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Rated: G

Summary: After everything Clark has been through, he never thought he would ever see her in a whole new light.

A Whole New Sight

I'm not sure when it really happened. Maybe it was there when we first met, or at least when we first actually met and I was Clark Kent and not a reprogrammed Kal-El? Was it at the prep rally when she had me fall into the water tank? Or could it just had been the other side I saw of her when she was under the influence of a love potion created from red kryptonite?

I'm not sure when it happened, but I do know for sure I never thought it would ever happen.

I have always loved Lana Lang, even since I was a child. She was the girl next door, the girl of my dreams. Though she wasn't my kiss, a title my best friend Chloe can claim, Lana was my first everything. I was sure we would grow old together, even when she discovered my abilities on her own, and I revealed my secret heritage. It seemed that fate had a different plan, and we realized we just were not meant to be.

Even before that, I've had these feelings. I also think they are partial to blame to why Lana and I just couldn't work anymore. Not in a relationship, anyways.

At first it started with constantly thinking about her, though not really in a positive way, more like….doing breathing exercises while imagining what it would be like if she just ran out of air. If that were ever possible. I have grown fond of her as a friend over the years, but that doesn't mean I didn't take pleasure in watching her suffer with Shelby nearby.

Those thoughts started becoming, "what if's?" What if we actually started dating? What would we be like as a couple? I actually had a hard time wrapping my mind around that. After all, Lana was the one for me.

At least I thought so, until one night when I had THE dream.

Why do I call it THE dream and not just a dream? Because, she was in my dream. She's wearing some sort of big red cape, the same one I got as a present for saving that cute actress, but only there was a yellow symbol that looked exactly like the symbol of my Kryptonian heritage. Now that I think about it, it probably was.

Lois was only wearing that cape around her body…..nothing else.

That's when I woke up, terrified as if an army of living kryptonite were attacking me. The more I thought about the dream, the more it actually seemed….well, nice.

That had confirmed my worst fear of all. Well, one of them, anyways.

The dream made it official. Chloe said so herself, but I just didn't want to believe it. I mean, how could I? I thought I knew what I wanted, but I know now I'm wrong. This alone is not even a good thing.

How could I sound so pessimistic about my feelings? Because, this is a boundary that I know she will never want to cross with me. So once again, I'm loving someone from afar. Always from afar.

Yes, that's right. I love her. It's not some high school crush or some summer attraction.

I never knew I would see her in a whole new light. I mean, c'mon! I'm in love with Lois Lane, of all people!!

Fin