Kisu.
Hiro,
you know who you always have been in my heart, you know it since we have met. To be honest, the first times you gave me a bad impression. I thought you were a stupid, immature big child who love computer and videogames only. But day by day, because of our common job, I discovered a another positive part of you: for example, you know a lot of things about technology, maths and sciences, you can repair electronic objects very fastly. In your being childish, I realized some values: You are not ashamed to cry, you can express your feelings, your emotions like a simply child, you can love a person with naivety and sweetness.
I'm different to you, you know. I am rational, serious, not romantic and yet I decided to write this letter to you, because I find hard to explain verbally what I think about our relationship which we never admit to each other because Japan's conventions, maybe, because we were afraid of other side's refuse.
We faced together our mission's difficulties: save the world. I still remember how happy you were when you realized that you have the same power of your favourite videogames's characters. We went around the world, we knew different realities, we ran the wrong people, but we escape all dangers and all is end now and I am writing you this letter I am going to leave on your room's desk what is full of posters and cards. Honestly, it makes me happy, full of joy. Do you know the reason?
Even our house seems a kindergarden, without your Playstation on any time, without your science fictions, without your favourite videogames, without your mangas throwed everywhere, it would not be our house.
When you fall asleep on the sofa and you expect I take you on your bed as you do with own children, I recall our first -and only- kiss. I can remember it's so receding, a receding memory. Your chubby face got closed to mine for few seconds, your eyes were half-closed, maybe because you won't see my reaction, your dry and faint lips didn't get open for all time. I caught your face on my hands and I touched light it with my lips, I put my mouth on your ears and licked them. I felt you were so jerkiness for pleasure and surprise. In that time I just forget that we both are males, you were the most handsome man of my life and my biggest crush, too.
The next days after our kiss we talked little or nothing, we can't look each others's eyes, because we were afraid that kiss changed our friendship and yet we just said "Forget it" and be best friends again as before: it envices how our love strong is to stop our friendship.
Now you are sleeping in front of me, your small lips seem so childish and babyish, I just desire to give you a kiss before leave here go to work, but I can't, it is not fair.
I leave this letter on your desk, look it, read it,
Can you acnowledge me a kiss tonight?
Your best friend, Ando.