All three of these shots are dedicated to Sadisticdarkstar who requested them.

Legal: I own nothing but the idea

Things to know before reading:

*This story begins in September of Clare's grade 11 year

*Drew never dated Bianca but did date Alli

*Clare dated Eli and then Jake but she and Jake broke up last year at prom and never got back together they are now stepsiblings

*Clare and Eli are friends again

*This is all in Clare's pov

I Want to but We Shouldn't

"Hi Drew I'm supposed to be meeting Adam," I remark somewhat uncomfortably as I walk into the Torres basement and find only Drew sitting down here.

"He's in the shower, take a seat he won't be too long," Drew says. He was watching a show or movie but paused it when I came in. I sit down and Drew presses play, I watch for a couple of scenes and then a topless woman is on the screen.

"Must you watch this?" I complain.

"I was watching it before you came in, it's not my fault you're early," Drew shrugs.

"This movie doesn't seem to have any content besides half-naked girls and a bunch of guys with the brain cells of an amoeba."

"Well we can't all be super-geniuses like you," Drew shoots back.

"If I were a super-genius I'd be in university already and I wouldn't have to put up with moronic high school boys like you," I quip leaning toward him and he leans toward me to shoot back a reply.

"And if you were at university there'd be one less mouthy know-it-all girl at DeGrassi."

We're very close now, our lips are very close, I can feel his breath and despite the fact that he drives me nuts I have the strongest urge to kiss him right now. He must have the same urge because Drew begins to lean in just a little more, I lean a little closer and I feel the heat of his lips on mine. Our lips barely touch, hardly even brushing together and then the door to the basement opens. It occurs to me that I'm about to kiss Drew and not only that but probably be caught by Adam doing so. I move away from him and leap over the back of the sofa in a surprisingly graceful and athletic move, standing perfectly upright when Adam comes down the stairs. Adam looks at me and grins, Drew is looking at me with a bit of amazement for the move I just made, pretty amazed by it myself.

"Hey Clare, have you been waiting long?"

"Nope just got here you ready to go?"

Adam nods, says goodbye to his brother and I walk out without even looking back at Drew. I don't think of Drew or our near-kiss for the rest of the day. When I see him at school the next day however it's all I can think about. I do all that I can to avoid him, not that Drew and I have ever had that much interaction on school grounds not even when he was dating Alli but today I won't even go down a hall where I see him standing. When school is out however I run into him, literally I mean as I'm running down the hall and he and he and I collide at a corner.

"Too busy flirting with every girl in the school to watch where you're going?" I snap at him as I untangle myself from him to stand up.

"Not every girl I wouldn't flirt with you," he shoots back.

"If you even tried I'd slap you across the face," I comment.

"That's not what it looked like yesterday," Drew remarks with a grin as he takes my arm and helps me stand up.

"Yesterday was a fluke, you had me so angry I couldn't think," I reply pulling my arm away from him. We're close again, very close and I have the urge to kiss him again. How powerful the urge is scares me and I take off running.

Drew is on my mind the rest of the evening both because I'm thinking about how very much he aggravates me and because I'm afraid of how badly I want to kiss him. This goes on for days, we avoid each other at all costs and when we do run into each other we argue. Then on Friday I'm in the library looking for a book and Drew's in the same aisle as me.

"I thought you would have had all your homework done for the week on Monday," he teases.

"I have a life you know," I retort without looking at him but I do find my book. It's on the top shelf and I stretch for it standing on my tiptoes. I can still barely touch the spine of the book but Drew reaches up and takes the book down handing it to me. "I could have gotten it," I reply taking the book.

"You couldn't even reach it. How about thank you for getting my book Drew," he responds with a slightly miffed voice.

I don't know why I pick this particular moment to do so but I go back on my tiptoes and holding the book still I put my arm around his neck smashing my lips to his. Drew's hands are instantly on my waist; he turns me and pushes me against the bookshelf gently. My other hand grips his shoulder as his tongue licks across my bottom lip and my mouth opens for him. His tongue slips in, one of his hands moves to the small of my back and he presses me to him. No longer bantering with words our tongues fight for dominance, tangling together and struggling against each other while at the same time connecting and caressing. The longer we kiss the more heat is generated by our bodies, the more heat the more I find myself turned on and I know he's turned on because I can feel the bulge in his jeans growing. My hand not holding the book moves off Drew's shoulder and brushes down his chest. I grip his shirt and pull it up, my fingers hook into the waistband of his jeans. I release an excited breath as I feel the waistband of his boxers and his warm skin and he elicits a sort of wanting whimper. My lower stomach muscles tighten and my legs close together as a tickle builds between them.

Suddenly I hear the other sounds in library and I realize what I'm doing. What I'm about to do in the library with Drew and what's very scary is I want to do this in library with Drew. I break the kiss and push him away turning and walking quickly to the desk putting the book down to check it out.

"Clare," Drew says coming up to me but I ignore him and grab my book racing out of the library. "Clare," he says again but I speed up. "Clare stop," he asserts in a commanding tone as he grabs my hand then pulls me into an empty classroom locking the door.

"Let me out Drew," I demand.

"No I know what you were feeling in that library I was feeling it too and you initiated the kiss in there. You had your fingers down my pants before you got scared and ran away. I wanted it too Clare, I wanted to take you right there in library and I didn't care who was watching. Ever since we were in my basement and we nearly kissed all I've wanted to do is be with you, kiss you and hold you. I know you feel the same but you've been avoiding me like I'm a leper."

