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A/N: HEY! I noticed I made tons of mistake here in the first chapter. I got really embarrassed and immediately fixed them. Since this is my first fanfiction, I hope you'll cut me some slack. I'll try my best to improve on the future chapters, and I hope you'll enjoy!
Our world, plagued by man-eating bastards,ready to eat anything they fucking see. It started 20 years ago, when an unknown virus, without warning, fucked the world up. I was forced to do many heinous things: killing, massacring, you name it. But i know that I won't have nearly come to the more horrendous things if it weren't for the loss of my daughter. She was my everything, she was my world, she was the center of everything.
An officer shot her when I was asking for help, ''I'm sorry for this'' he told me not even sounding convincing in the least. I tried to dodge with everything I had, but carrying her due to her sprained ankle, made me trip to a slope making us roll over the ground. The officer comes closer to our direction, still pointing his gun at me. ''Please, you don't wanna do this son.'' I told the man with my hands in the air, slowly approaching him. But it was in vain as he was going to shoot me without hesitation, Luckily, my little brother, Tommy shot him in the head saving me.
''Oh no.'' Tommy said with a pained voice. That made me freeze for the barest of seconds, hoping, praying that it is not possible, CANNOT be possible. I turned around the direction Tommy was looking at, with my entire being shaking, trembling, and saw her. I felt my heart, my mind, and my soul die a million times when I saw her petite figure, lying down on the floor with stains of blood on her clothes . ''SARAH!'' I roared her name. ''Sarah baby, you can't do this to me.'' She lets out a pained voice, a pained moan that pierces and destroys my very being, my entire existence. ''I know baby, I know it hurts, but you're gonna be fine.'' I tell her, barely able to put out the words. ''Baby, Sarah baby you can't do this to me understand?'' And in the blink of an eye she went silent. That was the day my heart, my soul died.
Its been months since I've met I first met him, god, have I never met such a grumpy asshole in my life! He complains over EVERY single thing I do! ''Ellie, what'd I say about kicking rocks? I reckon that if you're declaring to the man-eating bastards and people who will gladly have us dead that you're here, I figured it'd be best I'd be on my way!'' He told me barely shouting. ''Alright, alright motherfucker I'll listen.'' i told him quietly screaming. ''Grab your things and lets go, we ain't gonna last here, we gotta keep movin.'' He said while grabbing his pistols and his rifles.
Walking is our daily routine, or more like that's what we ever do, literally. We would wake up early in the morning, scavenge supplies in the abandoned houses and take whatever we would find. If I'm lucky I pick up some books and comics that some I really enjoyed. Those were fun, I really, really enjoyed those, almost to the point where i feel empty after finishing them. ''Umm, so, do you always smuggle things outside of the quarantine zone?'' I asked him. ''Yes.'' He replied. ''Does smuggling kids common for you?'' I asked him, with hints of curiosity in my voice.''No, your a first.'' He told me while scanning through the area.
''Its gettin pretty dark, I know my way around this area, there's a cabin in the forest only a few miles from here.'' He told me pointing towards the direction of where we're headed. I dragged my almost numb feet to the forest, and thank god we reached it. A few fucking miles feels like an eternity. I whispered onto myself, Still dragging my poor foot. 12 hours of walking a day, boy, am I having the time of my life. I added.
I could tell Joel heard me but chose to not say anything. After reaching the doorstep of the cabins, Joel puts his ear to the door, searching for any possible threat inside. I gotta admit, guy's hearing is like a fucking bat, if not more so. ''I don't hear anything, Ellie, lets go.'' He told me, crouching on the floor. We slowly opened the door leading to squeaky noises louder than usual due to lack of maintenance for years. Joel pointed his gun forward and led the way, I followed him with only a knife in my hands cause he refuses to give me damn gun.
''Its clear.'' Joel said after a few minutes of thorough searching. He may be an asshole but i gotta admit, I feel pretty safe around him. For a middle aged man, I'd say he was still pretty built. I'd say he's on his late 30's. Maybe 38,no, 39. Later that night, He and I settled for the day. ''I'll be right back.'' He told me, opening the door and heading downstairs. I followed him, cause I was scared being alone, I know he won't abandon me, but the very idea sent shivers down my very spine, and there he was, taking off his battered, worn out clothes and replaced it with another one he found in the house. It was then that I got a clear view of his his six pack abs, His steel-strong chest, and his iron-like muscles that covered his body, along with uncountable scars. You need only to look at him to see how messed up this world really is. For me though, that just made it look sexy. I could feel butterflies dancing in my stomach and my cheek burning and turning crimson. As quietly as I could, I quickly returned upstairs to avoid the god only knows awkward moment that would've inevitably come if I stayed. Although i'm 100 percent sure he heard me. Nothing gets past Joel. I lied down in the bed and covered my face with my hands. I can't erase the sight of Joel's very edible body in my head, and I feel very hot in between my thighs just thinking of him. I desperately tried to get it out of my head, but couldn't. I wanted him to hold me close and touch me in places. I wanted Joel to claim me as his property.
