Disclaimer - As much as i wish i owned twilight and all the characters i do not. All copyright to the amazing Stephanie Meyer.
Authors Note - by the way, this is in Edward's point of view, it starts about half way through New moon, Before Bella went cliff diving. Please Post a review, i like constructive criticism, tell me what you like and what you don't like ECT!
I threw myself through the second story open window. My first through was- why was she keeping the window open when it was winter in forks?
That thought didn't last for long though, as soon as I saw here serine, sleeping face poking out from underneath the blanket, all thoughts I ever had left me. All I wanted to do was rush up to her and kiss her with all the heat and intensity I could manage. I shook my head, no way was I going to do that. I dared another step closer to her, then another and as soon as I new it I was standing over her, looking down at her pained and troubled face. That face I longed for, that face I saw in my mind every day and every night. I was here, I was with her, watching her sleep. My throat burned with the thirst for her blood, being away from her for so long had not done my self control justice. I walked to the rocking chair and sat down. Why was I here? I shouldn't be here, but I the pain just got too much, I had to see her. The only thing keeping me from running and staying with her for ever is the fact that I knew that what I was doing was to protect her. She didn't have to know that I'm not strong enough to be away from her.
I watched her sleeping, she grew more and more restless as the night progressed.
What in the world was I doing here? I aked myself suddenly, im supposed to be forgetting about her, being here would only make being away from her harder. I bounded to the window, I had to leave. I positioned myself on the window frame, readying myself to jump but then I heard her, I heard the voice that was all I lived for.
"Edward." Bella spoke my name softly. That was all I needed to hear, I flew back into the rocking chair. She still though about me? My heart filled with bliss and then was quickly replaced with remorce, she shoudn't be thinking about me, it was wrong.
"Edward!" Bella cried. "No Edward please. Don't do this Edward! Don't leave me."
I stopped breathing, she was crying, crying for me, what had I done to her? This was supposed to be helping her! Suddenly I loathed myself, I was causing her pain. I am a bad person, only a terrible person could cause such a fragile human being pain.
"Edward!" She cried in an agonized voice. Suddenly an ear piercing scream erupted from her lips, she shot straight up. I flew to her closet as to not be seen. She flicked her bedside lamp on and ran her fingers through her messy hair. Before I had a chance to react she put her head in her hands and started sobbing. Sobbing harder then I had ever seen a human cry. She rapped her arms around herself, like she was trying to keep herself together, keep herself from breaking apart. If only she knew that I was already broken, nobody could fix me anymore. I shrunk down to the bottem of her closet and started to cry tearlessly. How could I have caused her this much pain? I hated myself.