PS. My computer is crap so thoughts are on their own. I hope it makes sense.
This is inspired by Chantal Kreviazuk's song, "It feels like Home."
Disclaimer: I own nothing, it does not belong to me. Fox and Hart are responsible for the characters!!
As I stood at the end of the dock watching Sully sail off into the horizon, so many thoughts ran through my head. Why did I stay? Could I have gone? Was it my "family" keeping me here? Was it my work? My work is my life, it is so important to me, to the victims, for justice. Like Angela had said earlier, I had worked everyday since she had known me!! She told me to go! Heck even Booth had told me to go! My best friends in the whole world were literally pushing me onto that boat! Was I that out of touch with society? Was I that damaged? Could I ever truly be happy? Booth told me to go! I can't believe he wanted me gone!! I thought, no I hoped, I meant more to him. What does living wide even mean? Even though he drew that line, I really though that if given the chance then maybe, just maybe. Well I don't KNOW for sure, but I thought!!
Sully was just a fling! To me it was just a fling. My mind was made up before he told me he loved me. It almost made the decision easier. I didn't love Sully, not like he needed me to anyway. I cared for him. If he was shot, or hit by a car, I would be devastated, but I don't think it was love.
As I watched Sully leave the harbour, I felt something behind me. Someone behind me. It felt like home. When I turned around all I saw were those beautiful brown eyes. Nothing comforted me like those brown eyes. I could see myself and who I needed to be in them. That is when it all made sense. Booth was home, my home. In those few seconds that I saw him before I spoke it all became clear.
"What are you doing here"
please make it okay, make me okay!!
"I'm wavin' goodbye, see."
"What do you want"
please say me, please tell me I made the right choice. CHOOSE ME BOOTH!!
"Breakfast."
"I'm not hungry"
breakfast! you want breakfast! I chose you! I let Sully sail away because you are my home and you want to eat
"Aww, come on huh, what are you going to vomit when we come across one of those horrific cases"
a horrific case, that is priceless! thanks Booth!! argh you make me so mad!!
"I don't vomit"
I don't vomit? that is what I come up with. that is my big response! I LOVE YOU! I think.
"Give it time Bones, okay, give it time. Everything happens eventually."
"Everything"
oh thank you, I knew you wouldn't let me down!!
"All this stuff, that you think never happens, it happens. You just gotta be ready for it."
Then he smile, that perfect, Booth charm smile and in that moment I knew. I knew why I didn't go. He was my everything. I made the right choice. I finally felt like I belonged somewhere, and to someone. Maybe breakfast was a good idea, if nothing else, I knew I was home!
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