A/N: So, this is more a poem that I wrote for myself *lol* but I wanted to put it on FF... so I've turned it into a letter that is being written, in the format of a poem. Enjoy :)
Disclaimer: I own my poem... but not Camp Rock. (this is where you insert the 'duh')
I hate you, so much.
I do hate you, right?
No.
I can't help but care for you,
Can't help but feel hurt,
Can't help but spend all my nights wondering if you'll ever come back to me.
It's stupid.
I'm wasting my time, and I know it
You're never coming back.
Never, never, never.
And I hate it, so, so, so much.
I wish I hated you.
I don't want to still care.
Sit here wasting, wasting, wasting all my time.
I want to forget
I don't want to relive those days in my nightmares.
I wish I could just scream.
But I'll never be free.
I'm forever trapped in our past
Forever scarred,
Never free.
Because I can't forget.
It's true, I still can see your eyes,
Your perfect face, your flawless hair,
Everything perfect about you
But it's all shattered now.
Your face, broken into a million pieces,
My heart, into a million more.
But it didn't take you long to forget.
But did I really expect anything different?
I was stupid to think that you cared.
So, so stupid.
I'm sick.
I'm sick of caring,
I hate myself for loving you
It's over, it's gone,
I keep telling myself.
If only I could enforce it,
If only I could hate you.
I want to hate you.
Hate, hate, hate,
It would be so much easier
Than the pain, pain, pain.
Pain hurts so much more than hate.
And I wish I could say,
'I'll get over it'
'I'll be fine'
I know that I won't.
And I wish you'd just come back,
If I could, I'd turn things around
I can't.
And I wish I didn't have to live with this,
This pain, this love, this guilt.
This hate.
But I know you're never coming back,
And I know I'll never forget
This pain will never subside.
Forever engraved in my heart.
So this is how it ends,
Yet again, we both lose.
We always lost.
I won't kid with myself,
I won't forget.
If only you wouldn't, either.
Love,
Mitchie