Guys, Fanfiction didn't let me post a new chapter, and it was kind of crazy, so I had to delete the story to do it all again.
I have read a lot of this stories, so I thought I could give it a try and see where this story goes.
You knew you were different since the moment you gain conscience, you just saw how your mom used to tell you 'no' to have sleepovers, or to go with your friends to the beach.
That was when you were eleven, you actually knew why, but you understood better when you hit puberty.
Emily has been your best friend since you moved to California five years ago, she has been with you through thick and thin, especially since you both started high school four years ago. The news of your extra appendage started exactly when you were the last one, always, to take a shower in the locker room, and it wasn't anyone, but your girl crush the one to extend the rumor around school.
And after that, it was chaos for a couple of months, but Emily has been by your side through all of that, she defended you with all claws and teeth, and you could not being more grateful for it.
Even if your best friend had a lot of questions, she didn't stop her support, so after she found out, she came to you,not to ask personal things, but she asked you, why you didn't tell her something as normal as that. You see, Emily was and is such an open minded person, that she already knew that some people born intersex, that's why she didn't asked anything else.
a year has happened since that incident, and women started to approach you, you can count that at least, half of the school has come to you. You don't know if they are attracted to what's under your pants, of it is just curiosity to see you, but after hold in it for a couple of months, you just gave up. You're a girl, a teenage girl. Your hormones were going crazy, and one minute you were resisting the women charms and the next one you were in bed with them. Your first time was a little awkward, obviously, you were new in that aspect. But after a couple of times you got better, so much that the girls passed the words trough the school, you didn't like the attention of the boys that you were receiving, mostly because all of that attention were angry, envy and spites looks.
You never were ashamed of who you were and are, you hate it at first, because you were hiding it, but now, everyone knows, so now you relaxed.
I mean, even if you thought things were going to get extremely bad, they didn't. You got girls, you get laid, you have parents that loves you, and a best friend who has your back and you have hers, and that extra appendage hasn't stop you for joining the swimming team at your high school, so you can say. Live is good.
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Summer 2015. Friday
"How are you and Andrea doing?". Emily asks as she changes the channels from the tv in you room.
You both have this tradition that every Friday you go for a run and then come to one of each other's house to hang out and to sleep in. This time it was Emily's turn to stay at your house, you were both lying in your bed after you and Emily took a shower to take the sweat off of that run.
Running a hand trough you hair, you sigh, you didn't want to talk about Andrea, you just meet the girl a couple of weeks ago and she has starting to get clingy, and you had tried to get into a relationship, but something is off, you always find something on every girl to just ditch her, and this time it wasn't the exception.
"Horrible, she's so…ugh, so suffocating". You explain throwing your hands in the air. Hearing a chuckle at your side, you know that Emily is laughing at your frustration. " Ugh… see?". You say lifting you phone, when started to vibrate in your hand, and when Emily sees 'Andrea' flashing in your phone she just shook her head with a mocking smile.
"How many times has she called you since we got together this afternoon?". Emily asks you as you pressed the red button on your phone rejecting the call from the girl.
" I don't know, like 20 times". You say, while you turn off your phone and then throwing it to the end of the bed.
"Woow, Paige, she's not a stalker at all". Your best friend says sarcastically, turning the tv off, and accommodating in the bed, turning her attention to you while adopting her posture in Indian style.
" I don't know what you see in her anyways. She's good looking, got to give her that, but me and the girls told you that she was lunatic".
"She…put out". You say slowly.
" God, Paige". She put a disgusted expression raising her hand to hit you in you arm. " You're like this horny teenager, can you like think with your head, like with the upper one I meant".
" Sorry, Can't do. I like sex. Is fun, and exciting and so, so….".
" Okay, I get it. But really is it thaaat much fun and exciting for you to just keep it in your pants for like, a couple of months?". Emily asks curiously.
"I could, but I don't want to. I'm just having fun and I take care of myself, I always use condoms, I can be horny but not stupid, Em. What it's all with this questions anyway?". You asks curiously and then realization came to you,and you open a little bit more your eyes and mouth, letting out a gasp, and Emily just looks at you like you've grown two heads.