"We can't be together Drew," I argue crossing my arms.

"Why not? Because I used to date Alli? Because you're Adam's best friend?"

"Yes all those and more, we just can't."

"I think you're just scared. I think you're frightened to admit that you like me because I'm not your usual type. I'm not book smart, I like sports and girls but I challenge you and I make you hot. And you control me, you stand up to me and most girls don't do that. Alli's dating Dave now she no longer cares about me. We can talk to Adam he'll understand as long as we're happy. There is no reason for us not to be together other than your fear."

"We would be a terrible couple Drew we have nothing in common being hot for each other does not make a relationship."

"Maybe not but it's a start," he replies taking my hand and pulling me to him.

His arm goes around my lower back and his other hand presses to the back of my neck bringing our lips together. I gasp and it hitches in my throat, my lips part for him instantly, my nails combing along the back of his neck. He pushes me against the teacher's desk, his hands under my ass he lifts me up and sets me on it. My legs open and his fingers brush along my inner thigh, I make a trembling moan and my body shakes a little. I grip his shirt tightly and pull him toward me I want him to touch me. It's like a fire has been burning inside me since that moment in the Torres basement and Drew's the only one who can douse it.

He seems to know this or he has the same fire as he breaks the kiss to get his shirt off. I grip his pants ripping the zipper open and he grins. Before I can pull them down he goes down on his knees and pulls my panties down dropping them to the floor. He pulls me forward on the desk and I grip into his hair just as his tongue burrows into my hole. I squeal slightly and squirm on the desk, his tongue slips around caressing my inner flesh and I bite my lip to repress the moan trying to break from my throat. The more I squirm the more his tongue slides around inside of me, it seems to move at such a rapid pace I could almost swear he's part snake. I lean back on the teacher's desk and cover my mouth with my hand otherwise I'll make a loud orgasmic scream and people will try to come in the room.

"I don't have a condom," Drew says as he takes me off the desk.

"I've been on birth control since I was thirteen," I respond as he pulls me toward the teacher's chair.

"Thirteen? Why the hell ha…never mind tell me later," he says pulling down his pants and boxers as he sits in the chair. "Have you ever..."

"Once and I know you're a virgin Adam told me," I reply.

"With Eli? Wait no I don't want to know," he says as I climb onto him.

I put my knees alongside his legs on the chair and he lifts my skirt. He's so hard he's standing at attention and I slowly lower myself onto him. I bite my lip and lull my head back as I take him inside me. I grip his shoulders and lower myself slowly, inch by inch as my body adjusts. Drew lifts my shirt up and my bra exposing my breast and trailing open mouth kisses around my bosom. After a moment my body yearns to feel more of him and my body begins moving along him. Drew grabs my waist and I move slowly for a moment before I ride him fast and hard bringing us both to orgasm. He muffles his climatic cry on my breast and I muffle mine against his neck. I slow down and then my body goes still as I lay my head on his shoulder.

"We'd better get dressed there will be a class in here soon," Drew comments lifting me off him and onto the desk. I fix my bra and shirt while Drew stands up and fixes his jeans and boxers. "So was it Eli?" Drew questions as he looks for his shirt.

"No it was over the summer, Mom put me off on Dad so she could plan the wedding and Dad shipped me to his parents so I wasn't imposing on his girlfriend. That's all I want to say on it," I reply looking for my panties while he gets his shirt on.

"And you've been on birth control since thirteen because?"

"My sister got raped and her boyfriend put me on birth control to keep me from getting pregnant if I ever got raped. You know Spinner he runs The Dot. What happened to my panties?"

"I dropped them near the desk," Drew replies coming over to help me look. We don't see them even after he turns on the light and then someone tries to open the door. "We need to go," he insists taking my hand and pulling me to the door.

"I'm not wearing any panties."

"You don't want to be caught in the classroom looking for them," he says just as the door opens and Mr. Perino comes in.

"What are you two doing in here?"

"Uh planning Adam's birthday," Drew replies and I snort back a laugh as we leave the classroom.

"I do not want to sit in writer's craft without panties," I comment.

"Why not it will be hot and I'll take you home right after school and make you orgasm again. Or we could just find another empty classroom," Drew suggests wiggling his eyebrows. I stop walking and push him against the lockers.

"Behave or I'll take your boxers."

"That sounds sexy too. No one knows you're not wearing anything under that skirt just keep your legs closed."

"You're not helping and you know Eli and Adam are in that class with me. Also we can't go to my house after school Jake will be home."

"Okay well let's go to your house and get you panties and then we'll go to mine and talk to Adam. We probably shouldn't lead with the fact that we had sex in the school."

"Yeah we probably shouldn't tell anyone about that."

"But we'll tell people that we're dating."

"Who said we were dating?"

Drew stops walking and goes down on his knees in the middle of the hallway which attracts quite a bit of attention as the bell rings and the classrooms empty.

"I can smell you're pussy," Drew salivates licking his lips, "you think I'd get expelled for eating you out here in the hallway?"

"Drew get off your knees," I command slapping his shoulder.

"Will you go out with me?" He questions moving forward on his knees and gripping my waist as he inhales deeply taking my scent into his lungs.

"Yes I'll go out with you now get off your knees."

Drew smiles standing up and leans me against the lockers abducting my lips as I put my arms around his neck.

"Ahem," Adam clears his throat and we break the kiss to look at him, "is there something you two want to tell me?"