was a tear and wiped it away. May and Brock stirred but still slept. Pikachu however had been awoken.

"Pika?" it said questioningly, still drowsy. Ash forced a smile "sorry buddy, I didn't mean to wake you." Pikachu got up and gave Ash another questioning look. The pair had been together for to long to be fooled by one another. Pikachu could obviously something was wrong with Ash.

Ash got up quietly, careful not to disturb Brock or May as he headed to a near by lake, followed by Pikachu, to cool off and wash up. When he was done he sat in front of the lake and let his thoughts wander once more. As he looked at the lake he remembered first meeting Misty... the circumstances had been... unusual to say the least. She'd been fishing and had gotten a bite, which happened to be Ash. The memory made him laugh as he sat there and Pikachu was relieved to see his master and best friend a bit more cheerful. "I want to see her again" he thought quietly to him self, and in response he surprised himself with a obvious question "Well why can't I go see her?" He wandered why he hadn't asked himself this simple question earlier. His thoughts were interrupted however as a delicious aroma reached his nose. He stood up and followed it back to the camp where Brock and May were now awake and Brock had something cooking over a new fire.

"Morning Ash!" They said to him in unison. "Morning guys. Somethin' smells good Brock, but that's nothing unusual I guess." Ash said with a grin. He tried his hardest to put on a front around them so they wouldn't see any of the pain he was in but as the day progressed it seemed easier for him as he seriously toyed with the idea of heading to Cerulean city just to see Misty again. After all, the journey he was on now was simply one to get stronger, catch more Pokemon, and to meet new trainers. There were no badges to be collected, no ribbons to compete for, no real objective like he usually had.

When the twilight hours came, the three of them sat around a fire just talking, when Ash looked up and rather abruptly said

"I'm heading back to Kanto"

Ta-da Ch.1

let the reviews (if any) be set in motion.

do not feel any need to hold back, if u think it sucked then say so but at least leave a suggestion as to how I can improve if you find it so horrible. If you enjoy the story then I am glad. I'll get ch.2 up quickly if you guys like it.