this will be puppyshiping so if you don't like that then don't read it. This isn't a one shot but it can take a while before I update. I have a lot of stories that I am working on. I hope you like the story

blah blah: diary of Joey

'blah blah': thoughts

"blah, blah": talking.

disclaimer: i don't own Yu-gi-oh or the characters

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chapter one: English lesson

"He looked at me with an 'I don't understand' look. I had to smile. He just looked so cute when he had that look. He always claimed that he was independent but when these kinds of situations occurred he didn't know what to do. I knew that he was searching for a reasonable explanation. He always did that. "Magic" he spit the word out like it was something dirty. "Magic doesn't existe, Wheeler" He glared at me. I knew he hadn't had another explanation. On the other hand Kaiba would never say that magic existed. Everyone stared to the purple 'cloud'. Well, it looked like a cloud but we couldn't enter it. Our friend Yugi was in there, duelling an idiot, like usual. They only hadn't expected that he would be duelling in the shadow realm."

Joey stopped reading. He remembered that. Yugi had won as usual. He reread the first sentence. 'I don't understand look' he read. Joey smirked. That was a look that you wouldn't expect from Kaiba and so he would remember it forever. Not that he ever could forget about Kaiba that was impossible. Joey turned a few pages and started reading again.

22february

Today at school I got detention with Kaiba, can you imagine that!? Believe me that he wasn't the nicest person to get detention with. Of cours I got another dog comment. "The stupid mutt doesn't listen and his master can take its punishment." Man, I hate those comments. Kaiba can be so dam annoying, irritating, arrogant and ... sexy. I know that that sounds ridiculous but I noticed it today. He's dam hot, a bit too much actually. I am sure that he didn't see me when I looked at him. He was working on his laptop, again. Does he really have nothing else to do?

Again Joey stopped reading. Yeah, he knew that day. It was a week ago. In that whole week he had thought about Kaiba, like he was addicted or somthing. They had had more fights that whole week then in a month. Not that Joey complained because the only time that he came close to Kaiba was when they had a fight. But he knew that if he really felt something for Kaiba he had to act and soon. There were tons of girls who wanted to date Kaiba. It was true that Kaiba turned them down but one day he would say yes. For some reason Joey didn't want to think about that. The whole week he had denied the fact that he felt something for Kaiba. Now that he had reread his dairy he was sure that he had some feelings for the CEO. "Dam bastard" Joey sighed. Why did he have to feel something for Kaiba, the bastard, the emotionless idiot, the... Joey noticed that he couldn't find any other words for Kaiba except for sweet ones. "God dammed!" Joey yelled. He stood up and looked at his watch. 7.30, mayby it was best to change clothes already. Maybe then he wouldn't be late for once.

8.15, Joey was on time. He was too early, something that had never happened before. His friends weren't there yet. There were maybe 10 people on school at this moment. Joey walked to the usual meeting place and sat down. He sighed. This was boring. He had nobody to talk to. 'Being late is better then being too early' thought Joey and he promised that he wouldn't be early ever again. What could he do to pass the time? Suddenly he saw something interesting. Kaiba was already here. As usual he was typing on his laptop, not paying attention to the people around him. 'Some teasing doesn't harm anyone' thought Joey while he stood up and walked in Kaiba's direction.

"What are ye doing?" Kaiba glared over his laptop and saw Joey. He ignored the blond and kept on typing at the same speed. "Is it that interesting?" Joey asked curious. He saw that Kaiba glared at him but ignored him again. Joey sigh "Hello, I asked something?" he said now. "Go away mutt, my time is valuable" said Kaiba without even looking up. "I am not a dam dog, Kaiba" Joey retorted. From the inside he was happy that Kaiba insulted him, because he could talk with the CEO then but he pretended like he was angry. "Yes you are and I said that you would leave me alone" said Kaiba, finally looking up.

Joey saw that Kaiba was angry too but he was really angry. If his eyes could spit fire then Joey was already dead. "You know Kaiba, you're a bastard. I only came here with good intentions but the only thing you do is insult me." Joey said with an angry growl. "Oh, did I insult you. I didn't know. I just told you the truth." Kaiba retorted. "I am not a dog" "yes you are and you're wasting my time" Joey growled after that. He noticed that Kaiba had put the laptop away and he stood up. "Running, are you?" Joey said. Kaiba glared at him again. "No, I just have better things to do then learning dogs that they may not interrupt someone when he's busy." at this Joey exploded.

