I have never written anything from Mer's perspective, but I just feel like it tonight because I'm stuck with my other stories. Please R & R. Seriously, the story isn't really about Mer. Please don't throw stones at me. I'm just drabbling. It isn't even a story…

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My legs hurt. Running down the stairs with your heels is a bad idea. Seriously. So, I ran away last night. I ran away because I couldn't make up my mind. Ever since I was a kid, I hate making choices. It's complicated enough to be making medical decisions everyday, why do I have to face such difficult choices in my love life as well?

Ok, maybe I am an ungrateful person, because I've got alternatives and I whine about it. Honestly, that makes me feel bad. Look at Izzie. Oh my God, it was so heart-breaking last night, watching her throwing herself all over the dead guy. And Cristina? Two days ago she was saying she would break up with Burke, but I don't think she still has that option now, does she?

Crap, I'll be late again. I better run before Bailey sends me to the pit. Ouch, my leg hurts.

"You're late. Again. Why can't you people be on time?"

See, I told you, Bailey would be mad. I'm surprised that Alex and George are late as well. No, actually I'm surprised that Cristina is early. Did she really not stop by Burke's room? What if it was Derek? What if it was Finn? Would I have stayed?

"Grey, Karev, the ER needs you. Be careful, don't kill anyone."

Wow. The ER? As if we haven't seen enough gun shot wounds in the past 2 days. I hope they have something different today.

"Looks like they have lots of food poisoned kids, Grey."

I guess this is God's punishment. I shouldn't have slept with Derek.

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"He's going to break up with me."

"Say that again, Cristina?" I am too busy taking off my stinky scrubs in the locker room.

I nod as I hear in disbelief what just happened to Cris. I never understand how she and Burke work as a couple, but it's hard to believe he is ditching her. There's always been something special about the two, and the only people who don't know it are the two of them. The have very kind eyes when they are with one another, if you know what I mean.

"He loves you. You're his only one. Why would he break up with you?" It just doesn't make sense to me, until, well, until I hear what Cristina tells me.

Wow, this is hilarious! I know I'm her person, but I can't stop laughing. I am laughing so badly I have to hold my nose with my fingers—when you can't breathe you'll stop laughing—that's what my mother taught me.

So, back to Cristina, why did she have to strip in Burke's room? Why didn't they lock the door? Best friends do think alike. We must have been stupid. Both of us. But I was only discovered by Callie last night. I think she seems harmless. Look at what a big mess Cristina is running into. Being seen by Burke's parents? I'm feeling so sorry for her now, although I am still chuckling.

"I was hoping to make myself useful."

Bad timing. I don't think it is Cristina's fault. Just like me and Derek. Or Finn.

I wish I could help, but the best I can do is to let her sleep on my couch. You know, Burke actually told her to go home and take her stuff before his parents got there. Who would do this to his girlfriend? He does seem like a Mama's boy to me, but it's not the Medieval Age, why can't he explain the situation to his parents? Why does he have to conceal from them the fact that Cristina has been living with him for a while already? But then of course, there's something I can never understand about men. Derek claimed that he loved me and he was waiting for me at the lobby. And what did he do when Addison appeared that night? He pushed me away!

"I'm so sorry, Cristina. You could stay at my place, and we should go to Joe's tonight." I think we both need to give ourselves a second chance.

"No thanks."

I can't believe Cristina refused.

"What if they evict you?"

"They can't."

Now Cris is telling me she's not going to leave his apartment? How will that work? She says she'll threaten to sleep in Burke's hospital bed if she can't go back to the apartment. She says that would be enough to freak him or his conservative parents out. I guess she has a point. That's why I like Cristina. She and her stubbornness. Just like me and my hopeless addiction to Derek.

I hope she wins. I hope both of us will.