" Just don't give up I'm workin it out -Please don't give in,-I won't let you down- It messed me up-need a second to breathe -Just keep coming around -Hey, whataya want from me-Whataya want from me-Whataya want from me?"
So now leaving where I live in Lima, Ohio, off the warm LA sun and to the Palm Woods. You know, I never honestly thought I would come this far. I always had those dreams where I would dance in the dark when a slow song came on and I would say, " Oh yea, I am going to sing this in concert one day." but I never thought that one day it would be possible to actually mean it. I guess I shouldn't jinx it. Let the wind take me where it wants me to go.
Pulling up to the Palm Woods. I felt totally helpless. My knees started to shake. My palms got sweaty. I am pretty sure I had a fever of 102 degrees ! I had a feeling something bad was bound to happen, but I just wasn't quiet sure yet on what it would be. Seeing Mr. Bitters walk through the front door and out towards my Mom, brother, and I , I was stunned that he was an actual person.
" Welcome to the Palm Woods. I am sure you know what to expect. If you watch the show Big Time Rush, then you know most of the rules and what we expect from you and your family. Now if you would just sign your lease, and I will lead you to your home for the next, I don't know, 5 years possibly ?" 5 years….. 5 YEARS ? Really ? Wow, that seemed longer then I imagined.
"And over here is the lobby, obviously. And those are the elevators. Any questions ?" " Yea, is the pool open to me ?" " Mikey!" " Oh God Abby, don't be so uptight." And with those words, he was gone to the pool. How could he say that to me? He knows I am stressed ! " Honey, I am gonna go put the luggage upstairs. And your brother is right, please try to relax and unwind." " Okay mom, sure will." With the kiss on the head, she also disappeared.
Left by myself to think, I took the opportunity of the quiet lobby and started thinking. " Oh it is not. Well of course it is ! Abby Williams ? I haven't seen you since I won that commercial you wanted." All of a sudden, the fake smile that was on my face got a complete take over by an uncontrollable scowl.
" Well cleary someone is still upset. So what are you doing here ? Cleary you haven't made it into the business, am I right ?" I don't need this. Not now. Not with everything going on. On top of finals coming up, my parents getting a divorce, my little brother, and the pressures of being a pop star and living up to my mom's expectations, I don't need this… OR HER !
Well, this her has a name. It's Katie Melvec. If I may state a true fact, .! I ran upstairs as fast as I could. I was so upset I didn't even want to wait for the elevator." Aww, looks like the poor wittle baby is still a sore loser ." I was almost in tears by the time I got to the door. Why does all this happen to me. What am I gonna do ? Where do I go if I can't handle this. I got it !