" Is Emily trying to drag information because she wants to have sex?, are you finally letting someone pop your cherry?". And there it was, your suspicions were right, when you saw Emily's face turn into a tomato.
"You really sound like a boy sometimes, you know. Can you be more vulgar?. I still don't get why am I still your friend". She says trying to avoid the subject.
" Oh come on, Em. Okay, we are going to get serious on this matter".
"That's more like it".
" Sorry, I know I'm an ass sometimes".
"It's okay". She says sweetly when she saw your genuine face of remorse.
"First of all. I want YOU to tell me, what is that you are thinking about". You say, copying Emily's posture on the bed, letting you be face to face with Emily.
" I…I've been, you know…like".
" Oh, come on, Em. It's a sex talk, nothing to be ashamed about". You say, trying to reassure your friend, that this is normal, that everyone talks about it.
" It's embarrassing for me, ok?. This is exactly why I haven't left anyone get to second base all this time". You still cannot understand how someone as open minded as Emily gets shy and nervous all of the sudden when sex is throw at her way.
"What about your mom?, You told me that she gave you the talk, right?".
"Yeah, she did. It was so awkward, and when I started to get comfortable with the subject she brought you in it. Like,if you and I would have sex or something, once she found out about your little friend, she was all about, be safe and blabla".
"I understood, she thought that we were more than friends once upon a time, but hey!, my friend is anything but little". You say trying to light up the mood, and when Emily chuckles a little, you turn your face to a serious expression once again. "What is stopping you to go there?".
" I don't know. What if I'm not good enough, or what if I messed up, or if I don't do it like they want to, or more important. What if I don't like it". She says looking to a blank spot on your bedroom's wall.
" Em….Em". You call for her attention, and once you have it, you take her hand, trying to sound secure of yourself, because you know your friend is frustrated, you know it, because she has both of her eyebrows pinched together, and her mouth is slightly open.
" I thought about it too, I know the feeling, is like you are there and you don't want to do anything to messed it up, because it is something you want to remember as a good thing. A first time is memorable, and even if mine was with a random girl, doesn't mean yours have to be the same. Don't get ahead of yourself, okay?. Not because Hanna or Aria or Spencer and I aren't vigins anymore, it means that you don't have to be one too. Just…I hope that's not one of the reasons of why you are so frustrated with this".
" It's not, I was with Ben for a year and a half, and I thought I was going to…you know, but then I freaked out, and then Maya, and I freaked out again, and now with Shane, I…".
" I never liked anyone of your boyfriends and girlfriends".
" I know, you always say to me that they're all some huge douchebags".
" Because they are. No one is ever, ever, going to be enough for you. You deserve the best".
" Aaaw, Paige. You're sisterly side is showing off".
"Shut up….Back on the subject, is Shane, pressuring you or something?".
" No, no. He's been the perfect gentleman, but I know is upsetting him. We've been you know, trying and I just stop him in the middle of it, because I get too nervous to try something, and he says he understand, but I can see how frustrated he's left when I go to my house".
" Well, that speaks highly of him. I'm going to be honest. I get both sides. I mean, if you're not ready, then you're not. Just, don't lead him on, I know the term blue balled, and Em, I think he's going to explode anytime soon if you keep doing that".
" Yeah". Emily says disappointed in herself.
" If you want to, just let yourself go, but most importantly I just hope you are doing it with someone you're in love with. And remember, use protection".
" What are you, a commercial?". Her best friend jokes. Adjusting her body, she got to your side, and cuddles into you, so you move your body to lie down, letting Emily fit her head between the crook of your neck. "Thanks, Paige".
"Anytime ,babe". You say, giving her a kiss in the forehead and turning the tv on, deciding on watching an episode of the walking dead.
"So, as you guys know, we have a month left to enjoy the summer".
"Spencer can you just please tell us where this is going". Hanna says, rubbing her temples.
"Where is the mystery then?, darn. Fine, as I was saying, I want to know if you guys can go to New York, I have a friend there who can help us with the stay".
"What?. Spencer you're crazy, were do you think we're going to get the money to even go there".
"Actually. Paige and I had it all figure out, Em".Spencer says.
You look at your side to see the questioning look on your best friend's face.
