Description: My version of how Jackie and Hyde broke up in season 7. Borrowed Caleb from Pretty little liars, this is not a cross over.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except the original storyline.
Author's Note: If this story is received well, read and reviewed I will gladly update it on a regular basis.
Error in Judgment:
Chapter#1
(Jackie's pov)
" No, Steven. You can't just shrug your shoulders and nod. I need to know whether or not you see a future with me.", I all but plead with him to no avail. Why is Steven being so difficult right now? I'm not asking for much. All I did was ask him a simple yes or no question. Why won't he answer me? I have always been nothing but upfront with Steven about every aspect of our relationship. Why does Steven never want to talk about the future with me? Does he not see one where the two of us end up together? When I think about my future, it's centered around him. Someday I know that I want to marry Steven, settle down and have a few of his children. While I know that relationship talk is never something that Steven is crazy about discussing, our future is important to me and I need to know if he sees one with me or not. Can't he see how important this is to me? Would it honestly kill Steven to give me the slightest bit of reassurance that we'll end up together? What it all boils down to, that is all that I'm truly asking for. Can you blame me though? Over the past few months, Donna and Eric have been on the brink of breaking up and getting back together more then a few times. While things might be great for Steven and I that doesn't give me any true indication of our future together as a couple. All I want...no all I need is for Steven to at least acknowledge that he sees us together in a few years. Just a glimmer of hope that we'll wind up together and I'll have my happily ever after. This is all that I want from him. You would think I were asking Steven to commit and marry me right now with the way he has been acting every time I bring up the topic of our future.
" Jackie, I don't know what you want me to say. We're together right now, isn't that enough for you?", complains Hyde more then a little tired of the same exact conversation. Isn't that enough for me? Is he serious right now? NO! It's not enough for me anymore Steven, it used to be but it's obviously not anymore. To be honest, I'm scared. The fact that Steven is so hesitant and unwilling to answer such a simple question has me terrified. What if he doesn't see or worse doesn't want a future with me? If that's the case then why are we even still together. What am I supposed to do wait until Steven grows tired of me and ends things between the two of us? The day that happened, I would be completely shattered. I'm in love with Steven and want nothing more then to spend the rest of my life with him. If the feeling isn't mutual for him then I need to know. Steven needs to open up and tell me how he feels, not wait a few years down the line and then just leave me. I'm in love with Steven, this much I am certain. If he isn't in love with me and wants to end things though then he should say something now so I can find the guy I'm meant to love second best. Is an inkling of hope or even a promise we'll end up together really all that much to ask for? Because I don't think that it is.
" It used to be Steven.", I comment in an almost bitter tone. Back when we first started dating maybe it was, back when I was still a highschool senior, back before Steven ever told me that he loved me...back before I had allowed myself to fall for him so completely. It used to be enough, and I'm sorry but it's just not anymore. It hasn't been for a long while and I am just so tired of pretending that it is . Lately it seems as though the two of us have been having the same arguement over and over again. To be honest, I have grown quite tired of it all. If Steven isn't willing to give me some kind of an answer than I'm not all too sure what it is we're even still doing together. I love Steven, don't get me wrong...but I just can not be with someone who doesn't know whether or not they want to be with me. It is as simple as that.
" It's not anymore Jackie?", questions Steven with a shake of his head. What does it look like to you? You tell me steven. If just being with you were still enough for me does Steven honestly think that I would make such a big deal out of things? All I want is just a little damn reassurance. Had things been the other way around and Steven the one in search of a reminder that I still loved, cared about, wanted to be with and saw a future with him of literally any kind? Without even a seconds hesitation I would tell Steven without even the questioning of a doubt in my mind. He clearly is not willing to do the same for me though. He might think that I'm making a big deal out of nothing, but this is far from nothing to me. The sooner Steven realizes this, the better off the both of us will be.
