Chapter 1

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PLEASE DO NOT READ ME: If you are not at least eighteen years old or older. This story contains profanity, violence and hot kinky wolf loven. So if this offends you stop reading here.

BELLAS POV

Driving in my old truck that I love so much, I was on my way to the reservation to give another tutoring lesson to Jacob Black. Charlie had begged me to do it until I caved in and agreed. When I agreed, I thought he was a person that only needed help with school homework, but I was wrong.

I really didn't remember Jacob from when I use to visit Charlie here when I was little. He says Jacob and I was close; we use to play together. I've tried to find something in common with him but I still haven't been able to connect with him in anyway yet.

The first lesson that I gave Jacob, I must admit, I wasn't exactly on my game either. Completely distracted by his good looks and amazing body. He has the looks of a bronzed god but the personality of someone who need to be the center of attention at times but always has to be in control. He doesn't usually let his guard down to let you see the real him; keeping you an arms link away at all times.

There is something about Jacob that is semblance of darkness, mystery and danger. Almost like a bad boy pop star from a teen magazine. But yet he could play the role of hero in romance novel because he is perfect for the book cover. But of course this is on the outside looking in. Sometimes being on the inside paints a completely different picture.

We had our first argument within ten minutes of the first lesson because I told him the answer he gave me was incorrect. I've never seen someone so head strong and passionate about just answering a question.

The next time I gave Jacob a lesson he was different. He didn't have that glowing look to his face. It was haunting when you looked into his eyes. His eyes were glazed over and had an empty appearance of no emotions. His face looked thinner was drawn. I couldn't understand what changed him so much in a few days.

It took forever for me to get him to open his text book and focus on what he needed to read. He was staring at the pages but I could tell that he was only staring at them, not taking in anything from it.

After an hour of wasting time I finally read it to him and asked him what he thought about the short story that the author had written. He pushed his chair away from the table.

"I need to lie down."

Watching Jacob stumble out of the kitchen and bounce off the hallway as he walked down it. I heard the bed make a creaking sound when oblivious he flopped his body on to it. I followed the hallway and saw him lying on a bed that looked so tiny compared to his body size. When I went to cover him up my hand touched his arm and his body was burning up.

His probation dictates that he must attend a minimum of six hours a week tutoring time. I should have realized that he was sick earlier. If I had known that I would have canceled the lesson and we could have rescheduled it for a later time.

I gathered up all my stuff from the table and signed off on Jacobs tutoring card. I felt that he tried today and that should be acknowledged. I didn't want him to get into trouble for missing an hour and the court revoking his probation.

Knowing that he didn't technically complete the required lesson and that I lied on an official court paper but everyone needs to be cut a break once in a while.

Charlie thinks of Jacob as his own son as close as he is to Billy. It would kill Charlie to see Jacob go to jail. When he was trying to convince me to take this on he told me about the countless hours he has talked to Billy and sat with him trying to figure out how to get Jacob to straighten out his life. Getting him on the narrow path.

Jacob is only seventeen so what he had done to get into trouble was tried as a youth and not an adult. When I asked Charlie what it was Jacob got in trouble for; he said it wasn't important what Jacob had done but that he has learned from his mistake. I think that they are both praying that it is just a rebellious phase that he is going through and it will end soon.

Billy was sitting outside on the porch and I passed him on the way out.

"Bella Is everything okay? You're ending the lesson early."

"Jacob wasn't feeling well so I signed off on his card anyways. Please keep this between us and don't say anything to Charlie about that, it is our little secret."

Billy had tears in his eyes "Thank you for everything that you're doing for Jake. You have no idea how much it means to me and him."

It made me feel good that I was helping out another person to make it through a rough patch in their life. I know I have had my share of bad times and wish that I had someone there to lend a helping hand. There have been times that I would have given anything to have had a shoulder to cry on.

It felt good about helping out Jacob until I showed up for the fifth lesson. He was outside working on his motorcycle when I got there. Seeing him without a shirt on was an inviting sight. Every time his body would move a muscle would force its way to the surface of his glisten brown skin. I could have entertained myself all day with counting all the muscles he has that I really never noticed on a male's body before; if I wasn't in a hurry.

Waiting to get started I stood there watching him. Thinking he would be ready to start his lesson knowing that I was here. If I hadn't had something to do afterwards I wouldn't have minded but I had plans and needed to get the show on the road.

"I'm ready to start and I have somewhere to be after so are you ready?"

His tall built frame stood up and he looked at me with a disgusting look on his face "I can smell what you're going to do after. I'm not getting tutored by someone like you. Believe me there is nothing that you could ever teach me. Leave now and go running to the Cullens. That is where you're going right?"

