Rin.

That name brought so many emotions to mind.

Sadness.

How Rin had left us. How he had left Haru. Broken Haru. How His best friend leaving on bad terms had hurt him more than anything else.

Reverence.

How they had admired Rin's swimming. how Haru had admired it. How I had always wanted to be like him, if only for Haru's recognition.

Nostalgia.

How it hurts to think of the time of kids. How you were like a shining star. How you were a bright ball of energy that was able to provoke reactions out of Haru that I never could.

Emptiness.

How Empty we felt. How it took everything I had to bring him back to some semblance of normalcy.

Dependency.

How none of could move on after your departure. How we all needed something from you. How agitated I was years after your left and I wasn't over it. Nobody was.

Annoyance.

Your attitude when you came back. Messing with Haru. Taking Haru. You coming back. Why?

Anger.

How you thought you could just waltz back into our lives like nothing happened. How you just trampled past the walls we put up to block out the pain. How you took Haru away. How Haru let you! How you disregarded everyone's feelings. How you made all of my hard work seem like nothing. How the moment you come back, I feel worthless again.

Jealousy.

For how I will never be able to be that special someone to Haru like you. How I will forever have to hide behind the mask of a best friend while my soul shatters into a million pieces. How I will never be able to hold Haru like you or how Rei holds Nagisa. How I will always be alone, for Haru has forever held my heart captive. How I wish things could have been different.

Acceptance.

For how Haru has always loved you. Cherished you. Remembered you. How You will always best me I tournaments. How Haru belongs to you. How

And the most painful,

How I will always be second to you.

Hey. This came to me at 3:30 this morning. I hope you liked it! Please excuse any grammatical errors, For I am tired. Constructive criticism would be wonderful! :)

I feel it is a bit angsty and sort of all over the place, but I would love to hear your thoughts on it. Thank you for reading! :)