A/N: I was listening to Les Mis songs and I realized how Eponine's love for Marius is just like Mrs. Lovett's love for Barker/Todd. Set before he was shipped off. The words relate to the stanza below it. Plz review and tell me what you think. I own nothing
As night drew closer and closer the streets of London darkened all were asleep except for one baker standing in the street. She walked as everyone else slept. Everyone had someone to hold and she would hug herself on the darkness. If the air was chilly the thought of him would warm her up, and if she was sad the picture of his face would make her smile. The one man she loved was already married, except for on these moonlit nights.
Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleepingI
think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keepingT
he city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head.
She had no family, no one to turn to except for him. On these moonlit nights she would come up with ways to confess her love for him, and how he would return her love with a warm embrace and a tender kiss. She would wonder the streets not knowing where she was going. On these nights she would picture his face, and how as long as she had him, she would never be lost.
On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone, I walk with him till morning
Without himI feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way
I close my eyes
And he has found me
She raised her hand to feel the rain fall gently on her skin. She saw how the rain made the world even more beautiful than before. The pavement went from the grey to silver, the lamppost were like clouds of light in the river. She would look at the barren tree and how the rain and stars filled it with light and gave off a feeling of tenderness that no one had ever shown to her. A couple stood beneath the tree and for a moment she believed it to be her and the barber but she knew better than that.
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever
Then she always comes to the realization that that couple will never be her and the barber, or anyone else, not with her. The rain starts to feel like ice and tears start to stream down her face how she wished for the Barber to hear her words of love for him, but he will never hear them for he is blind to the love she holds for him. Even though she knows it will never happen the Baker never stops hoping.
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us
She loves him, and every day she will love him more. But as the moonlight fades and the rain ceases the world around her loses its sense of wonder and extraordinary colors. If he were to ever leave her, her world would crumble into nothingness and sorrow. The stars fade leaving the tree branches reaching for her, and the beggars of the street come out to 'greet' her.
I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changesT
he trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers
She loves him, but as each day passes she realizes that he will never love her back the way she does for him. She has fooled herself into believing that he loves her when he doesn't. If she were to ever die he would go on, living a happy life with his wife and child, a life that she will never live to know.
I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happinessT
hat I have never known!
She makes her way back to the shop and stops in front of the window to see the barber give his wife and child a kiss on the head. He holds them in a warm embrace oblivious to the baker outside the window. Her love for him will never die but as long as he has his family he will never notice her.
I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.
He looks up as she enters the shop, her hair wet from the rain, her face still wet from her tears.
"Mrs. Lovett have you been crying?" he said motioning to the streak marks on her face.
"No I'm fine love." She said in a gentle voice pushing his hand away
"Okay, but you know if there was anything bothering you, you could tell me right?" she looked into his brown eyes and saw the sincerity in his words.
"Mr. Barker I-I"
"You what? Are you okay?"
"Mr. Barker I-"she was cut off when he heard Johanna start to cry. He immediately rushed from Mrs. Lovett and went to attend to his family.
Mrs. Lovett looked at the family glad that he was happy, but at the same time sad that she would never have him. Never be able to hold him in her arms and tell him what she has always felt. She looked at the picture of the family she had sitting on the table beside her chair and fingering the picture of Benjamin Barker she whispered in a hushed voice. "I love you."
A/N: okay I know not the best thing in the world but I HAD to write this, Mrs. Lovett and Eponine are so similar, in the sense that they both love a man that they know will never love them back the same way.