" No, it's not Steven. All I am asking for from you is just a mere glimmer of hope that you see yourself with me a few years down the line. Honestly is that asking so much? Can't you see how terrified I am at the thought of not ending up with you?", I all but exclaim with the hint of tears threatening to fall from my eyes. This conversation has clearly taken it's toll on me and I am all but spent. To be honest I am just about at my wits end here with Steven. He obviously isn't going to give me the answers that I so desperately need to hear. Much as I would hate for it to be, maybe this is it for the two of us. Could Steven be so reluctant in answering because he simply just does not see nor want a future with me? If this is the case then I truly wish that he would just say so already and get it over with. Would I be upset and heartbroken? Without a doubt I would but at the very least I would know exactly where the hell I stood with Steven. Right now I don't and it is all but killing me.
" I don't know what you want from me anymore Jackie.", relents Steven with a frustrated shake of his head. Swiping at my eyes when tears well up in them, I shake my head in irritation. If I have to beg for an answer from Steven about where I stand in his life then maybe we're not meant to be together anymore. All I have ever done was be upfront and honest with Steven about how I felt for him. Clearly he doesn't want nor does he see a relevent or worth while future with me. I'm not going to just sit around and wait for Steven to end things with me either. Much as I might love him, if he wants to throw everything we have away then there isn't much I can do to stop him at this point. I am so done pleading and making a fool of myself for his affection. God, maybe Caleb was right...maybe I'm hoping for too much out of a relationship with Steven. Honestly I'm beginning to wonder if the only reason he ever told me that he loved me in the first place was because he had hurt me so badly. How am I supposed to believe Steven cares about me if he's not willing to discuss our future together?
" You know what? I don't want anything from you, Steven. It's late, I should probably just go.", I acknowledge in a dismissive tone as I instantly distance myself and become zen with Steven. Standing from my seat beside him on the couch in the basement, I pull my coat on and zip it up. Turning to leaving in a hurry, I stop just as quickly when Steven's hand reaches out to grab mine. Startled by his touch, I nearly tense up immediatly. He had better not even bother asking me to stay, that is not going to happen. Steven does not get to all but shatter my heart and then have me lay beside him still in bed as though nothing happened. That is not how this works. If Steven refuses to acknowledge that I am hurting and in need of a little damn reassurance then maybe we're just not meant to be together anymore.
Not once letting go of my hand, Hyde takes a step toward me," Jackie, come on. Don't you think that you're being a little ridiculous?"
Raising a defiant eyebrow his Hyde's direction, I gently remove his hand from mine," No, I don't. Not one bit Steven, and I'm sorry that you feel that way. I won't be a bother to you anyone, don't worry. In fact, Steven I'm sorry...but it's over."
(Hyde's pov)
" Yeah, haha that's very funny Jacks. It's late and I'm not driving you home. Get in the back room, we're going to bed.", I inform with a roll of my eyes and a frown. This whole I'm breaking up with you routine Jackie has developed to try and get her way with me is getting a little annoying. Does she honeslty think threatening to end our relationship is going to somehow get me to cave and tell her what she wants to hear? If that is the case then I'm sorry but she is about to be sadly mistaken. Everytime an argument doesn't go Jackie's way she tries to give me an ultimatum. That just is not going to happen this time. Do I see a future with Jackie? To be completely honest, I haven't thought ahead that far. What else does she want me to say? I'm not going to lie and just tell Jackie everything that she wants to hear whenever she wants to hear it. I'm not Kelso for christ sake. That is precisely what he used to do whenever he cheated on her. They would eventually get back together and he would swear to never do it again which was a bold faced lie because he always wound up hurting her again. When I told Jackie that I loved her, it wasn't a last ditch attempt to get her back...I actually meant it. If she doesn't understand or believe this anymore then I'm not exactly sure what I'm supposed to do to remind her.
" No, Steven. I mean it, I'm not going to stay with someone who doesn't know what kind of a future they want with me. I'm done, I'm sorry. ...I'm just going to stay at Donna's tonight, I'll see you around Hyde.", mutters Jackie without so much as a second thought before dropping her hand from mine once more. Watching in disbelief as Jackie takes off from the basement, I do absolutely nothing to stop her. What else was there for me to do? Jackie made it pretty damn clear that she no longer wants anything to do with me. Is she really just going to break things off with me over a stupid disagreement? God, why does she insist on being so damn complicated? If Jackie is going to break up with me there's not much that I can say or do to stop her. My only hope is that Donna will talk some sense into her and perhaps she will eventually realize just how unreasonable she is being right about now.