Ellie, calm down, calm down. I thought to myself desperately trying to calm down but my body says otherwise. I tried to calm myself down before he arrives as to avoid a very awkward situation with him. Strange, I've seen a man's body many times due to the training they did at school back in the quarantine zone but I would never feel anything looking at them. I didn't really care and wasn't interested. I was more into another woman's body. But Joel, seeing his body makes me want to eat him. Is it because its Joel that I'm feeling like this? well, He saved me billions of times during our travel although He was pretty strict at me, but that's because I knew he only wanted to ensure my safety. My heart almost jumped out of my chest when I heard his footsteps, I needed to do something, SOMETHING to distract myself, okay, rainbows? unicorns? A clicker? Even a fucking big momma! ( bloater)
He opens the door with his new set of clothing, My heart beating the fastest its ever beaten. As soon as he opens the door, I pretend to sleep, hoping that he wouldn't notice. Eyes closed, I listened to what he was doing. All my senses were focused on it. ''Ellie, I know it's hard but you gotta try to sleep.'' He told me, after a few minutes, with hints of concern in his voice. Did he misunderstand my actions? Did he think I was having problems due to the things we've done, the people we've killed? ''Mmm hmm, I'll try.'' I told him going with the flow. And to my surprise, He lied down beside me and placed his arms around me. ''It's alright, baby girl. I'm here, I ain't going anywhere.'' He whispers to my ears. Tears unexpectedly escaped my eyes. All the people I've cared for has simply died or abandoned me. Those were the words I never knew I needed. I subconsciously sealed my heart to other people to avoid getting hurt. But with Joel, that is no longer possible. I realize now that I needed him in my life. I felt the safest in his arms. I also know the violence that his arm has done, but I know that it was to keep me safe.
''Joel.'' I called out to him with a soft voice. ''What is it Ellie? you've got to get som-'' He told me but i interrupted him. ''Promise me, promise me that you won't ever leave me.'' I told him, looking at his surprised face. During the first few months of our travel, he was barely answering my questions. I could tell that He was keeping a wall between us. But i knew what that meant, more than anybody. Its the fear of attachment. But as we traveled I notice hints of the wall slightly being broken. Leaving me a small peek what I've gathered, He also lost someone he loved deeply. I think her name was Sarah. I don't know who she was to him because that's only as far I've ever gotten.
The only time when I realized that the wall has completely broken off was 6 WEEKS AGO: When I was held captive in a town. By a man named David. The things he tried to do to me, but luckily, I outsmarted him and killed him before he did anything to me. While he only left me with a few bruises and scars due to our brawl, I feel that he left a huge scar in me emotionally. Because of my anger, even after i killed him I kept swinging the machete that I luckily grabbed while he was busy strangling my neck, to his face. I swung, swung, and swung. My vision was getting dark. I was gonna collapse, but then a familiar voice quickly gave light to the darkness and held me up, to keep me standing. ''Ellie, Ellie, I'ts alright, I'm here now, You're safe.'' He told me with a voice so soft it pierced my mind, saving it in the process.
''Its alright, its alright, I'm so sorry.''He told me squeezing me tightly In his arms. ''We gotta keep movin, Reckon reinforcements are on their way now.'' He told me placing his palm on both sides of my face. ''Alright, I got you. let's go.'' After that, He killed all of the remaining enemies with a shot aimed directly at their heads. With terrifiyingly accurate aim. He left not a single man alive, on our way out. All those that stood in his way, were either shot to the head by a bow, or a gun.
I wake up. It's already morning. I was surprised I didn't get a nightmare. But in moments, I quickly figured out why. With his arms around me I felt the safest. I guess He even scared of all my nightmares. I smiled Very widely at the sight of him asleep. I try to resist the temptation to kiss him, but i couldn't. I gave him a peck on the lips. Realising what i just did, My face immediately turned once again, crimson. ''I hope he didn't notice that.'' I thought to myself. But in reality, since he didn't give any sort of resistance, I was half hoping he noticed it, the other half hoping, he didn't, because that was so nerve wracking and embarassing at the same time.
Moments later he wakes up. My cheeks slowly but surely regaining its original color.