He threw himself on Kaiba. They both landed on the grass. Joey landed on Kaiba. "I am not a dog!" he shouted. One moment Joey was on top but the next Kaiba was. 'Dam him for being so strong' thought Joey. They looked in each others eyes. Joey melted inside. He had such beautiful eyes. "You stupid idiot, do you want us to get detention again" Kaiba yelled while he stood up. At the same moment Joey heard the voice of Yugi who asked if he was alright. "I'm fine" Joey snarled while he glared at Kaiba's back. He was sure that the CEO could feel it. "I hate you!" Joey shouted. "Likewise" he heard after that.

Luckily no teacher had seen there little fight so Joey didn't get detention. As soon as the bell rung the gang walked to the class. They moved to there addressed places and took there things that they needed for the lesson. Joey glanced at Kaiba. He was typing again. 'Typical' Joey thought. The teacher started the lesson but Joey didn't pay any attention because he had something more important to think about. Things like Kaiba. How could he, Joey, find out how Kaiba really thought about him? The guy had as many emotions as an ice cube. There was almost no chance that Kaiba would have the same emotion and he was certain that they couldn't be a couple. There were too many hindrances. They were too different.' if we would be couple then Kaiba wouldn't want to go public and I am sure that he wouldn't have much time to do stuff with me because of kaibacorp.'

Joey sighed and stared at his book. He saw that it was English. 'Great, another language. Something that I don't understand either.' Joey thought. Then he looked through the class, searching for something interesting. He saw that Yugi was paying attention. 'Good, then he can explain it to me later'. The teacher was writing something on the blackboard. 'Should I write that down? Neah'. Two girls were writing things on papers and throwing it to each other. 'Should ask what they are talking about? Certainly no'. It was raining outside. That only made Joey sad. Finally his eyes met blue ones. 'Beautiful' was the only thing that Joey thought. He blinked once and noticed then that he was staring at Kaiba and that Kaiba was staring back. Knowing that Kaiba doesn't look away first Joey turned away.

It takes a moment but suddenly he realised something. 'To stare at each other two people must look at each other so Kaiba was watching me.' Joey thought about that. 'If Kaiba is looking at me then there has to be a reason but what reason' Joey kept thinking about that. Suddenly he noticed that people were moving thought the class. 'Was the lesson already over? I know that time goes fast when you are in love but... wait did I think that I'm in love with Kaiba? ... I like him but... love him? Maybe. Wait a minute do I have a discussion with myself? That's not healthy' Joey thoughts were suddenly roughly interrupted by the teacher.

"Mr. Wheeler, because only Mr. Kaiba is left, you two will have this exercise together." this surprised Joey. They had an exercise? "But Sir, I can't make an exercise with Kaiba" Joey retorted. The teacher didn't want to argue about it and only said: "I don't see why not. Maybe Mr. Kaiba can learn you something. It would be good for your grades." Joey sighed. It was true that his grades weren't very high but working with Kaiba, he was sure that he wouldn't pay any attention then. "But sir..." it had no use. The teacher already disappeared. Joey sighed again, stood up, takes his books and walked towards Kaiba. This exercise would probably go on points and he was sure that he needed them. He was also sure that Kaiba talked English fluently. He sat down on the seat beside Kaiba. "Let's get this over with" Joey sighed.

Joey read the exercise and he noticed that he didn't understand what he needed to do. He looked at the sentences beneath the exercise. They should help but this time they didn't. 'Oh no, what now? I need those grades.' to make the situation worse the teacher said that this was easy if you had paid attention. Joey glanced at Kaiba's book. It seemed that the CEO knew exactly what he was doing. He filled the sentences in like it was nothing. "You know this group work" Joey said. Kaiba glanced at him "I know but this easy. Even you with you small brain should know this" he retorted. Joey felt that he was getting angry again but he couldn't risk it. He didn't want to get detention again. "Yeah well, I don't" he said not looking at Kaiba. "Why am I not surprised?" Kaiba smirked while he felt another sentence in. "did you know that there are grades for working in group right?" Joey said. Kaiba glanced at him again. "Yes, I do. But there is a difference between coping and helping and you will do the first one." he retorted. Joey sighed. Kaiba was right, like always. 'I hate that. He is always right' "Oke, then help me" said Joey, now looking at Kaiba. This time it was Kaiba who sighed. "Oke then" he said coldly. "First you take your book, and then you open it on page 74 and not on 54." Joey looked at the page and saw that it was page 54.'Great work Joey'. Quickly he turned the pages until he was on the right page. Then he read the new exercise and again he was didn't understand it. Joey saw that Kaiba was working in his own book again. "Eh... Kaiba could you help me?" Kaiba looked at him. He didn't seem angry, rather irritated and slightly amused. "Well, you have these verbs and you must put them in the right sentence in the right conjugation." Joey looked at the exercise. "But there 50 different verbs and only 40 sentences." remarked Joey. "Of cours else it would be too easy" Kaiba answerd without even looking up from his own book. "Could you help me with the conjugations" Joey asked. Kaiba sighed. "Do I really need to do everything myself. Look it's easy. Just start working on it" Joey looked at the exercise again. "For you it is easy" he maoned while he started on the exercise. Kaiba laid his notes next to Joey. It takes a moment before Joey noticed that it were notes about forming conjugations. Joey smiled slightly. Kaiba was helping him.

