Well, this story didn't come out like I wanted it to. Well, here's my first FRIENDS fanfic. Its probably gonna be a two-shot, POSSIBLY three. I love friends, and will FOREVER be a Ross/Rachel shipper. I saw TOW Ross' Wedding today, and couldn't resist writing this "what if". Yeah, I kinda really hate Emily, so it probably shows in my writing.

Can't stress enough about how non-proud I am of how I wrote this. But im tired, and desperate to get something into fanfiction, so here ya go.

Disclaimer: I don't own friends, God I wish I did. Coolest thing in the world.

Takes place: TOW Ross' wedding.

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I could feel my heart physically breaking. It was shattering into a million pieces with the sound of her voice.

"I Emily, take thee, Ross…"

Ross, my sweet Ross…

No.

He wasn't mine anymore.

At that thought, the entire room seemed to blur up. I blinked the tears away.

You're too late.

I looked at his face, the only thing my eyes could focus on. He looked at her with a dreamy, far off expression. He was probably thinking of married life and the thousands of babies they plan to have.

"Oh God," I murmured. My thoughts were rushing through my head. I felt sick.

"Now repeat after me. I Ross, take thee, Emily…"

I could feel the tears building up again. I couldn't stay. I wouldn't be able to stand hearing those words leave his soft lips. In fact, I think I would throw up if I stayed any longer.

I stood up quickly, giving myself more of a head rush. Quickly walking down the aisle towards the back doors, I kept my hand covered over my mouth to stop from screaming aloud. I could feel some stares on my back, but I didn't care. As I reached the doors, I could hear him start his vow.

I choked a sob and stumbled over my own foot. My hands shook as they pushed the doors.

"I Ross,"

All strength from my arms seemed to disappear. The doors wouldn't budge.

My arms fell to my sides and I braced myself for the rest of the vows.

I love you, Ross.

"take thee, Rachel…"

I smiled at the thought of those words, but my smile quickly froze when I heard the gasps filling the room.

I wasn't imagining. He had actually said my name.

Turning around slowly, I looked back at them. He was gaping, realizing his mistake.

He just said my name.

The entire room was frozen. I could hear someone in the back pew murmur, "Who's Rachel?"

He just said my name.

I could imagine Emily was mad. Not that I really cared at this moment. I could only look at him.

He said my name.

"I mean, Emily. I take thee, Emily." He chuckled nervously.

Emily's face got redder and redder with each passing second.

Her mouth opened and closed about five times before she finally found words to say.

"No, you just said Rachel." Emily growled.

Yep, she was pissed.

"No, but sweetie, I meant Emily. It just happened."

"Oh right, so you just happened to say someone elses name?!" She raised her voice, "your ex-girlfriends name?!"

"No, no I didn't!"

"Don't even try to deny it."

"Well, fine. I did, but it doesn't mean I still LOVE her!" He insisted.

I exhaled sharply. That hurt.

Somehow, I had found myself at the bottom of the aisle, staring up at them. Everything was moving in slow motion. With some magical force, I managed to speak.

"Ross?"

His eyes locked with mine. Needless to say, I had the attention of the whole room.

"Rachel…" His voice softened.

More gasps filled the room. I guess I answered some of the questions.

"What the hell was that?" I asked quietly.

"Look, Rach. Don't look too much into it. It was a stupid mistake."

"A stupid mistake?" I tried my hardest not to cry, but I failed miserably.

Emily was now giving me the death stare.

"He said my name." I shot at her, not liking the look she was giving me. "My name."

That's right. He said my name. He said my name. He said MY name!

"Please, don't start." Ross begged, not really directing that comment to anyone in particular.

"Look, why is she even here? I thought you said she wasn't coming!" Emily barked at Ross, ignoring me completely.

"She wasn't." Ross grabbed her hands, but she swiftly pulled away, "I swear, she wasn't coming. She told me she wasn't coming."

He looked at me with those giant brown puppy eyes.

"Really, I wasn't gonna come." I told her, running my hand through my hair. "I swear."

"Why did you, then!?" Emily yelled at me, taking a couple steps closer.

That's when I got protective. I stepped closer as well.

"Listen, you! I came here because it's Ross' wedding! He is my best friend in the whole world, and has always been there for me. It's his special day, and he deserves having everyone who loves him here celebrating with him."

Emily laughed bitterly. "Yeah right, well, if that's the case, why didn't you fly in with everyone else?"

"She had work, Em, I told you that." Ross explained for me. "It probably took you a while to get out of it, right?"

I looked down at my shoes guiltily.

"Right?"

"You're such an ignorant cow, Ross!" Emily barked. "She didn't have work!"

It was at this point, it finally completely sunk in that the entire hall was staring at us.

If they wanted a show, I'll give them a show.

"She's right. I wasn't working." I wiped at my eyes.

"Then, what?" Ross asked. "What made you come now and not before?"

"Technically, I came three hours ago and not now… I would have come even earlier if it wasn't for the snooty clerk lady…"

"Rachel." Ross forced my name out desperately.

"Fine, you want to know why I came out to see you?" I snapped, "I came to tell you that I -"

"LA LA LA LA LA!" I heard a buzzing coming from Joey.

"Uh," Joey looked at the phone in his hand, and lifted it higher. "It's Phoebe."

"Yeah, hi guys!" She yelled so everyone can hear.

"Really, Pheebs, right now isn't the best time." I heard Chandler say.

Ross didn't speak, he just continued to stare at me.

God, I love his eyes.

"I'm going into labor!" Phoebe continued desperately.

"You are?" I could hear Monica shriek.

"No. But that had you all distracted, didn't it?" I knew Phoebe was smiling. "I'm so using that again."

"Phoebe…" Chandler murmured.

"Rachel, please. Think about what I said." Phoebe begged me.

As much as I wanted to, I couldn't.

I could see the panicked looks spread across Monica and Chandlers faces. Even Joey took his eyes off the maid of honor to give me a concerned look.

Well, it was now or never.

"Ross, I didn't come before because I couldn't imagine watching the only man I ever truly loved get married to someone else but me, okay? Yesterday, Pheebs made me realize that I was still completely in love with you, and we did all this picture crap to help me get over these stupid feelings, but nothing worked. I had to tell you, but when I came here, you looked so happy with Emily that I just couldn't. So there."

It all came out in a rush. I took a couple seconds to steady my breath,

Ross was frozen for what seemed like hours before he spoke again.

"You love me?"

I laughed bitterly, "Ross, of course I love you. And will forever love you."

"He's getting married, you know!" Emily yelled.

I sighed, and gave Ross one last longing look. "I know that."

And with that, I turned and left. I did realize that I couldn't get through the door, so I went through the giant hole in the wall.

Super classy, Rach.

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