Okay, so i wrote this ages ago and just found it floating around when I was clearing out my laptop. Yes, I clear out my laptop, don't ask. Anyways, it's electra and whatever tom takes your fancy. It doesn't bother me. have fun. Listen to Christina Perri's 'jar of hearts' if you want the context.
Jar of Hearts
I don't want to look at you. I don't want to see your face. The face I loved. That crooked smile. Those amazing eyes. I don't think I could stand it. I loved you so much. You were my world, my everything. I couldn't live without you. And then I found out. You didn't love me back. You were seeing her behind my back. I should have learned from their mistakes, the way they felt when you dumped them. But I forgot all that when I fell in love with you.
I lost everything when you left me. My life just fell apart. I got over you eventually. It was hard. I kept wanting to run to you and kiss your cheek the way I used to. I learned to live with it. I learned to live without you. I spent long nights crying myself to sleep. It hurt so much. And then you came back.
You said you were sorry. That you hadn't been thinking. That it was over between you and her. That you and I should get back together again. I just ignored you. I'd learned my lesson. I'd learnt the hard way that you weren't right for me. You were too rash, too reckless. You never thought things through. You certainly didn't care about me. Not the way I wanted you to.
"Who do you think you are?" I whispered. I said it quietly, but with force. I wanted you to understand what you did to me. I wanted you to realise the truth of what you'd done. You stole my heart and ran away. There was no way I was coming back to you after that.
You asked everyone when you left her. "Has anyone seen Electra? Do you know where she is?" I ignored your pleas. I'm stronger now. Strong enough not to go running back into your arms. Strong enough to find my own way. You cannot hurt me anymore.
You stole my heart like you stole so many others. You stole my soul and put it in a glass jar. You wanted to make sure I was yours and only yours. But it cannot be that way. My heart is mine to give to who I want. And there's no way in the world I'll ever give it to you. Not after what you did.
When you told me, just like that, that you were dumping me, I slapped you. How could you take me, bleed me of all my love for you and then just leave me like that? It wasn't fair. But then I realised…
I realised that by dumping me, you had set me free. I no longer had to follow you everywhere. I could find my own way. I could rebuild my life and start again, with a new tom. I didn't need you anymore.
You came back. Asking for forgiveness. Asking for my love. But it was too late. I'd seen what you were. And I wasn't going to give you what you wanted. Not after last time.
I don't need you anymore.
I don't need your love and you're not getting mine.
I've stolen your heart now. I have my own jar of broken hearts. Yours was the first. Hopefully it will be the last. I love someone else now and I don't want to have to break his heart to mend mine.
Hope you guys liked it! Review, you know how it works! Thanks for reading!
Yours fearlessly, faithfully and truly
AlleyCattDancer
xx
P.S. Sorry I had to change it slightly.