In five minutes he had only finished one sentence. It didn't work. He couldn't concentrate when Kaiba was sitting right next to him. He was so close and yet so far away. The brunet didn't even look at him. Joey noticed that Kaiba smelled like cinnamon. Joey thought goes about everything except English. He had to concentrate. Suddenly he noticed that Kaiba was looking at his (Joey's) book. "You really can't do anything by yourself, isn't?" he suddenly said. That totally shocked Joey. 'Don't get angry, you will get detention. Don't get angry, be cool' Joey kept on telling that to himself. "That's not true" Joey answerd, glaring at Kaiba. "Well, if it isn't then prove it" Kaiba answerd, glaring back. "Fine, how?" "Make the whole exercise before the lesson ends and get at least the half right," Kaiba smirked "not that you can do that." "I can even get more then the half right." Joey retorted. "Prove it" said Kaiba. "Fine" Joey answerd now looking at the exercise again. 'I am going to prove to him that I can make this exercise by my own.' thought Joey while he concentrated on the sentences.

Ten minutes before the lesson ended Joey was ready. He looked thought it once more, just to be sure and then give it to the teacher. The teacher looked at him with a troubled look. "Are you sure that you want to give this already Mr. Wheeler. You still have ten minutes left" the teacher asked to be sure. "I'm ready teach." Joey answerd, leaning backwards. The teacher sighs but nodded and walks to his desk to correct the exercise. "I think I just prove that I can make the exercise without help." Joey said with a satisfied look on his face. "You're cheering too soon. You don't know you grades yet." Kaiba retorted while he typed on his laptop. As soon as he was finish, which was rather soon, he had taken his laptop and started typing again. "You know, you can really ruin everything isn't. I mean I made an exercise on my own and I finish before the time was up." Joey said while he looked at Kaiba. "Yes, but in the end it's all about the grade that you get. The time that is left doesn't matter." Kaiba retorted. "That says the one who always says that time is valuable." Joey said. "My time does." was the answerd. After a few moments the teacher stood by Joey again. "Joey..." he started. Joey felt how his hart froze. When a teacher start like that when they stand beside his desk it meant something bad. "Joey, your grade for English weren't that well but today they..." suddenly he was interrupted by Joey "I screwed it, didn't I?"He noticed that Kaiba glanced at them. The teacher smiled. "Actually Mr. Wheeler. You got a B for the exercise." Suddenly Joey felt how happy he was, very happy. This was the highest grade for English for the whole year. The teacher gives him the sheet back. It was true. He had a B. Joey noticed that he was staring at the grade. "I guess that Mr. Kaiba has a good influence on you because I am sure that you weren't paying attention." Joey looked up and saw the teacher smiling to him. Joey didn't know what to say but the look on his face was probably enough for the teacher because he walked away again.

"Well, it seems that you were wrong for once, Kaiba" Joey said while he waved with the paper in front of him.

Kaiba looked up. "a B, he?" He asked.

Joey nodded "yes indeed"

Kaiba smirked "then my method worked."

"What?" Joey asked

"I said that you couldn't make that exercise and I knew that you wanted to prove me wrong"

"So, insulting me is a method of yours?" Joey asks angrily

"Yes and it worked very well didn't it?"

