90210: LOOKING BACK

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Thank you to Angel N Darkness for your help in beta reading my first chapter

CHAPTER ONE

Brenda was tired, tired of everyone, even her twin brother, of supporting Dylan and Kelly. They trashed her heart, and no one cared. She was devastated. You would think her brother would care, that he would have some family loyalty. She was his sister, his twin sister after all. She knew him and supported him, no matter what, she always had. Yet when she needed his support, where was he? Supporting them not her. She had lost Dylan, and no one even asked her if she was okay, not one person asked her that. How are you doing? Her friends should have asked her or cared, but they didn't. She suddenly realized that she didn't really have any friends. They were Brandon's friends, not hers.

She had been stashing any money she came across, so she could leave Beverly Hills. She couldn't watch Dylan and Kelly together. It was ripping her heart out of her chest. No one knew she had a job, they thought she was wallowing in her misery, instead she was working to get money together, so she could leave, leave Beverly Hills and her brother, Dylan and her so-called friends behind.

She had gone to Mrs. Teasley and asked to take the final tests early, so she wouldn't have to come and watch Dylan and Kelly together. She told Mrs. Teasley that she was pregnant, and she needed to work to support herself and her baby. She asked Mrs. Teasley if she would please let her take the tests and not tell anyone, not even her parents what she knew. Brenda had gotten a job without anyone knowing about it, except Mrs. Teasley. Since Brenda was 18, Mrs. Teasley agreed, knowing Brenda was hurting. Brenda and Mrs. Teasley came up with a plan. They would, if anyone even asked, that Brenda was volunteering at a local business and since Brenda was 18 they would have to ask her where she was 'volunteering'.

Brandon after a week and a half of not seeing Brenda at school, asked her harshly, "Where are you going all day Brenda, cutting school so you don't have to see Kelly and Dylan together? You are not going to graduate if you keep cutting school. Grow up! Face facts! Dylan doesn't love you, he loves Kelly. He doesn't want or love you anymore. He chose Kelly. He is with her and not you."

"You know something Brandon, where I go and what I do is no concern of yours! I will do whatever I want. It's no business of yours, not anymore. Go back to your friends and leave me alone!" She said almost screaming at him, she walks away from a shocked Brandon.

He could tell she was angry at him. He wondered why? He told her the truth about Kelly and Dylan and her to face facts? She needed to hear it, he figured. What was brothers for, if not to make Brenda see the truth. What did she mean by your friends, like how she said it he didn't understand what she meant. They were their friends, not just his. He shook his head and left for the Peach Pit where he was meeting his friends.

That night Brenda realized that she would have to leave Beverly Hills soon. Sooner than she intended, she knew tonight she would leave. She had enough money together now. She had secretly been working for several weeks part time and now full time for a week and a half. She had a good job and she knew all she had to do was talk to her boss and get her paycheck. She started packing what she needed to take with her and she calmly walked downstairs to talk to her Mom and Dad, once she got off the phone to her boss, who agreed to give her, her whole paycheck even though payday wasn't for another week.

She knew Brandon had left, she had heard the squealing of the tires, she knew he was mad, but just didn't care.

She decided to tell them about her job. She was going to get them to leave the house. She was going to leave Beverly Hills. She would go pick up her check and disappear, so to speak. She wasn't going to tell anyone where she was going. She walked into the kitchen where her Mom was getting ready to put something on for dinner. "Mom and Dad, I know Brandon told you that I haven't been attending school. I have talked to Mrs. Teasley and she agreed that if I took finals now that I could still graduate, so I took the finals and passed. I have a job and that is where I have been going. I would like you to go out to eat, on me. You have always been there for me. I want to treat you to dinner, now that I have the money to. I know you both like buffets and Chinese food, so I thought a Chinese buffet called Lucky Charm. Please, let me do this for you."

"Ok, Brenda, but why don't you come with us?" Jim asked, he had a weird feeling, but he brushed it aside.

"I can't, I'm due at work soon." She takes out two twenty-dollar bills and handed them to her father. It was the least she could do for her parents. It was after all the last thing she could do for them. She was leaving tonight.

Cindy decided to let Brenda do this. She could tell it was important to her. So, Jim and Cindy took the money from Brenda and kissed Brenda and hugged her and left, not knowing when they got home that they would be shocked, that Brenda was gone. They would find a note instead of Brenda, telling them the real reason that she left.

Brenda called a taxi and he carried her luggage to the taxi. Brenda went to her work and got her paycheck and said goodbye to her boss. She had a train to get on that was leaving in an hour. She went to her bank and got the money, closed her account. She put a couple twenty's in her purse. The rest she put in the boots she had on. She had the taxi drive her to the train station. Where she was going to take it across the country to a place they wouldn't be able to find her unless she wanted them to, which she didn't.

She rode a train out of Beverly Hills, knowing they would soon find out and her parents would read the letter and be shocked at what was in it.

She left never looking back to what she left behind or who she left behind. No one had supported her in what she was going through. She didn't feel that there was anyone that she owed a goodbye to, not her parents, who always supported Brandon because he was their favorite, or Brandon himself. She had no one that she needed to say goodbye to not even her ex-boyfriend or 'friends'. No, they had definitely been Brandon's friends and not hers. So, she left it all behind. She looked forward to her new life. One that was not going to have family and friends that would betray her.

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