We managed to slip away from the media for a little while. Dylan and I have a day off before we have our filming for The Inn 2 in Arxan.
We were hanging out on his apartment. It was the only way we could date under the radar. His manager and my manager would switch cars just so we could meet up.
He was on his second stick of his cigarette when I decided to interrupt his thoughts. He kept messing up his hair so I knew he was frustrated.
"Dy, what's the matter? We already talked about smoking right? It's bad for your health."
"Yue, don't start please. This is my only stress reliever. Don't add to my stress right now." He sighed. But froze when he realized the impact of what he said.
"Well I'm sorry for caring about your health and I'm sorry for being a burden to you." I am also frustrated but I hide it well in moments we are together because I wanted to savor every lingering moments I have with him. So much for pretending. I stood up and made my way to his door, raising the hood up of my jacket for my disguise.
"Yue. Wait. Where are you going?" He stood up as well but stayed rooted on his living room. I walked towards his door.
"Home Dylan. I'm going home." The pressure that our managements was putting on us is getting too much. They keep tabs on our fans and they also are starting to doubt if we really are just buddies. We've been dating for 4 months now ever since we finished filming in London. But both of our managements was keen on keeping us apart. Doing all they can so that our schedule won't even meet.
It started during our promotions for MG. We were supposed to promote our drama as the leading roles but the producers of the show were always instructed to never pair us together. The Phantacity was a stretch though so they kept their hands off of the show. But after that, things started to really change.
It was a surprise to me when my management agreed that I appear on The Inn 2 together with Dylan. I know there's something fishy about it, but I still get the catch. I get to be with him. However, every single time it gets harder.
I already opened his door when he slammed his hand on it and trapped me in it with his body. He hugged me from the back and rested his head on my shoulders.
"Yue, I'm sorry. I didn't mean that. Please. Stay with me." Tears were flowing from my eyes. I couldn't stop it I felt suffocated.
He turned me towards him when I didn't answer and saw me crying.
"Oh Yue, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. Just punch me if you're mad." he hugged me tighter this time.
I punch his chest lightly.
"You terrible jerk!" Punch.
"I really missed you!" Punch.
"I was so excited to see you!" Punch.
"You're frustrated?! Well I am too! But I don't shove it in your face! You idiot!" I kept on crying and punching him.
"Shh. I know. I'm sorry I was so selfish. I missed you too. So bad, Yue. Why would you even hide your frustrations? I told you that you can talk to me about anything right?"
I kept on crying. "I saw you Dy. This relationship and the pressure was taking its toll on you. How can I tell you that when you're already frustrated enough for the both of us?!"
"No. Yue, THEY were taking a toll on me. But this relationship isn't okay? What we have right now, you especially, is the only thing that keeps me from blowing up."
He let go of me but held my hand and pulled me towards the couch.
"You know me Yue. If I don't like the situation where I am in, I speak out my mind. I react immediately. But this time I can't do that. Because I have to protect you now. I can't just do that and have you in the middle of it. I can't bear to see you be in that mess."
He stood up and paced around the room. This was the longest words he spoke to vent out his feelings.
"I just feel so incapable at times. I can't even meet you. And whenever there are issues surrounding the both of us, my fans attacking you, I can't even do anything. So I do the only thing I can to curb that feeling. Damn it, Yue. I smoke."
This time I stood up and hug him from behind. I breathe in his scent to calm me down. Hoping what I'm doing would have the same effect on him.
"It's okay Dy. I'm okay. We're okay. I can handle a little bashers. I'm sorry for putting another pressure on you. I'm jusy worried about you. " I tried to pacify him.
He held my hands, trying hard to even out his breathing.
"I know Yue. I know you can handle it, but I don't want you to handle those things alone. I wanted to be with you during those times. I know it also affects you even if you don't show it."
My arms tighten around him.
"You're with me Dy. Your voice alone when you called me during those times gave me enough strength to just brush it off. We chose this path remember? It's hard but we both decided to enter it, knowing we won't be able to be with each other everytime."
He sighed. He turned around and encircled his arms on me this time.
"I know. We agreed that we're in this together." He placed his chin on the top of my head.
"Is it still worth it for you though, Dy?" I ask slightly doubting our relationship.
He pulled back to look at me closely.
"Do you even have to ask that? Of course you're worth it! I wouldn't even be this worried if you weren't." Lines formed on his forehead. I tiptoed to smooth it out before he suffers from wrinkles at an early age.
"Aiyo, Dy. Relax. I was just asking. Don't wrinkle your forehead like that. The wifi appears you know." I smiled at him.
He smiled cutely. "Tell you what. I won't promise that I'll stop smoking entirely but I will try, okay Yue? I'll try to lessen it as much as I can."
I grinned.
"But.." Great, the smile dropped from my face. I knew there was a catch.
"But?" I asked him.
"There's a condition. Whenever we are together, if I ever have the urge to smoke, I get to kiss you instead. What do you say, Yue?" He raised his eyebrows and smiled playfully at me.
I smiled at him and pinch his cheeks.
"Deal!" I pecked his lips. He smiled wider.
"And if I'm not with you, I will pack and send you my favorite sweets for you to munch on whenever the urge to smoke comes. It won't be easy Dy. I heard you have to keep your mouth busy if you're trying to stop smoking."
He leaned forward and capture my lips in a quick kiss.
I looked at him shocked.
"What? I had the urge to smoke. You were the sweetest treat around." He smirked at me innocently.
Aiyo. This guy will be the death of me. I punched his arm.
"A little warning next time Dy. Be gentle with my heart." I said placing my hand on his chest.