"Spencer and I, are going to pay for you and Hanna's plane ticket". You say enthusiastically.
"Wha….Paige, why didn't you told me before?". Emily asks you with an unsure tone of voice.
You don't know if she's upset or if she's surprised or excited or something, you hate when she use that tone, even if you know her better than you know yourself, that tone always sets you off.
" I… I thought you were going to be excited. Aria can't come, so it would be the four of us. Besides, Em, you know Spencer and I can afford both tickets with no problem, also it has been your dream city to visit since you were a kid, and this could be the last summer we all get to spend together". You ended saying, breaking in to a smile when you see the shine in Emily's eyes. There it is, you think, that excited look in your best friend's eyes that you love. But something was in there too.
" I'll pay you back if I get a part-time job when we get back". Yep, that was it. She knew Emily, she knew she was going to accept, but not without giving something in exchange.
" But Emi….".
" No buts, I'll pay you back. Deal?". She says, arching an eyebrow.
" Fine". You say giving up.
" Oh my god. Spence, I could kiss you right now". Hanna says, hugging her friend.
"No, Hanna, jeez, I can't breathe". Spencer says, trying to pull Hanna off of her.
"You're not fun". Hanna says getting back in her seat. " So, when do we go?".
"Two days". Spencer answers.
"What about our moms?, I haven't told mine, not even my dad. What if they don't let…".
"Em, babe. Relax, I already talked to Pam, and she talked to your dad too, so both of them are okay with you going".
" I really love you, Paigy". Emily says hugging Paige.
"Please, don't call me that". You say rolling your eyes and hugging back. " But I love you too".
" So, it's done. I have to go home, Toby is going to visit her grandma in Arizona, so I'll go to say goodbye".
"Woooo, you go Spence". You jock.
"shut up". Spencer says to you, faking annoyance but smirking at the same time.
"Want to order Pizza?". You asks. Your parents were at a charity event somewhere in the neighborhood, so you were alone with both of your friends.
" Actually I can't. Now that I know we're going to New York I got to pack already. I mean, it's an entire month". Hanna says, standing up and kissing you and Emily goodbye.
"So, Pizza?". You ask to Emily.
"Sure". She smiles at you, while you walk to the phone.
"Paige?". Emily talks to you while you dial the pizza's number.
"Mmmh?".
" I know this is weird, but. Can you show me some things".
"What kind of things?". You asks distracted.
"About sex". She says in almost a whisper, but you still hear it and it got you by surprise, that you almost drop the phone from your hand. Looking at her you saw that she was fidgeting in her seat, so every single joke you had in the tip of your tongue got throw out of the window.
"Em…"
" I really want to do it Paige, I'm ready, I'm just insecure and I need a little help".
"Okay". You say hanging out the phone when a 'hello' was said from the other line. You walk to stand in front of Emily and dropping to your knees you got in the same height as Emily. "What do you want to know?". You say, tapping Emily's knees with both of your hands al letting them rest in there.
"I want you to make me feel secure".
"I don't really know how to do that. I mean, that goes on you, you have to be confident, Em".
" I know, I'm kind of insecure, because I think I'm going to be doing clumsy movements, I want you to show me how can I be comfortable but sexy".
"Well, you are sexy".
"You're just saying that because you're my best friend, Paige".
"No, I'm not". You defend yourself. Truth is, that the first time you meet Emily you thought that she was the most beautiful girl in the world, and you saw the most sexy smile ever in the brunette face but when you both started to hang out that little crush went away. " Ugh, okay I'll help you. What is that exactly you want to know".
"Poses".
You open your eyes like plates, but then you saw the insecure look in Emily's face that you turn your expression to one of real interest in what Emily was asking to you.
" Fine, but, Em. I really don't see how to help you without really showing you, you know what I mean, right?. You asks.
"I know, and I trust you so that won't be a problem. Paige, I really want to learn, I want to feel comfortable in my skin and in what am I doing".
" Good, that's good. I….um. Okay, where does you and Shane always starts with this…things".
" In his car".
"Well, I'm not taking you to a car to show you, so, um…..Okay, let's just use the couch, okay?".You say standing up to take a seat in the couch.
"Okay".
