Chapter one:

Morgan's P.O.V.

We are working on a case where the victims are little boys who come from advanced elementary schools.

Reid is staring at the board at the little boys. He seems to have something bothering him.

I come over to him. "You ok?"

He turns to look to me. "Yeah…" He turns back to the board pausing for a second. "Oh yeah….." He says then turns heading around behind me. "I'm going to the bathroom." He says as he walks in that direction.

I turn to watch him go feeling worried about him. I go after him after sharing a glance with Rossi. I go into the washroom and find him standing in front of a sink slightly splashing his face with water. I go to him. "Reid."

He puts his hand on the sink counter and takes a deep breath staring at the running water.

I raise a hand to put it on his shoulder.

He turns to me before I can reach his shoulder. "I think I'm ok."

I give him a worriedly look. "Are you sure?"

He nods. "I think I'm just a little tired or something."

I watch him still worriedly. "Spence. What happened?"

"I…. Can I tell you later?" He asks. "I need to recollect my thoughts on it but we have a job to do."

I put an arm around his shoulders. "You can talk to me." I remind him.

"I know." He suddenly hugs me.

I hug him back. "I've got you."

After a bit we pull apart, he turns off the tap, dries his face then we head back to where the others are.

We get back to work and Reid seems ok now so no one brings it up.

We are soon race out to the location of where we just intel from Garcia that the unsub might be.

Me and Reid are both in the same car as I swiftly drive us to the location along with the other cars following behind us.

Reid shifts in his seat and out of the corner of my eye I spot this.

"You ok?" I ask him as I continue to drive. "Obviously something is bothering you."

"I just have this strange feeling." Reid tells me. "I can't quite explain it and…. I think I hear some kind of bell in the distance… It's too quiet for me to make out though but it's just there."

I frown confused since I don't hear any bells. "You must be hearing things." I tell him.

"I hope so." Reid responds. "It's quiet enough I should be able to block it out."

"Don't let it distract you." I tell him worriedly.

"I won't." He promises.

We are almost at the location and I pull up screeching to a stop.

The others also stop and we rush out as fast as we can.

We go for our guns as we move around the cars to advance on the house.

The unsub is not seen until he peers around the house aiming a gun only to fire just before any of us can shoot him.

The bullet hits Reid making him stumble back before starting to collapse with wide eyes that show pain.

I drop my gun rushing to Reid and I catch him as he falls.

There are more gunshots but they become just this blurry noise as I fall to my knees holding Reid in my arms.

"Reid!" I say hoping that he is ok then my eyes widen when I see the blood on his neck.

He's been shot in the side of the neck in the front area!

I quickly think and make sure Reid is laying on my lap before I swiftly remove my bullet proof vest along with my shirt after as I use my shirt to put pressure on his wound. "Hold on. Don't give up on me." I tell him as I try to slow or stop the bleeding as best as I can. "Please. Keep your eyes open. Stay with me."

"M-Morgan…." He speaks weakly and shakily only to cough slightly with some blood coming from his mouth only enough for one or two drops to drip from his mouth to down his cheek.

"Shush." I tell him ignoring anyone coming over to see if they can help. "Save your strength."

The others back off hoping to give Reid some air in hopes that it'll help but I hardly even notice.

He slowly blinks as his eyes only open to half way. "T-the bells….. It's a….. A little….. Louder." He tells me.

"You're going to be ok." I tell him feeling panic rise in my throat. "You're going to be ok! Just hang in there. Stop talking and save your strength." I can't remove my eyes from his face as I continue to press my shirt to his wound hoping to be some kind of help while I hold him.

There is a few moments of silence then he speaks again almost in a whisper as he is very weak.

"They stopped…." He barely manages to get out.

"Pretty boy. Look at me." I tell him trying to look strong for him.

He weakly looks to meet my eyes as best as he can.

"You're going to be ok." I tell him. "You will be. Just save your strength."

Reid is obviously fighting against himself as his eyes want to close but he doesn't want to let them.

Where's that damn ambulance!?

I am certain that someone called for one so where is it!?

He tries to smile as best as he can. "I-I love….. You." He tells me only loud enough for me to hear.

"Don't talk like you're not going to make it." I say in pure fear. "You are going to make it. Do you hear me? You can do it! I believe in you." I hold him closer as I cradle him in my arms while keeping the other to keep my shirt against his wound. I no longer even notice the others as my world narrows to just me and him. "I know you can. I won't say goodbye because this isn't goodbye Reid."

His eyes slip closed and his head rolls to fully lean against my chest.

"Reid." I say. "Stay strong Spence. Help is on the way."

There is no response making my panic rise.

A few moments later the paramedics arrive.

They rush over to me and they snap me back to reality.

I look to them pleadingly. "Save him."

One who has gloves on reaches over and checks for a pulse.

I want to shout at them to hurry up and save him already but they are professionals so I stay quiet.

The paramedic moves his hand away then looks to me sympathetically.

"Why aren't you doing anything to help him!?" I demand.

"I'm sorry." The paramedic says. "I'm afraid it's already too late."

My eyes go wide and I shake my head slightly. "No….. you're lying!" I look back to Reid. "Come on. Show them that they are lying!?" I gently shake him letting go of my bloody shirt. "Come on Spence!"

There is no response and the paramedics move away to give us space.

I finally stop and I realize that his body heat is fading. "No." I gasp in horror as tears come to my eyes. I hunch over his body as I burst out crying. "No. No. No."

He can't be gone….. He can't be….. He….. He just can't…

I shake as heavy sobs wrack through my body and my heart shatters.

This can't be real… This has to all be a nightmare… A horrifying and terrible nightmare….. A nightmare I want to awaken from right now!

I wouldn't say goodbye….. I couldn't say goodbye….

But….

Now…..

Now it's too late to say goodbye to him…..

I wish I could have said goodbye to him… I wish…. I wish I had told him that I love him too….. Before… Before… Before this happened…. I wish I had given him at least those three words…..

Yes…

"I…." I try to whisper through my crying. "I…. I love you too…"

It wasn't supposed to end like this.