I stood there with my mouth open and my heart raced slightly at his comment. How could he know that I was going to the Cullens after this? Is it possible that he knows what they are and how in the hell can he smell them? But I dismissed that idea; Charlie must have told Billy that I started seeing Edward Cullen. I just found out myself what they really are. So there is no way that he knows.

"Jacob I just want to give you a lesson and help, that's all. I'm sorry if I upset you by what I said but I have plans after this. You are the one that got into trouble and has to do this, not me. So maybe you can show a little appreciation that I'm giving up my time to help you."

He kind of huffed and threw the wrench he had in his hand at the garage "You have no idea how to help me or know what I need. You stand there looking down your nose to me. Who the fuck do you think you are? Don't judge me; you don't know what I've been through. I'm not the only one that has some repenting to do it looks like. I think we're both hanging out with the wrong crowds. Let me tell you what I think you need."

He was so angry and bitter with the words that came out of his mouth. Jacob was taking large strides to get closer to me but I saw four guys that I didn't know come running up to us. They were restraining Jacob and telling him to shut up. One of them came over and introduced himself.

"Bella I'm Sam, a friend of the Blacks. I think it's best that you leave for the day. Jacob is just having some personal problems right now and I will have him call you to reschedule the lesson."

There had to be more to the story but I left as I was told to.

(****)

This afternoon I was supposed to go with Edward on a date but I wasn't feeling well after dealing with Jacob. I called Edward and asked if he would mind if I canceled our date. I just wanted to stay home and rest. Being the sweetheart that he is of course he understood and was only concerned about me getting better.

Over dinner I casually talked to Charlie about Jacob. Trying to find out everything that I could about him; but Charlie seemed to be guarding some of the answers from me. I wanted to know the good things and the bad. I don't even know why it's important to me but it's almost like I had to do this. I needed to put this to rest with myself and then I could move on from it. I've had Jacob on the brain since I left the reservation today with no explanation as to why.

After I cleaned up the dinner dishes and I was putting the leftovers away there was a knock on the door. Charlie was already snoozing in his chair so I answered it. It was Jacob leaning against the door frame with the most beautiful smile on his face.

"Do you have a minute to talk with me?"

Charlie was a wake now and standing behind me "Hey Jake come on in son."

Jacob came just inside the door and stopped. He seemed a little on the nervous side.

"Actually Charlie I came to talk to Bella. I thought maybe she would like to go for a walk or a ride with me, if that's okay with you? If you want to go Bella, that is? If you don't I'll understand."

Of course that's was okay with Charlie. He loves Jacob but I was hesitant about being alone with him after what happened today. I guess I am safe enough since Charlie knows that I'm leaving with him. Surely Jacob wouldn't do anything to me. I really wanted to get to know who the real Jacob is.

I grabbed my jacket off the couch and told Charlie we wouldn't be gone long. When we walked outside and I saw Jacob's motorcycle.

"I'm not riding on that thing so we'll take my truck."

He laughed "I see that you have no taste in what your ride is but if that makes you feel better then that's fine with me."

It was a surprise to me to find out that Jacob was the one that had rebuilt my truck before Charlie had bought it from Billy. He called it a simpler time in his life and I wasn't sure what he meant by the statement but I knew the feeling.

We decided to go get ice cream of all things. It's not like it wasn't already cold enough for me living here in Forks. Jacob argued with me about buying my ice cream cone. I couldn't understand what the difference was if he bought it or I did. Or why it was so important to him but, I decided to let him get it if that made him happy. After we sat down at the table it was uncomfortable between us. Nothing in common I guess.

"Bella I'm sorry for the way that I behaved today. I haven't even told you how much I appreciated the fact that you have signed off on my card when I was short on lesson times. I came tonight to tell you that and to ask you if you would continue to tutor me? There are times lately that I haven't been myself and I do or say shit that I regret later." I think we've all had a case of I stuck my foot in my mouth and it came back to bite me in the ass later.

"I will continue to tutor you under one condition."

"What is your condition?"

"That we have some honesty between us and get to know each other. When you're having a day like that just tell me. We can always reschedule it for when you can concentrate and get something out of the lesson."

Jacob is very intelligent and when he is really trying I'm sometimes surprised by his answers or his point of view from something that he has read. There have been a couple of times after leaving that I reread what we have talked about and would have missed it if Jacob hadn't pointed it out to me.

"I'm cool with that Bella and you can call me Jake, I prefer it. But there may be times when you won't want to hear my truth." I couldn't argue with that point because I have things that I can't tell him either.

Eating the cone was starting to give me shivers. I went to throw the rest of it away because I couldn't finish it. Jacob snickered.

"I had you pegged for a girl that loves cold things."

"what's that suppose to mean?"

"Oh nothing."