"You've never watched porn?, that can help you a lot know?".
" I've tried to watch those movies, but I just feel so out of my comfort zone, that I turn it off five minutes into it, and watching and practicing live, it's different, but if it is too much, Paige. I understand". She says ashamed of what she asks.
"No, it's okay. Who better than your best friend to help with things like this". You say, smiling to your nervous wreck of a friend. "How do you and Shane heat things up".
" Well, obviously kissing, and then he put the lever of the seat ,so I….you know I fall and he…".
"He ends on top of you". You finish for her.
" Okay, we'll try. Can I?". You say motioning for Emily to let you push her to fall on her back against the couch, and when Emily nod, you gently push her backwards until Emily's back was in the seats of the couch as you hovers on top of her. Not letting your bodies touch yet, you say. " Show me". And it was all you need to say for Emily to separate her legs just a tiny bit for your right leg to fit in between, as she lowers you to finally let your bodies get in touch.
"What else?". You asks, keeping your distance with you face, to not get the girl uncomfortable.
"He likes to touch my stomach inside my shirt, but I'm not letting you do that, I just. Don't you think this is weird?".
"What?, the pose or what are we doing?".
"Both".
"Not really, I'm just helping you. No offense babe, but even if you are beyond beautiful I will never try to do something with you".
"Same, you're my best friend, I just trust you to death".
"Me too". You say, pausing every little talk that you were having to look at her,she really is gorgeous and she has a big heart, Shane is a lucky guy. " So, this is a pose we all do when things starts to heat up it's the most common, but after a while things can get too hot to be in the same position, so for both of you it would be awesome if you let him do this". You say touching with your right knee on Emily's tigh for the girl to take the hint, and when Emily got it, the brunette separates both legs more than they were a second ago, letting Paige to fall between them. You weren't sure if you heard a gasp from the girl beneath you, but you just let it pass.
"So?". She asks.
"Well, I'm not going to do it, cause that would be plain weird, but he's going to start to dry humping you, and you'll start to feel something". You stop talking hearing a giggle coming out from Emily's mouth. " You know what I mean". You say faking annoyance. "That should get you more in the mood, you know". You say stepping away from Emily, to take a seat in the couch, supporting your back in the backrest of it, turning your face to look at your friend, who was already sitting up. " Okay, come here" You say, grabbing Emily's wrist to pull her up, and then motioning for her to straddle you.
With a slowly pace Emily falls against you lap and when you realized that you were face to face with Emily's cleavage you rise your head to look at your best friends eyes.
" This is another one you should try, it would be more comfortable for you, cause, even if Shane can try to guide your movements against him, you have the upper hand. In this position you are in control, so you can take your time to do what you want to".
"Well, that's the thing, I don't know if I can move".
" Then let him guide you". You say, putting both of your hands in Emily's hips, guiding her down, and this time you heard a gasp, and when you look back at your friend, you realized that without noticing, you were practically with a half hard on, and this time, your face is the one looking like a tomato, not only you got a semi erection doing this, but Emily felt it, and you could not be more ashamed about it.
"Shit, Em". You say, turning more red as you saw the mocking smirk in your best friends face.
And before you could keep apologizing you both heard the front door opening. Both of you move too fast, that Emily jumped to the end of the couch, while you did the same and unconsciously you took a cushion from the couch guiding it straight to your crotch.
" Hi girls". Your mom entered the living room with your dad following behind.
"Hi miss McCullers". Emily says, with a glimpse of playfulness in her eyes. I didn't even do it on purpose, fucking hormones. You scold yourself.
"You okay there sweetheart?, you're looking a little flushed". You're mom says.
" I'm fine". You say.
" It's just hot in here". You hear Emily say, and you know she's mocking you in front of your mom, so the only thing you can do is looking back at her with a look that only can be seen as one of, ' I'm getting you back for this'. " Summer and all". Your friend ended saying.
" Well, I brought soda, so I'll let them in the kitchen for you guys to have a drink and please babe. Use a damn glass, you know I hate it when you drink from the can or bottle".
"Yeah, yeah". You say in annoyance. Looking back one last time to you giggling friend.
If you guys can tell me if I should continue this, it would be awesome, till next time.