Okay I don't know what happened to me but eversince I started posting my fics here I became this huge Brooke fan. Or I just get inspiration for fics about her. I might even write a BL fic eek. So here's another Brooke centered oneshot for you. I always thought this song fitted Brooke. It just takes you through Brooke's whole journey beginning S4. Song is Rewind by Paramore.
Don't
come looking for me
Cause I'll be right here with the words you
said
I'm looking for the words to say
You know what you did,
you know
How can anybody forget the promise that you made?
Cause
this is how the promise breaks
I always knew you'd fall
through
And now you're proof
And here I stand in front of the black door which behind lives my boyfriend for 6 months now. And I'm about to break up with him. The black door is always a reminder of the mistakes I made, which almost got me to loose him. But he forgave me for that, only to throw it back in my face today. I thought I lost him when he told me about the kiss, but when he said that it made me realize I lost him way before that.
I'm not even sure if I ever really had him. His heart, I mean.
And I guess I was just waiting for him to get back together with Peyton. Or at least try too. He promised me that he wouldn't hurt me this time but he did, and I saw it coming.
I sigh one last time, and open the door to his room. Only to find Peyton there too..
Rewind
to the first time
And I felt it coming
I knew it would go
there
Rewind to the first time
And I felt it coming
Make it
quick, make it painless
Don't tell me lies
Just say goodbye
And there I stand. Watching him. And her. The whore. She shouldn't be there. She should've known I wouldn't show up for her. It was MY birthday. Not one of theirs. Arm in arm they walk to her car.
I make a picture. To look at when I ever think I can be friends with her again. Because this must be proof that I can't.
And
now you're running from me
So cool, so scared of what you might
have said
And no one's ever looked away
Cause we know what you
did, we know
If I told anybody, then we would soon forget your
name
And you would never have a place
I always knew you'd fall
through
And now you're proof
"I'm not the guy for you Brooke Davis" those words still ring in my head. I haven't seen or talked to him since. I think he's avoiding me and I'm avoiding him. I told him to fight for me. And now he still didn't get what fighting for really meant.
Rewind
to the first time
And I felt it coming
I knew it would go
there
Rewind to the first time
And I felt it coming
Make it
quick, make it painless
Don't tell me lies
Just say goodbye
We weren't meant to be. I know that, even though he agreed to be my date tonight. Even though tonight was supposed to be our reunion. He thinks he loves me. I see that in his eyes. But he doesn't know that I also see the glances he gives to her when he thinks I'm not looking. He loves her more then he'll ever love me.
And I have to let him go.