Title: God Must Have Spent a Little More Time on You
Author: blackbeltchic's imaginary friends
Original Air Date: May 2, 2004
Posted: October 2, 2004
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. The song is by 'NSYNC, while the version I was listening to while writing this was by...Alabama, maybe... Yeah, Alabama, with NSYNC on background vocals. The characters aren't mine either. But I hope you still like it.
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"For just over a hundred years, I was evil, plain and simple. It was kill or be killed, and well, I was good at what I did. Then, I made a mistake, and I got my soul back. That was an awful experience for me. Like I said, I was really good at what I did, and now, I remember everything, everyone of them! I lost it, everything. I lost the evil, I lost my purpose, I lost the threatening way I walked, and talked, I lost who I had become, and I was someone totally different." Angel was pacing the length of his apartment, muttering to himself. The radio was on, even though he wasn't listening to it. The noise gave him some comfort.
Can this be true?
Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
"For awhile, I just felt sorry for myself. I stayed out of trouble, harming no one. I wanted it to end, I thought about it so many times, how I could do it, but, I couldn't do it, I didn't have the guts. I was a coward. I just couldn't bring myself to end it, even though I had nothing to live for."
Never knew that love could feel like this
And you changed my world with just one kiss
"And, now... I'm risking my life for you, when before, I would have killed you! Now I have something to live for, and I risk my life every second of every night we're together. Until now, I didn't know I was capable of true love like this. I thought I was going to be miserable, for the rest of my undead life! Until someone was good enough to put me out of my misery!"
)How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel?
It's
a miracle(
)Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I could never keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent
A little more time
On you(
)In all of creation
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold
When you came into this world(
"I was a cold blooded killer, and I had no way of feeling. But now, these feelings inside of me, they're overwhelming! I can't keep them to myself, Buffy! I just can't, they'll swallow me up, and I'll drowned in them!"
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Leaves me purified
"And I don't know how to express this type of thing! And it shouldn't be happening! I know that, but I can't help it! I love y...no, that's all wrong. Um... let's see... When I was human, I was a rogue. No, no need to go that far. For the first 100 years of my undead life, I was a cold blooded, merciless killer. I did what I had to do, what I was good at. But then, when I regained my soul, I didn't know that anyone could feel that much pain. It's constantly there, no matter what happens, its there, no matter how many times I try to rectify what I did; it's still there!
"But then, I met you, and everything else dimmed in comparison. You shine right through the dark clouds that I've been living in; you've given me hope, for something better than what I have... Better, yes. That's right." He looked around, and started cleaning up the apartment.
Soon he heard a knock at the door.
"Come in!"
"Hey, you wanted to talk to me?"
"Yes, Buffy... For the first 100 years of my life I was a cold-blooded killer. And then, I got my soul back... and it was torture. I never knew anyone could feel that much pain. And it's always there. But then, I met you. And you shine right through the dark clouds I've been living in; you've given me hope, for something better than what I have. I...I..." He kissed her, and the kiss said everything he ever wanted to tell her.
"I love you too." She said, kissing him again.
Reader Reviews:
Bluie Twilight Star (5/2/04): Yay! B/A! I really like it! The song fits in very well.
Kat461 (5/2/04): cute!
Melluvben (5/404): that was sweet. i love how he was rehearsing what he wanted to say. i love that song to.
Queen Boadicea (7/28/04): This is just like Angel. He can talk about his feelings to everybody else except Buffy. Somehow with her it always ends up with kissing. :)
Nutty99 (9/12/04): how did u come up withthat much tlk. But bangel always ends up with the kissing for u