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AN: Takes place shortly after Odo confesses his feelings to Kira.

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I can't believe this!

This has to be some sort of weird dream I'm having, yet I'm pinching myself and I'm still here. I'm pacing back and forth in my quarters and I've done this quite a few times since I was assigned here.

I never thought I would begin to feel like I would belong here, in a Cardassdian space station but I do. But just an hour ago; Odo my good friend of so many years came to me and pretty much yanked the rug out from under me, in a manner of speaking.

"I have feelings for you Nerys; I'm in love with you. I have been for a long time."

I continue to pace. Why am I pacing? I'm a former resistance fighter and I should know what to say, what to do in every situation but this….

Why did it have to happen? Odo was always the one stable force in my life. I don't want to lose him. I flash back to when I first met him. I briefly smile when I thought he was coming on to me.

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I was on Terok Nor to find the list of collaborators but I didn't and I had to kill Vaatrick, Odo convinced Dukat I wasn't the one who did it. After I left I couldn't believe it. I was just with a security officer who knew mercy. Who believed in it?

I stayed on Terok Nor for three more months and I watched him, I flashed back to the day I knew I could trust him, I knew I could like him.

Gul Dukat had grabbed a young woman for no reason, it didn't manner to him if she wasn't guilty but she was going to be taken into custody. Odo had intervened, "What proof do you have?"

Dukat had sneered, "I am the Prefect of this station, why should I explain myself? What do you believe in Odo? We need to keep order."

Odo had stood in front of Dukat unflinching; "I believe only in justice. Allow me to question her."

Dukat of course didn't want to lose face in everyone so he handed her over to Odo. Kira found Lashara hours later, "I told you to be careful."

"I know I messed up."

"You're lucky Odo came along when he did."

Lashara had looked at her, "Since when did you believe in anyone who works for the spoon heads?"

She remembered shrugging, "I just feel like I can believe in him."

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She came back to the present, soon she had gone back to Bajor and the Shakaar cell, later on she enlisted in the Bajoran Militia. But she would hear about Odo and knew she had been right. She wanted to see him again.

Sometimes she had to go to Terok Nor and she would run into him, "How are you?" He would ask.

"As well as can be expected, are you ok Odo?"

"Why wouldn't I be?"

"Don't let the Cardassians turn you into a version of them."

"I would never allow that."

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More years passed and finally the occupation came to an end, by that time she was a Major and found out she was to work with the new federation Captain. She had fought the orders of course, but deep down she looked forward to seeing Odo again.

In fact the first thing she had done when getting on the station was finding him, "I'm glad you're all right Odo."

He had nodded at her; "Likewise major."

"Call me Kira."

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And for five years he had been a constant in her life, he had been there for her and she had tried to do the same for him. He had held her when she wept for Bareil and she had tried to be a good listening companion when Odo struggled with his fact his people were the founders.

She remembered when Vaatrick came back to haunt them, she had been afraid of losing him as her friend, the first true friend who wasn't a Bajoran, that she had allowed herself to trust. For two or three months their interactions with each other had been strained. Then time had allowed them to move on.

I sit down on the couch, I don't want to hurt him, I don't want to lose him from my life, and I don't want to have to deal with this new hurdle. As I think about everything I begin to do something I don't allow myself to do often.

I begin to cry.