His body felt cold. His eyes had lost their shine.
His breathing was shallow, hardly noticeable.
Hands clammy, he reached up & stroked my cheek.
I couldn't bear to look at him. Not after this.
Not after what I had done. I began to cry.
I love you. I don't blame you.
How could he not? He was too good.
Too pure for a monster like me.
This is all my fault. I'm so sorry.
Blood was beginning to pool around us.
His blood. My blood.
…Blood.
Bella, I'm tired.
No! This couldn't be happening!
Not now. Oh God, where was Daniel?!
No…Edward! Look at me! Don't fall asleep.
Don't you dare leave me. Wake up!
I desperately began to shake him.
Violently. Anything to keep him awake… alive.
The smell of the blood was becoming unbearable.
Iron, rust, and sweat.
Cradling his head into my lap, I realized there was nothing I could do.
Nothing to do, but watch the boy I loved die in my arms.
How could it have come to this?
I should've stayed away. Away from him.
Bella...
I looked down at him. Into those chocolate eyes of his.
Sobbing, I managed to say-
Please, don't die. Don't leave me. I need you. I love you.
Just hold on a little longer – help is coming.
Hold on.
Please.
His face became a terrifying grey – he was slipping away from me.
Bella… ditto.
His chest rose. Then fell.
And never rose again.
Hitting him, slapping him, I tried to bring him back.
Maybe I could beat the life back into him.
Punch air into his life-less lungs.
Screaming now, I yelled -
Edward! Don't you dare fucking go! WAKE UP!
WAKE UP! WAKE UP, YOU IDIOT!
No matter what I did, he never woke up.
I began to plead –
To God, to Allah, to Buddha.
To the Universe to bring him back to me.
I would do right this time. I would leave him alone.
I would learn how to control it.
Control myself – my hunger for him.
None of them listened.
I closed his eyelids; those eyes did nothing for me now.
They were but black holes that once had light.
His light.
I kissed him, one final time.
And whispered to his lips,
Ditto.
…..
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Info: If nothing makes sense right now, I promise it will eventually. :) I wanted to begin the story with one of the last chapters, so I could go back and explain how it got to this point. NOTE: Bella is sort of telling the story to someone, so words may be present tense here and past tense somewhere else aka flashbacks. Yes, Bella is the vampire & Edward is the human. Not the most original spin-off, but hey. I know it's not the best; but hopefully you stick around because I have A LOT of ideas for where this should go. KEEP OUT FOR THE WORD 'DITTO' - IT WILL BE A CENTRAL PART OF THE STORY! I'm definitely open to criticism, both positive & negative. If you have any thoughts for what should happen next, let me know. FEEDBACK IS ENCOURAGED. So, hello there. I'm a new writer & this is my story.
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