In the parking lot a couple of guys were setting on bikes beside my truck when we came outside. They stood out as outsider in this town by the way they dressed and the lingo they were using. Jacob isn't old enough to be friends with them or has the image to even hang out with a group like that. From the looks of them; they seemed rough, tough and defiantly their attitude matched their appearance. They seemed to know Jacob but he was trying to blow them off for some reason.

"Big J why haven't you been returning our calls? Solomon has a gig for you and man; you know that he doesn't like to wait or be put off. You know the rules. When we need you; you drop whatever shit is going on and get the fucking job done. Who's the little chick? Is she the reason that you've not been on point lately?"

"Bella will you wait for me in the truck?"

I rolled the window down a little so I could try to hear the rest of what they were saying. I couldn't make out the rest of the conversation but heard what Jacob had to say at the end.

"I said I will call Solomon tomorrow and handle my shit. I'll meet him at The Tide. She has nothing to do with it so stay the fuck away from her. Don't you guys ever come here looking for me again that's part of our deal."

The ride back to my house was filled with more silence. When I asked Jacob any questions about those guys or what they wanted; he continued to look out the window and ignored me. I had enough of this shit so I pulled the truck over.

"Jake we just agreed that we would have some honesty between us. Are you in some kind of trouble with those guys?"

Jake never looked at me, kept staring out the window "I'm a big boy and can take care of myself. It's not that I don't want to tell you but it's better and safer for you if you don't know the truth. As far as honesty goes, you have something's that you're hiding and guarding too. We all have a secret and I can't tell you mine. Do you want to tell me about your relationship with the Cullens and you wouldn't be keeping a secret there would you?"

How could he know that I'm protecting the Cullens secret about what they are? Maybe this conversation is best left alone for now. But it will not be forgotten and it will be brought up later, that I can assure Mr. Black.

Jake left as soon as we got back to the house. I reminded him of his lesson tomorrow after I get out of school. It will make up for the one he missed today.

I went upstairs to my room and didn't turn on the light. I grabbed my night clothes off the chair and went to change. After doing my nightly routine of showering and brushing my teeth I went to go lay down. I was exhausted from today and needed a good night's sleep.

But when I came back in and flipped the light switch on I was startled by who I saw sitting on my bed.

"Edward what are you doing here?"

"I came to check on you. You said you weren't feeling well. But I can see that you must be feeling better because you had a night out with Jacob Black."

Edward's words came out with a slight hint of disappointment and doubt that I was really not feeling well. He apparently thinks I was using it as an excuse to cancel my date with him.

After explaining my relationship with Jacob to Edward several times might I add, he forbids me to every see Jacob again. Telling me it's unsafe to be around his kind but no farther explanation was given. I've often been told by my mom and other girls that boyfriends can be a little possessive but this is fucking ridiculous.

"Edward I'm not seeing Jacob in a relationship, I'm helping him. I've given my word to him and Charlie that I would do this so I'm not going back on my word now."

Edward's whole demeanor changed with me after I said I wasn't going to stay away from Jacob. His face expression was one that I hadn't seen before "Goodnight Bella. I think its best that I leave now. You need to ask yourself who is more important in your life me or Jacob?"

Then Edward left by jumping out of my bedroom window before I could even think about answering his question.

(****)

School was horrible and Edward completely ignored me. He only acknowledged me when I would talk to him and then his answers were brief. So I said the hell with it. When he gets over it; we'll talk then. He was not the same Edward that I met a couple of weeks ago.

When I got to Jake's house I was pissed. Billy told me that Jacob didn't come home last night and won't answer his cellphone. He is homed schooled by one the women that live on the reservation and he is going to fail because he doesn't go half the time. I got the number from Billy. I called him but he didn't answer so I left a message.

"You know what Jacob I have had a shitty day. If you weren't going to be here the least you could do was give me a call and let me know that out of courtesy. This is your own problem that you've created so if you don't want to do it; I'm not going to chase after you. So when you're ready give me a call." I slammed my cell shut.

The more I listen to what Billy had to say about what Jacob had been doing the more I fumed. I slung my backpack on my shoulder, picked up Jacobs tutoring card and told Billy good bye. He wanted to know where I was going.

"Jacob is going to have this lesson one way or another. I don't give a shit where I find him; we're having it. Jacob better hope I'm in a better mood when I find his ass too."

Driving down the road I was trying to remember where Jacob was supposed to meet those guys at today because that's going to be my first stop.

Then I realized what I was actually doing.

"I'm chasing Jacob."

I hope that you enjoyed reading me.

My sons name is Jakob and I have always said that I wouldn't or couldn't write a Jacob story.

I was given a personal challenge by someone very near and dear to me to do this. I thought and thought but I had nothing. Until I visited Megs (Mmsimpy09) and saw some of her artwork. Not only did she do the banner for this story but inspired it as well. So a huge thank you goes out to you Megs!

XOXOXO Thanks Megs!