'He's the reason for my good grade' Joey looked at Kaiba. He felt like he should thank Kaiba. 'Yeah right, thank you Kaiba for insulting me. Like I 'm ever going to say that' he thought. Kaiba was ignoring him like usual, not that it bothered Joey in any way. After another minute the bell rung. Joey stood up, took his bag and walked to his friends. He waved with the sheet and let it see to everyone. "Good job, Joey" said Yugi when he saw the grade. "Yeah indeed and that while you were sitting next to Kaiba" added Tristan. Joey wasn't going to tell that the reason he had such a high grade was because of Kaiba. They wouldn't believe that Kaiba had helped him. "Well, Kaiba was very... quiet. It is hard to concentrate then." Joey lied. Together they walked to the next lesson. The rest of the school day wasn't very interesting.

29 February

Today I was too early for once. I know, that's unbelievable. That's why I write it down. Anyway something special happened today. Kaiba helped me with English. I got a B because of that, again unbelievable. It' weird to know that Kaiba actual helped me. I feel like I have to thank him, how ridiculous that sound. The whole day I thought about nothing else except Kaiba. Today I really got the idea that I was in love with him. In love with Kaiba, that sounds so weird. However nobody can say that he isn't attractive. The only thing that bothers me is, well... I it's wrong for a guy to fall in love with another guy right, at least that's what my father says about it. Maybe my father is wrong. If something feels so good how can it be wrong? I mean Kaiba just makes me feel like I am in heaven. He's my personal heaven, my protective dragon, my never ending sea to swim in, and my snow valley to play in. It sounds beautiful but I know that I will never swim in that sea and I will never play in that snow valley because I am sure that Kaiba doesn't return those feelings. He and I, together, it would never work. He has his Kaibacorp and his reputation and everything. He would turn me down. It would break my hart if he did that so I am never going to ask, never.

Joey reread what he just had written. He had to say that it represented all his feelings for Kaiba. Especially the last sentence. He would never ask if Kaiba lived him back. If he was turned down his hart would break. He wouldn't survive it. Joey sighed and hides his dairy in the closet. Keeping a dairy was normally something for girls but he liked it. He could always read what he had done every day. When he read those pages then he felt the emotions he had that day. It was like he could see it happen in front of him. 'I have too much fantasy' Joey thought while he started his computer and opened msn. He saw that his friends were online.

Puppyeyes: hey guys.

Darkcrimson: Hey Joey, told your dad about the grade?

Puppyeyes: of cours I did. He was very pleased.

Lightamathyst: Of course he was. A B is really good.

Darkcrimson: weren't you making your homework?

Lightamathyst: I was but it finished.

Puppyeyes: homework?

Bluewingedbeastchatcher: yeah, English homework. P 75. It's the same exercise as in class.

Puppyeyes: oh, I guess that I can make that.

Lightamathyst: of course you can. You had a B.

Puppyeyes: stop about the grade Yugi.

Lightamathyst: but I only had a B-.

Darkcrimson: that is not that bad either.

Lightamathyst: that says the person who gets a-.

Puppyeyes: wait a second. P 75 right?

Bluewingedbeastchatcher: yes, why?

Puppyeyes: well, it's with irregular verbs and again there 30 verbs with only 15 sentences.

Bluewingedbeastchatcher: look in you theory book on page 67. There are all the irregular verbs with there conjugations.

Puppyeyes: how did you know that I don't know the conjugations?

Bluewingedbeastchatcher: that is the difficult thing about the whole exercise. The rest is easy.

Puppyeyes: I fond the page, thanks.

Bluewingedbeastchatcher: you're welcome.

Puppyeyes: who are you?

Bluewingedbeastchatcher: maybe someone you know.

Bluewingedbeastchatcher is offline

"What!" shouted Joey. It was getting interesting. He didn't know who bluewingedbeastchatcher was but he needed to know. Something told him that it was important. Joey was the one who had accepted him because his friends said that it was alright but he had no idea who he was. Maybe it was even a she. Probable a he. A girl didn't talk like that but a boy isn't that mysterious about his name. 'No, it's a guy'. It didn't matter. He had helped him with the exercise. Joey was sure that he would have another high grade. He would show Kaiba that he could get another high grade, even at homework. This time he would do that without Kaiba's stupid method. The Kaiba had to say that he hadn't expatiated that Joey was intellegent or something like that. Joey smirked. Yeah, he was going to get a good grade on this exercise even if it was the last thing he would do this day.

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so far for chapter 1. i hope that you liked it. It was something new for me because I have never wrote so many emotions. also I don't keep a diary so I had the make the whole thing up. anyway, i think that it turned out pretty well (exept for spelling errors maybe)

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