I OWN NOTHING BUT MY SHORT IDEA
Sherlock Holmes brilliant. In all that he did and all that he was. To John anyways. And he loved that about him. He loved him. And sure he had loved before. But not like this.
It wasn't the love you'd normally think of. It wasn't pretty pastels, flowers, and dreams of kisses at sunset.
No. Not that at all.
It burned through him and froze him at the same time. It made him feel weak but as if he could face any foe to protect the detective. All Sherlock had to do was look at him to make him feel as if he was floating, but somehow grounded by the instense gaze. Physical attraction was a large part of it, also. The raw need for the tall, handsome man made him go almost mad.
And at times he wanted to punch Sherlock for making him feel this strongly (Even if it wasn't his fault) but kiss him because he felt so strongly. He would never do either of those things, though. Not at the moment anyways. Too afraid of the outcomes.
Though sometimes, he thought he might feel something back. Sometimes Sherlock's cold stare flickeredwith some softer emotion while looking at his partner. Or, when they were paticularly close together, he would twitch and abruptly turn away. As if he wanted to reach out and close the distance between them, but was afraid to or unsure how.
Maybe it was all in the doctor's head. Maybe he was oblivious to this type of thing.
Or maybe the brilliant detective he loved so much, felt something back. Not as much as his partner felt for him, but something. And that gave him hope that maybe one day they could be together. It may not be soon- Sherlock had told him when they first met that he was practically married to his work- but that was alright. Just being able to be in his life was enough for now.
It didn't hurt John as much as it would other people. He was strong. A soldier who kept face with his back straight.
He could wait. Wait for Sherlock to realize what was right in front of him.
He could wait for the detective to become his detective.
I'm sorry if it's not very good, it was just a spur of the moment thing I wanted to write. And obviously, not canon.
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