Forbidden To Love.
I wish to someday say I love you.
To a person I really love.
But I might never get that chance.
My heart changes its mind a lot.
I look to the moon and stars for guidance.
They don't speak, I know….
But they're better than nothing.
I can't say I love you to inanimate object.
Did I have a mutation?
Was I born without emotions to share?
I swallow and gather my courage.
This is no game,
I shouldn't play.
People say I have the gift of no suffering.
I can't sweat when I get nervous
I don't blush when embarrassed.
I can't cry when I'm sad.
I can't feel anger.
I can't feel love to have my heart broken.
All I say is,
I don't care.
I can't.
That's the half they don't get.
It's a curse.
I overheat just being nervous.
I can't blush to show emotion
I can't cry, so the lump in my throat hurts.
I can't release anger…
I can't feel love….
To feel lonely.
I can't tell…
Nobody in this world feels the same.
Well I wouldn't know.
I haven't met every single person.
I'm still young.
But I know one day I will die.
Be in the ground
Food for trees and plants.
I'd probably get more love then.
I'm more than I appear.
I'm not heartless…
I'm not tough either…
My kindness is just misunderstood.
I'm very sensitive.
Being mean and heartless hurts.
Most people will not believe me….
But it's true…