THIS STORY IS NOT MINE...
EXCEPT THE LYRICS THAT RAYNA SINGS THOSE ARE ALL MINE
now normally I don't care if y'all review but I would greatly appreciate it if you reviewed and let know what y'all think of the lyrics at least
Breaking up with Deacon was the second most painful thing I have ever done. The first was having to sit at hospitals and praying to God that he was still alive. I know Deacon is my soul mate the problem is Deacon's soul mate seems to be whatever was inside a bottle. Tonight's performance I decided to sing a new song I had just written in hopes that it will fully hit me why I needed to break up with him. Because I know if I don't get it in my head I will come crawling back and right now that isn't good for either one of us.
Dropping him off of rehab again was extremely hard but what was harder was walking away and listening to him scream his promises of change. I have heard that so many times that every time he says it and I believe him it breaks another piece of my heart when it all turns out to be a lie. So I continued walking away before he could get the chance to see the tears that were beginning to stain my without him since the official breakup has been a living nightmare with wanting him here and knowing that he can't be.
On the tour I have noticed how everyone is treating me like a baby bird scared that I will break and crumble any second. I wish I could give them a reason not to but its hard when all I want to do is fall into a ball and cry my eyes out day and night. I didn't realize how deep in thought I was in until I heard a knock on my door and someone telling me I was on in five. So I brushed away my tears that had fallen and made my way to the stage. Once I finished my usual set I started to address the audience.
"Hey y'all so I have a surprise for all of y'all, I just finished writing a brand new song and I was wondering if y'all would like to be the first people to hear it." Of course a thunderous applause of approval come from the audience. So I turned towards the band and had them start playing the music.
I remember a time when my love was good enoughwe would dance in front of strangers
scream out our love from the rooftops
and sit and watch the sunset
planning out our future
Where is the love you once held for me
what happened to I was your everything
everyday it seems like another part of you fades
I've seemed to have lost you between the bottle and my heart
I look back on the first fight
to the first I'm sorry
and all the promises of change
you once told me your love for me was eternal
but all I have is a broken heart
Where is the love you once held for me
what happened to I was your everything
everyday it seems like another part of you fades
I've seemed to have lost you between the bottle and my heart
I close my eyes and I dream
of a world where your love for me
was bigger than the bottle
Where is the love you once held for me
what happened to I was your everything
everyday it seems like another part of you fades
I've seemed to have lost you between the bottle and my heart
I hadn't realized I was crying until I finished the song and noticed that my eyes were filled with water. I thanked the audience real quick and ran off the stage straight to my dressing room. Through the song I had flashbacks on all the good and bad times in my relationship with Deacon. I know I shouldn't and I know I should be stronger but I couldn't help it I needed Deacon; at least I need to hear his voice. So I picked up my phone and dialed his number. While I was listening to the rings a part of me was hoping he doesn't answer and another part of me was hoping that he does. All to soon I heard the click of the phone letting me know that he has picked up, so I released my breath and started to talk.
"Hey Deacon".